Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

little_green

hello dropping in bc feeling anxious. probably sounds stupid & i know it is but i'm really worried about this coronavirus. this is exactly how my anxiety/ocd manifests. I mean i know the likelyhood is low but then i just start thinking well there's a possibility & that's enough .... & the prospect of not leaving the house & wrapping myself in bubble wrap sounds appealing.
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i'm aware that as i type this the post is so ridiculous people will probably think i'm being insulting or sarcastic ... the saddest part is i'm not, i genuinely have these thoughts.

calleyw

little_green wrote: »

hello dropping in bc feeling anxious. probably sounds stupid & i know it is but i'm really worried about this coronavirus. this is exactly how my anxiety/ocd manifests. I mean i know the likelyhood is low but then i just start thinking well there's a possibility & that's enough .... & the prospect of not leaving the house & wrapping myself in bubble wrap sounds appealing.
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i'm aware that as i type this the post is so ridiculous people will probably think i'm being insulting or sarcastic ... the saddest part is i'm not, i genuinely have these thoughts.

Little_Green,


Some of us are well aware of how things like that take a hold. I have had such bad anxiety that I have been shivering in bed not able to get warm or to sleep because of it.


It all makes sense to you but you know that other people will not understand. Its ok to have feelings like this. Acknowledge them and go and have a hot drink. Chewing gum is suppose to help with anxiety as it tells out brains we are safe as other wise we would not be eating. If that makes sense.


I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight. Take care


Yours


Calley x

Waves_and_Smiles

It isn't insulting or sarcastic Little_Green, I have OCD myself and fear all sorts of things that I think would make me look stupid to other people. Intrusive thoughts are horrible. Wrap yourself up in something warm and do something you find comforting, even if that is a hot drink and a cuddle of a stuffed toy. What matters is to you your thoughts are very real as mine are to me, it doesn't matter what anyone else might think. You can always share any fears here and we will understand.

jobbingmusician

Gosh, sorry that it's such an age since I've been on here! Lots of love to everyone - I have been thinking of you even though I haven't logged on. I'm doing lots of work running backwards and forwards to the airport, and quite enjoying life. I remembered a song from my childhood recently 'Count Your Blessings' and have been trying to remember to do this. One very positive thing that has happened is that we've bought a new pillow (a horribly expensive one!) for Mr JM and it seems to have really helped him. He is sleeping sooo much better (and it has made him much easier to live with LOL)

little_green

calleyw wrote: »

Little_Green,


Some of us are well aware of how things like that take a hold. I have had such bad anxiety that I have been shivering in bed not able to get warm or to sleep because of it.


It all makes sense to you but you know that other people will not understand. Its ok to have feelings like this. Acknowledge them and go and have a hot drink. Chewing gum is suppose to help with anxiety as it tells out brains we are safe as other wise we would not be eating. If that makes sense.


I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight. Take care


Yours


Calley x

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

It isn't insulting or sarcastic Little_Green, I have OCD myself and fear all sorts of things that I think would make me look stupid to other people. Intrusive thoughts are horrible. Wrap yourself up in something warm and do something you find comforting, even if that is a hot drink and a cuddle of a stuffed toy. What matters is to you your thoughts are very real as mine are to me, it doesn't matter what anyone else might think. You can always share any fears here and we will understand.

thank you both so much. It's nice to hear that other people understand & don't think i'm crazy or stupid or pathetic.
It's like it i know the possibility exists for something to bad to happen then i think about it too much. so in this example, i know that by going out there is a risk of getting the virus. i don't have a surgical mask so i'm not really taking the necessary precautions but even if did wear a surgical mask here people would think i'm strange anyway as we arent at "that much" of a risk. it worries me it's contagious during the incubation period. By going out i'm putting myself at risk. Thus if i get it it will be my own fault. :eek:

calleyw

little_green wrote: »

thank you both so much. It's nice to hear that other people understand & don't think i'm crazy or stupid or pathetic.
It's like it i know the possibility exists for something to bad to happen then i think about it too much. so in this example, i know that by going out there is a risk of getting the virus. i don't have a surgical mask so i'm not really taking the necessary precautions but even if did wear a surgical mask here people would think i'm strange anyway as we arent at "that much" of a risk. it worries me it's contagious during the incubation period. By going out i'm putting myself at risk. Thus if i get it it will be my own fault. :eek:

Little Green, its ok. You thoughts are racing away with you and you are Catastrophising. I do it and its tiring and wears me out.


One thing that no one else would even taken any notice I take it the worst possible result. I can't think of an example right now to give to you of what would set me off. But its easy as the panic rises to feel alone and isolated. Remember its a real fear for you.


Do what ever it takes to make you feel safe. If that means retreating to your bed wrapped up in a warm snuggly duvet with a packet of jaffa cakes and your teddy bear then do so. Until it starts to ease off. Then when you are ready you can get up and carry on doing what you were doing.


If you ever want to private mail me then you are welcome when you feel low.


Take care


Yours


Calley x

Torry_Quine

I can't begin to put my feelings into words. Let's just say I'm in in a dark place.
Have spent the last few days in bed. The world feels like a cruel and horrible place

heartbreak_star

WaS, glad you are being looked after by the doctors even if you couldn't have the surgery!

Oh Torry sending lots of love

HBS x

Waves_and_Smiles

Keeping you in my thoughts Torry, as always. x

little_green

I'm so lonely.