Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

Waves_and_Smiles

Awww, hibernate in the fort for a while, Welly. We shall throw chocolate biscuits at you!

Pyxis

Could you draw me a bird , Welly?


A daft bird would be ok!

Pyxis

By the way, I shall be at an AmDram workshop for most of today.

Will catch you tonight!

Hope you all have a good day!

Flybaby

Hello squishables.
WaS - hope your hand is improving
Faerie - You go girl!
squishes welly through the hibernation blanket - If it makes you feel any better - I don't do TV, newsapers or any social media because they often make me feel bad and I find it very frustrating when people try to tell me about things that I have "missed" and I normally end up being quite short with them.
Melly moo - squish


Plodding along as usual here....and plodding suits me just fine. Little wobbles here and there but I seem to be doing ok and am debating whether to stick with the current status quo for a while or take on a new challenge, which would be to tackle the expanding waistline which I know is affecting my health. Hubby has lost over a stone since the beginning of the year and is about to become lighter than me!

Waves_and_Smiles

Hello Fly! Flysquish!

I am now back in contact with my old friend and colleague! This is mostly lovely! But it throws up a difficult scenario of having to explain things. The last time she saw me was when I had my psychotic break and walked straight out of work mid-shift and took myself to the hospital. She has no idea that I have mental health problems, she just knows I suddenly resigned and never spoke to anyone again. This is going to make me feel very awkward explaining this to say the least...

Also Penguin about suicide

Her partner who I also knew very well committed suicide. I am really shocked and totally confused by it. He was also a good friend that I spent a lot of time with. That makes 7 people that I have known well who have taken their own life. Are we sure it isn't me? End penguin

jobbingmusician

Ha ha ha, we are TOTALLY sure it isn't you, WaS!

Don't worry at all about telling her about your MH - it will be a double relief for her as it will also help her with dealing with any internal stigma about her partner, IYSWIM - it will help her see still further that MH is a part of everyone's life.

And as Louis Appleby said (very, very valuable quote) 'We are all mentally ill sometimes'.

faerielight

I feel so low today,and completely energy zapped. what the agency put me through on thus, leaving me for 24 hours with raw sewage and a loo I couldn't flush, leaving me with 5 mins to spear before the trauma bpd assessment, was utterly despicable.. It's terrifying enough witnessing raw sewage in the home and patio, let alone leaving me for 24 hours. I have to get out of this place soon. my sanity can't take it any more. If my gp still hasn't written the letter about my illnesses to help get me up to band A on mon, I'm going to take the forms to the council anyway. I can't wait any longer. I am not surprised I'm so angry all the time, the inequality and exploitation give me a cold rage, and my brain loop then goes back to my evil mother who I can picture in her million pound home and garden when I don't even have a working toilet

Waves_and_Smiles

Big hugs Faerie, you have just been through a lot that took a huge amount of will and strength. You are mentally and physically exhausted and it is totally understandable that you would feel low afterwards. Be gentle with yourself for the next few days and take things as easy as you can, give yourself time to heal and recover.

I have had a long email chat with my old friend and it has been much easier than I thought. She has also had a degree of mental health problems which although I am very sorry to hear made it much easier for me to talk about what has happened since she last saw me when she believed I was fine and I didn't even have a diagnosis.

She did gently tell me off for walking away from everyone back then. She said of course she would have supported me and done all she could to help, I was one of her closest friends and she wouldn't have judged me at all and would have wanted to be there for me. She also pointed out that we worked in the mental health field so if she was horrified by it she wouldn't have done the training and the job, that is a very good point but I couldn't think rationally enough to see that at the time. I was just very ashamed that I was so unwell. I promised her that if I relapse I will tell her this time and allow her to help me and she will tell me if her mental health becomes bad again.

We will stay in touch now, it is lovely to talk to her again. We used to spend a lot of time outside of work going for long walks, having meals out and getting drunk together, sharing our problems, we were very good friends for years. So today is a good day, my social circle has expanded a little more and I have someone I care about very much back in my life after 20 years. We pretty much picked up where we left off, it wasn't awkward at all for either of us. Just two old friends catching up. I am emotional but happy.

Pyxis

Super news, WaS!

Waves_and_Smiles

Morning Pyxis! How was Amdram?