Mooloo's little tapestry of life, 2016

Savvy_sewing

Why was I looking forward to DGD coming home? Someone remind me. This morning she's driving me nuts. She took ages to get up, she's dawdling over breakfast, she's moaning about the babysitter, and going on at me because I have to work this morning. Grrrrr
And breathe!!
Today is "pay day", well Tax credits day. Just as well as most of it all went out again. Balance is lower then it has been in a very long time. I get nervous when the balance dips below £300.
Last night it was less then £25.
So I will be watching my spending very closely for the little things.
I have a bad habit of shopping daily for bits and pieces, which got worse because I didn't have the car. Yesterday I was tired and couldn't be bothered to cook, so we had TV dinners, which also meant sweets etc as DGD was with me.
So back to earth, and try and stop shopping on a whim.
As its Wednesday, I'm supposed to have the day off, however I have far too many jobs that need to be done, and even more fittings so it will be only the afternoon. I need to take my sewing machine to be serviced this afternoon, so I shall have to take DGD, and will be taking my Mum as there is a craft place that she likes near the sewing place. We won't be having the roof down then.
I've just taken some mince out to defrost, so we have a spaghetti bolognaise tonight.
Think I'm back on focus now.
Have a good day x

Savvy_sewing

No rhyme or reason, but I'm feeling the black clouds of depression today. Not got the get up and go, no enthusiasm, didn't want to go to work, don't want to do anything. Hiding away seems like a good idea!
But now is not the time! So I struggled through to work, was obviously slower then I'd like, my new hemming machine decided not to play, so two sets of 90" wide curtains had to be hand hemmed. The knock on effect is I'm slipping behind and will need to put in a better day tomorrow.
I had a consultation with a specialist dentist, as the NHS just seemed to be not interested in my problems. A consultant draughted in would not be until October- if they get enough people in.
So I had a consultation at 4pm in a private dentist.
To sort out my two teeth, will cost me £2,900 -£3,500 depending if I need a bone graft.
So that's going to impact on the budget a bit. But it needs doing.
My Mum has said she will help with some of it, but that was before I had a price. A month ago I would have reeled at that amount, with shear panic. But I am very unhappy at the moment, the denture is ill fitting and I'm struggling. I'm struggling to bite anything, and the loose tooth needs to come out.
I will need a temporary bridge until the bone heels, and then the implants two months later. So I at least have time to lurch from one set of bills etc to another.
Now maybe that will give me my motivation to do more MSE challenges, cash neutral challenges etc and hopefully I won't have time to succumb to the black dog any more.
For now, I've had a scented candle, bubble bath and a cup of tea to try and relax. DGD is out playing a few doors down. Seems strange her going out to play.
So maybe I will focus now I've written it down, and I can rise up to my usual resilient self somehow, and get moving. - tomorrow!!!!

grey_lady

just a small moneygenerating idea - but could you not write your thoughts on a blog instead of here, but put a new short post here every day with a link to the new blog entry?

that way you could have some google ads and sponsored posts to raise some cash towards the dentist bills.

Savvy_sewing

grey_lady wrote: »

just a small moneygenerating idea - but could you not write your thoughts on a blog instead of here, but put a new short post here every day with a link to the new blog entry?

that way you could have some google ads and sponsored posts to raise some cash towards the dentist bills.

I had a blog, but it has been rather intermittent and I hardly use it these days. Just used to use it to show pictures of my makes.
However I don't think I'm allowed to promote myself on here, as such, so doubt a daily link would be allowed.
I certainly doubt that is get so many views as this page does.
Although trying to write a diary and earn from it is certainly a possibility in its own rights.
I've often tried to start writing a book, but truth be told the reason I haven't is completely down to being too lazy, or not dedicated enough too.
I have to think about things and find enough reason WHY, to change habits I suppose.
I know I don't do enough outside of the shop for myself. Too many years of doing too much. Now I have the ideas but not the action.

Perhaps now is the time to kick myself a bit harder.

dktreesea

You sound way too hard on yourself, Mooloo. For someone who thinks they have the ideas but not the action, you do manage to pack a whole heap of productive action into your day.


I think it's great you manage to run a shop, run a house, bring up a youngster, provide care to your mum and your grown children whenever they need it, and are still organised to actually book a holiday and go on it. There would be plenty of people out there with more energy than you and I put together who wouldn't be motivated to do even half of what you get done.


Good luck with your teeth problems.

Savvy_sewing

I think I'm going to try and start my make a day again.
When staff comes back from her holiday we were thinking about closing earlier and closing all day Wednesday. The aim was to give me time to sew without interruptions, and not have to pay Staff so much. But thinking about it, I have a few doubts. So I have said that she will have to go home at 3.30 and I do the last hour on my own. Today we had several collections, and about £70 worth of work come in after 3.30.
Worried I'd loose too much trade. But I think I will try and work down in the shop, and use my remnants etc to do more makes, and create which I miss doing. Obviously it will depend on how much work I have in.
But I will close all day Wednesday.
That way I have a full day off to do the things I need to do for Mum and Myself on the home front.

Savvy_sewing

DGD was invited to another sleepover a few doors down and once again backed out and came home. She was originally happy that I arranged for her to go there tomorrow as we all know she didn't like the last babysitter.
Tonight we're getting the " I don't want to go, and the heart string tugs of I want to be with you etc etc"
I hate emotional blackmail.
For years she was happy to be with anyone, enjoy sleep overs and play dates. Now I am a villain for arranging anything.
Frustrated is becoming my middle name.
What with how low I feel, I was thrilled at the prospect of a sleep over, no responsibility for the night, and an early night.
I feel really fed up, then I feel guilty that I feel resentment at the failed plans, and her strange turn around. I am sure if I'd felt better it would never have bothered me. But the way I feel, due to the black dog, is annoyed, robbed of my regrouping time this evening, and the ability to continue to make the changes I need.

So it's going to be a trial tomorrow.

I will need to sort out something for Saturday's.

Savvy_sewing

The fight begins.
She won't get up.
I'm trying to remain calm, drink my cup of tea, and not stress as the clock ticks by.
When I'm ready, I will take her in her pj's if necessary!!

Savvy_sewing

Well she is with the neighbour, and I've walked to work, to blow away a few cobwebs.
My work experience girl is joining me today, and part of next week while staff is away. Looking forward to a youngster to teach.
The Saturday Sewing Lessons will resume soon, but for today it is just a normal alterations day for me.
The lady who had the big curtains came in yesterday, she's happy, and wants two more sets of big curtains made soon.
So that's good, mostly. ( not for my arm though!).
Kettles on, time to sort my white board and planner.

Eager_Elephant

Mooloo wrote: »

DGD was invited to another sleepover a few doors down and once again backed out and came home. She was originally happy that I arranged for her to go there tomorrow as we all know she didn't like the last babysitter.
Tonight we're getting the " I don't want to go, and the heart string tugs of I want to be with you etc etc"
I hate emotional blackmail.
For years she was happy to be with anyone, enjoy sleep overs and play dates. Now I am a villain for arranging anything.
Frustrated is becoming my middle name.
What with how low I feel, I was thrilled at the prospect of a sleep over, no responsibility for the night, and an early night.
I feel really fed up, then I feel guilty that I feel resentment at the failed plans, and her strange turn around. I am sure if I'd felt better it would never have bothered me. But the way I feel, due to the black dog, is annoyed, robbed of my regrouping time this evening, and the ability to continue to make the changes I need.

So it's going to be a trial tomorrow.

I will need to sort out something for Saturday's.

I think at such a young age the thought of a sleep over is brilliant and then when evening rolls in they realise they will be away from home and start to panic slightly.


My DD has only started doing sleepovers in the last few years and she is 13 (although I do have an irrational fear of her being abused by someone hence I am very picky about where she is allowed to stay)


Is there a reason she did not like the last babysitter? Was it just an excuse to try and get you to stay home?


Are there no childminders in your area who do Saturdays?
My DD had the most amazing childminder and she used to cry if I told her she didn't have to go as I was off work - most parents would have been devastated, I wasn't, I was so pleased we had found a good one who DD absolutely adored.


If you had a childminder then you could claim some of the cost back through Tax Credits and Housing Benefit?


It is difficult to know what to do with kids, I have always worked, firstly part time and then full time so my children have never known any different but for some children it can be upsetting to be away from family hence they play up.


I hope you are able to get rid of the black dog soon - hopefully when your benefits are sorted it will help your mood as I know it is a big worry.


Do you take anything when you are low?
I have started DH on Vitamin D as his depression has been really bad. He also has anti-depressants as well.
Also B12 is good for neuro issues and then when I read up on it, it also mentioned helping with low mood etc.