Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 2 - Groundhog Day

crazy_cat_lady

Gosh - yesterday ended up being a real stinker of a day in the end. It really went from bad to worse in every aspect. I know that I personally am doing a good job, but I keep being reminded that I'm part of a struggling team. It's always a bit of a double edged thing - I can barely keep going with all of my own stuff and then I end up picking up other things that should have been done but aren't... Well, it's just one more day. I'm really tired and can't think rationally. I ended up in with the Head yesterday afternoon just because he caught me looking all stressed out towards the end of the day and wanted to know what was going on. He is still an amazing guy, and I've worked for him for 3 months now - I think he's brilliant. I feel as though he trusts me and understands me and I don't feel guilty moaning at him. There just aren't any immediate solutions - it's a stressful time of year and things aren't going well in the department. Simple as that.
Anyway - I was keen to get out of work last night. One of my best friends there is leaving on Friday (tomorrow!) and I'm absolutely devastated about it. We've worked together for 11 years and I'm not sure how I'll manage there without her - she's my go to person when my mental health gets bad. Then I got home and my trainer called me to let me know that she's decided to give up with PT for the moment. I cried then because it was kind of the last straw after an absolutely s h I t t y day from start to end. I'm trying to see the bright side about the money I'll save now I don't have a PT any more but I actually just feel as though I'm losing a couple of the best friends I ever had. I know people say that they will stay in touch with each other, but it's never the same. I feel all sad thinking about it again.
Thankfully - I woke up this morning and normal service has resumed. I'm still gutted about my friends, but felt more like pulling myself round and getting on with life in general. Work was back to normal (one more get up) and I survived the day - not too much going on. Loads of marking to do though unfortunately and I reckon I'm going to have to bring a load home.

Eager_Elephant

Oh CCL have a ((( )))

What a really c r a p day - I would have cried as well.

If your work colleague and PT are real friends then you will stay in contact. Hopefully it will be easier to have lunch/coffee dates with them now work and PT don't get in the way!!

Hope today goes well and you have a fab Easter.

SpekySquarehead

I like EE's idea of now being able to enjoy their company without the confines of work or exercise, try and take it positively as I can see you already are (very MSE of you).

Hope today is a better one.

crazy_cat_lady

We had a leaving 'assembly' for my friend this morning and I cried my eyes out from beginning to end. Mainly sadness, but also anxiety. I am like the joke of the school because I cry at anything and everything... Obviously now I'm just shattered because I've been crying. I've spent my free lesson today preparing everything I need to take home to do over the holidays and I've also been roped in to coming in for a day during the second week as well :eek: Things are just way busy at the moment. I'm going to knuckle down over the weekend and see how much work I can get out of the way before we go away on Monday, otherwise I will either have to take some with me, or I'll spend my holiday stressing about having it all to do when I get home.
3 lessons to go - I can get through this!

sidsmum

You seem to be tired out!
Have as good a rest as you can during the holidays.

crazy_cat_lady

I think I am worn out sidsmum. Trouble is, the more tired I get, the more anxious I get and the less sleep I get. It's a horrible cycle to get stuck in. After staying awake until midnight last night, I woke up at 6am this morning. I've tried, unsuccessfully, to get some more sleep so have decided to catch up on here and then try again.
So I made it to the end of term just about intact. I was exhausted yesterday but have planned and brought everything home that I needed. This includes 2 sets of test papers to mark, 3 sets of exam papers to mark, record and analyse and 2 sets of coursework to annotate. That's a massive chunk of work so I will be lucky if I get it done this weekend before we go away. On top of that I need to get the house at least presentable for bestie who is feeding the cats for me next week, and get packed and ready to go. I also have to get ds to football and do my tutoring this afternoon. I have to be honest - I just feel shattered again at the moment so my first priority is just to have a bit more sleep. Then I need to get the rest of the family on board with helping - it shouldn't all be my job to get ready for the holiday.
I'll check back in later - I'm really yawny again so off to try for more sleep.

crazy_cat_lady

Morning all :coffee: :hello:
I'm just enjoying a cuppa and the end of the Grand Prix befire I make a start on what is going to be a very hectic day. Yesterday ended up being a complete write off in the end. I just couldn't get back to sleep and then that triggered off a migraine so by early afternoon I was in a dreadful state physically. I managed the football run and the tutoring but absolutely nothing else at all. As we're heading off on our jols tomorrow then I have an exceedingly long list of stuff that won't wait to be done that I have to do today. On top of that, Sunderland will be losing at football at home this afternoon, so the boys will have the car, and I need to see my mam - which means we need to work around only having 1 car.
So, a sample of what needs to be done:
The rest of the washing needs to be dried
Packing needs to be done
Shopping for the hol as we're self catering
Get cat food for bestie feeding the kitties next week
Take dd to return a top she bought but doesn't like
Hoover right through, mop floors and dust
Sort and put rubbish into outdoor bins
Visit my mam this afternoon
Take marking to my mam's with me as I've done nothing
I feel as though I need another week just to get started!
Anyway - I'm going to get on and make a start with everything. Hopefully I'll be back on later with some spectacular progress to report. We shall see. Must really try to get the rest of the family on board when we're all home.

crazy_cat_lady

Unsuccessful in getting the family on board (eyeroll). Sunderland did indeed lose spectacularly at football (again). DS came home and went straight out again to see his friend, and dh has gone to bed unwell. Please excuse the horrific copy and paste I'm about to do from the small things thread, but there are only so many ways of saying the same thing...

Well I have been a very busy bunny indeed today. I'm literally just stopping for the first time since 9am. And I still have more to do - I just need a rest and to either finish up later or tomorrow before we go.
So I did a good sort out and deep clean of the kitchen this morning - 2 whole bags of rubbish out. Then went out to do the little bit of shopping with dd that I had promised her. Bought a couple of groceries for the trip, the cat food, and dd exchanged her top.
Got home, changed the beds for washing, and hung the done load of washing out.
Went to my mam's - caught up for an hour then did 3 hours of marking.
Got home, hoovered right through and have washed up and mopped all floors that I can mop. Washing done and folded.
Still to do: packing, collect my medication (tomorrow) and go to the butcher (tomorrow). Rest of grocery shopping, shower and get an early night if possible. I'm only just over half way through my marking as well and I wanted it done before the hols, but I think I've done enough to not have to take it with me.
I'm just about to have a snack and settle in front of the telly with my crochet. Hopefully I can stop stressing about getting ready for tomorrow because it's very obvious that nobody else is at all...

Eager_Elephant

Have a fab holiday CCL. Try to relax, fingers crossed you get some decent sleep.

Hope the family help with the packing this morning!!

Bobarella

Cat - Sorry you have had two people you really enjoyed spending time with and getting support from, move away in such a short space of time. It is sad.
You sound like your birthday was a great success though. And I hope your time away will give you the total break from work at least (if not child wrangling)
I hope the lovely weather we've been having will help to pick you up a bit. I know that a bright day always helps me.

All the best

Bob