Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

Pyxis

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

On a humourous note should I be concerned that the inner house looks like a bombsite? It comes to something when one has to remind ones others to do housework! :rotfl:

So, what did your last slave die of, WaS? :rotfl::rotfl:

tea_lover wrote: »

Well this should be the new thread motto

Always the right time for a cup of tea.

Always (the) Right Time For A Cup (of) Tea

ARTFACT

So, Artfact could be another thread motto!

elsien wrote: »

Do you have an inner house, WaS? I'm intrigued as to how that works?

She lives in a castle, so there is an outer Keep, and an inner Keep. The outer Keep is ok, but the inner Keep is a bomb site. Or should that be a catapult rock site? Boiling oil site? Battering ram site?

There's also a motte and bailey!

System

Happy (belated) Birthday Melly!!!

Argh i'm in a ranty mood. Something i read about has set me off. It was basically about the larger ladies who appee#ared in bikinis on This Morning

[penguin as it talks about weight issues]
Reading about it makes me feel like a terrible fat person. I mean technically i should be standing shoulder to shoulder shouting from the rooftops that obese women look amazing in bikinis but i can't. Because i don;t think that. I worry maybe my feelings are influenced too much by society and the media but personally its just not a good look to me.

And i worry. I worry that its becoming normalised to be mobidely obese. I worry that someone who might have once wanted to lose weight to be healthier, might now think "sod it i'm amazing as i am", and whilst i don't want anyone to feel anything less than amazing i worry that some don;t understand the effects being that size can have. That people just don;t care. Which is alien to me. I know i'm morbidly obese and i know right now if i dont already have it i'm a high risk for diabetes not to mention dropping dead of a heart attack.

Maybe its just me who hates being fat and can't embrace the whol body positivty thing? For me being fat is a constant reminder of how broken my brain is. I largely ended up this way due to medication for my bipolar and the horrible tendancy to binge eat when my MH is bad (goes both ways, have also been known to starve myself, when i was bullied in secondary school for being fat i exosted on a can of diet coke and a bread roll a day, not suprisngly i lost a lot of weight but ended up looking very ill)

I worry that by celebrating obesity we are verging towards the same dangerous trends of pro ana and pro mia ideologies. We all know the devastating impacts eating disorders can have on people, yet nobody ever talks aboout binge eating and the other end of the spectrum. Doctors send you away saying to follow diet and exercise but do NOTHING to address the psychological issues many of us fat people face. penguin

TL: Dr i worry we are normalizing obesity and that people aren't getting the help they need.

also apologioes mood is somewhat up and i tend to ramble/rant when it is

whitewing

Actually Messed_Up, I totally agree with you.

Not to mention that I would love to be able to do starjumps without my belly and bum nearly ripping out of their skin.


Also, belated birthday greetings to melly.

whitewing

And good lick faerie. Haha, I mean luck.

pyxis, have you been drinking? *insert massive grin smile here that I am too lazy to search for*

good luck with job interviews.

cuddles for gitdog (bound to be in the doghouse by now)

WaS others - tidy up time! Do they ever redecorate? (I ordered some carpet and wallpaper samples the other day, so it is on my mind).

System

whitewing wrote: »

Actually Messed_Up, I totally agree with you.

Not to mention that I would love to be able to do starjumps without my belly and bum nearly ripping out of their skin.


Also, belated birthday greetings to melly.

It's not just me then

Like i don;t want to go back to unhealthy ways and be unhealthily thin, i'd just like to lose enough weight so i don't get out of breath and so that i can enjoy life more. I just want to be healthy and have a long a life as possible and at my current weight it is putting limitation on that Its hard to make sense of when i see people even heavier than me tell me i'm good as i am and don;t need to lose weight, when i know i do/

faerielight

It's not just you, Messed I agree with you too.. I really hate being overweight, I don't feel attractive or healthy.. Instead of the media focussing on skinny and obese sizes,I think they should try and celebrate healthy weights.

Waves_and_Smiles

I agree with you MU, it is a worry.

Hang in there Faerie, big comforting hugs.

Hahahaha! Quick recap on the inner world and MPD/DID for those interested. There is a huge, white victorian style house in woods. This is where my others are when they are not either in charge of the body or looking out at the world with me. They live their own lives together when I am not aware of them. They have their own rooms that they can decorate however they want, a living room, kitchens, bathrooms a reception room. Pretty much like any other house. It has been there as long as I can remember, it was certainly there when I was 4 because when I first started school I tried to stay in the house so I didn't have to go! We can change bits of it, for example we put paths through the woods that always looped round back to the house because the young ones kept getting lost, but it takes all of us to agree to a change for it to happen. If one person disagrees it will stay the same.

The inner world has seasons like this one, different weather conditions, electricity, running water. It is just like anywhere else. Even I have a room in the house if I want to use it. Lucee's room is always chaos with toys everywhere but normally the house is kept clean. Currently there are clothes everywhere, magazines, makeup and dirty glasses! I look like I have a group of teenagers! Nothing is wrong, they apparently couldn't be bothered tidying after the weekend. Lazy bunch! I did help with the cleaning though while laughing a lot because the mess was actually hilarious.

Disclaimer-Obviously I don't believe it is a real life house, the house is a part of 'me' as my others are parts of 'me' and I am a part of them, everything and everyone we have created is all from the same person who we all represent. Just as everyone has different roles in their own lives such as the person at work, the person as a parent, the person who goes out partying or the person under pressure so do I, it is just that in my case I am further along the DID spectrum so my different selves represent as separate people rather than as aspects of the same person. DID isn't as exciting, weird or dramatic as many people believe, everyone is on the DID spectrum which shows the moment someone responds differently in one situation than they would another. In my case it is just more exaggerated and my different roles in life are split rather than the same person reacting differently.

It isn't as necessary now as it once was because we all had therapy which allowed us to feel safe reacting differently to different situations as ourselves without having to get someone else to take over the roles in life because we were scared. Originally though as a child, teenager and in our early 20's we all had different things we would do and would switch over to the person most suited. Now most of us aren't locked into specific roles so there is little need for others to take over the body and leave the house unless you are Lucee in which case you try to take over as much as possible because it's fun.

The parts of what makes up the whole do have their own lives, in the same way that I can retreat inside myself and stop being aware of the 'real' world (basically become catatonic in this world) so can they and as I can interact with them, they can interact with each other. Rather than just ceasing to exist when they aren't observing the outside world they carry on their lives in the house.

mellymoo74

Thanks WaS.
Nervous
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Waves_and_Smiles

Morning Melly! It's going to be fine! Big hugs!

mellymoo74

My confidence has gone lol.
Gotta chase OHs discharge letter today as well got till next Wednesday to get info over for PIP mandatory reconsideration