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Wednesday2000

I'm still here, not really much to say. I had a session of the EMDR therapy this week, last one of the year. I am seeing the therapist on the NHS in January so I'm not sure what they will offer me and whether I want to do both therapies at once.

I'm going for a blood test this week, I was supposed to go last week, but put it off. I have to check the centre is open actually as it is so close to Christmas! I didn't think of that.:D

CRANKY40 wrote: »

This years worst news.... my 39 year old cousin and father to 2 small children has been diagnosed with motor neurone disease. I am gutted for him and his family.

I'm sorry.xxx:(

pollyanna_26

Hi all . I've just worked out it's 2 weeks since my last post here :eek:

We were ae the Drs on the 8th for the longest appt ever . He and dd worked out a whole new plan . She was adamant she never wanted to breathe the same air as that consultant again so he's brought her back into the local trust under the chief consultant . I've had good experience with her in the past so hopefully all will be ok . It will save all the stress and exhaustion of long journeys out of the area .
She will be seeing the clinical lead at the pain clinic to explore pain relief options and physio will be sorted .
She has been referred for counselling at our surgery and a letter arrived yesterday for an appt in January . She is allowed to decide what she wants to talk about so no areas she doesn't want to revisit .

We went to town after the Drs and picked up a months meds to take her through to January . Oramorph and a couple of others were out of stock but a word with the Pharmacy led to the care home section in store providing the missing items within 20 mins . That's happened once before so one to remember if you take meds that can't be missed .

We did shopping and other stuff and by the next day neither of us for fit for anything . I think it was a combination of all the stress and anger of the week before with barely any sleep and the fact we were still carrying the virus .
Both of us have spent a lot of time since mainly in bed , we never go near shops at weekends but had to brave town and the village last Saturday which wasn't a good idea at all .

Today I have some energy so am trying to catch up on the threads .
I haven't read back yet but hope you're all ok .
How are you So Worried ? I know you mentioned the surgery would be before Christmas , I have been thinking of you and hope all is well x

polly

ArthriticOldThing

I'm just reading along as usual. Feeling exhausted all the time and struggling to even post.
Wish everyone as good a Christmas as possible.

Wednesday2000

Grr, I just got a call from the NHS therapy place saying they have to cancel my January appointment and make it for February instead.:mad: How typical. My husband had to book time off so now he will have to go and cancel the Jan day and book another day in February.

candygirl

So sorry about your Nephew Cranky
Aww I love Parson JRTs LW 😍😍
Just finished all my shopping yaay :j
Healing vibes n huggles to all xx

pollyanna_26

Cranky that's dreadful news about your cousin such a thing to happen when lots of people are being merry and bright . My thoughts are with you all x

LW Glad to hear Ronnie is back with you both for a while . Thanks for the chrome reminder . It did get installed a while ago but I keep forgetting it's there ! Is the desktop back yet ? I'm wondering if you went to see Star Wars , I haven't been to the cinema for a few years , apart from finding sitting still for long periods painful I don't like the sound nowadays which seems to bombard me from all sides and distracts me from the screen . Have you heard any more about your husband's appts ? 'Tis Solstice Eve and tomorrow we slowly start to turn back towards the light which should lift the mood a little . I find this time of year hardest of all . We had some snow , lots of frosty and icy days but the dull and gloomy ones really lower my mood .

AOT As I just mentioned this time of year seems to make things much harder . You mentioned in an earlier post not wanting to moan but sometimes a little whinge or vent helps . I've done it often enough :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl: in fact this was the first place I came with a printable version of the anger and frustration my dd and I felt after the consultant fiasco . No one here will tell you to pull yourself together or whatever inane platitude they can come up with . In our various ways we are all on the walking in the shoes journey and understand . x

I'm stopping for now but will be back when I've eaten . I haven't had much appetite recently but actually feel hungry now so maybe this virus is finally on its way out .
polly x

LameWolf

Hi all :hello:

Polly good to "see" you.:o
No the desktop still isn't back. :mad: They're still waiting on the new motherboard (which you remember they damaged) so prob not til New Year now.
Yes we did see Star Wars - Mr LW wanted to see it and, wimp that he is, won't go to the cinema on his own. I couldn't make heads or tails of it, and I'm usually good with SF - it's probably because I haven't seen all of the Star Wars films, so I don't "get" the references iyswim.
We're hoping it's dry tomorrow, so we can sit out on the patio for sunrise.
Re Mr LW's appts - he had the one already, we thought there were two more to go, but he has now received three appointment letters, one for 4th Jan, and two for 29th Jan, thankfully at different times of the day. And he has to fill in a sleep diary.
I'm hoping as an adjunct of this, he might get some sort of treatment that mitigates the snoring and the fidgeting at night; he invariably keeps me awake (I'm a poor sleeper to start with) and I honestly think I am now seriously sleep-deprived.

I agree this time of year is hard; it's also very difficult to see everyone enjoying themselves and doing "family" stuff when you have such dark and horrible childhood memories as I do.
Still, I have Ronnie here; he's a real little ray of sunshine.

pollyanna_26

LW I've seen you refer to yourself as Wolfie or Wolfy do you mind if others call you one of those names ? It always feels a bit impersonal typing LW . No offence taken if you prefer me not to .

I'm now picturing laptop wars taking place . That's a long time to wait for them to source a new motherboard , you'd think they would be keener to sort it out after they caused the damage .

At least you now have the dates of the forthcoming appts . Will you need to take and collect your husband to all 3 ? Hopefully the 2 on the same day wont require double journeys each way .

I hope you see the sunrise , I've checked the forecast for this stretch of the NW coast and we wont see the sun . We have had a lot of freezing fog rolling in over the last few days which is a downside for living so close to the Irish Sea . Visibility is showing as very poor overnight and into the morning .

It would be good if MR LW can get help with the snoring and fidgeting , I understand how quickly losing sleep can impact on others too .

I really wish we could somehow take those dark bad memories away for you . Such things are too deep and damaging for words .
I was one of the lucky ones with a firm but good mum and a beloved dad . We never had much money but were well fed and cared for and Christmas was simple but good .
I too was married twice but did things the opposite way to you . My late 1st husband was a loving and gentle man and Christmas was a lovely time with the older children . I remarried and that was when i learned people could be evil . I had never had an experience of violence and abuse and it nearly finished me off .
He was an alcoholic and as i later discovered taking drugs . It was Christmas that finally made me look for a way out as i wanted my younger two to have a childhood like their older siblings .
Back then there wasn't much information on DV but I found Gingerbread and secretly took legal action unknown to him to have him removed from the property along with a power of arrest if he came near . He'd already become known to the police as a good neighbour used to phone them and they'd arrest him .
I was lucky my name was on the mortgage and he wasn't interested in paying bills . My youngest two got their good Christmas's but nowadays I don't feel as I used to as my memories were not the ones they once were .
Sending you a gentle hug at least you ended up with the good guy .
Just have your sort of holiday both two legged and four pawed .
polly xx

pollyanna_26

Catch up part 2 .
How are you now Wonky Teapot ? Have you had the dental appt yet .
We both loved the " Stone in the shoe " and have adopted it for times we may need to think it . Pretty good Karma of the bad type I reckon .

Hope you're resting when you can Tink .

I struggle with a routine maddie . Poor sleep and good or bad days make things fluctuate . I sometimes settle for the bare minimum on bad days . Once you reason things through and stop feeling guilty a balance appears , still unpredictable but if the very basics get done it's enough at that time . Pushing on slows things down in the long run .

That's annoying Wednesday . Is this new therapy or the EMDR ? If the latter it isn't good to leave a long gap .

You seem to be getting along well Candy . Such improvement since you were dreading the bloods !

How's the leg now Cranky ? I hope it's healing well . is the HT ok ?

I think LL may already have gone on holiday , I've lost track of time over the last couple of weeks .

Thinking of all who read or post . I do hope So worried is ok . Hi to Elona , Curly Top and our other posters , memory isn't good at the moment .
Oh Prinzess and her dear mum .

I hope you all get through the following week whatever you're doing . Remember to pace yourselves and build in some rest and me time when you can .

We have to face a food shopping marathon on Friday . Most store cupboard items have been used up . Not looking forward to it but needs must .

I'm hoping to keep up here . So will try to post more often . After Fridays shopping trip I have no intention of going out until after the holiday , the family know and hopefully dd can have a few days with her boyfriend as he finishes work on Friday until Wednesday . I hope to read and like Mr LW have marked a few things to watch on TV including the new version of Little Women . I like classic dramas and historical stuff rather than the more popular stuff .
I will work my way once more through my David Tennant ( my doctor ) Christmas specials boxset and will be happy .

Take care all
polly x

ps Speaking of DT for our fellow DW fans , he is filming " Strange Omens " at the moment . Will be for Amazon but later will be shown on the BBC.

Sleep tight all x

lessonlearned

Sorry Pollyanna........no not on holiday yet. I am afraid I have just been awol.

Unfortunately I had a massive fibro flare up as a result of my vaccinations.....the chemist warned me I might have SOME joint and muscle issues......talk about understatement. :rotfl: ......even typing was too much some days although I have been reading and following you all.

Anyhoo....I’m feeling much better now although it has taken several weeks to get back on track.

The other thing I find very distressing is I have been rather melancholy this last couple of weeks. I know it’s over 3 years since my husband died but Christmas time is very difficult for those of us who are bereaved. I have been missing him dreadfully just recently. I guess there are no time limits to grief, memories of Christmas past have a tendency to hit me sometimes.

Hey ho, onwards and upwards - one simply has to get on with the business of living, making Christmas happen for my children. The world keeps turning and all that.

Anyway hopefully 2018 will be easier. I lost my husband and my Parents all within 2.5 years. Had to clear two family homes, then my dads apartment, deal with all the legal stuff and then that nasty business with my sister earlier thus year which just about finished me. Still the worst is over and I’m determined to rebuild my life and make a fresh start next year.

I have my holiday to look forward to - I set sail on 7th January and then next July will see the arrival of my first grandchild. Life turns full circle. I just wish my husband could have lived to see his grandchild.........he would have made a wonderful grandfather.

My DIL is Venezuelan and her parents still live there. They will visit the U.K. every so often but in effect, out of a possible 4 grandparents, I am the only one who is going to be around. Poor little mite. I will just have to step up to the plate. I must get strong, fit and healthy so I can assume grandmother duties:rotfl: so that’s my goal for next year. When I get back from my holiday I shall be going to the gym and working on my health and fitness.

I have also been approached by my old employers to come out of retirement. I’m mulling it over. I loved my job but had to give it up to become my husbands carer. My line of work was challenging, stimulating, interesting and financially rewarding. I’m not sure if I could manage full time but I would be happy to consider temporary contracts which I could either renew or take a break when needed. And I would certainly have to restrict the travel.

I’ve told them I’ll think about and get back to them after my holiday. At any rate it’s very flattering to be asked.

I am all set for Christmas, decorations up, presents wrapped, freezer and fridge full of goodies, so all is good. Getting organised for a six week trip has been like a military operation but I think Im about there. Hair appt tomorrow, chiropodist Friday, car MOT booked for next week and steroid injections booked for 4th Jan.

Just need to clean the house from top to bottom and then I’m done - nice and clean for the burglars as my late husband used to say :rotfl: He always used to laugh at my insistence on cleaning the house before we went away but I’d rather push myself beforehand than come back to a mess.

Anyway I hope you all have a lovely Christmas and a wonderful new year. I’ll drop by before I go on holiday to say my farewells.

Hope you all stay as well as you can.