Buffy's Savings Diary

Buffythedebtslayer

Ages, my fear of dentists keeps me well away.

At least two months I think?

I have an appointment on Wednesday BUT need to find someone who will sedate me...........


It is my own fault, so deserve no sympathy.

XX

in_need_of_direction

Life's too short to live in pain. Go to the dentist. It'll make it easier to cope with everything else.

hign10pines

Can't believe I have finally made it to the end of all your threads and can now reply.

I often wonder why you feel it is your duty to live at home and look after your mother when it's okay for your sisters to move away. Sorry I love my mum but can only take so much of her and I'd be angry all the time. I understand your mother is not in the best of health but surely a nice bungalow with something like care line would be ideal for her.

Up til you mentioned your sister had a rich husband, I pictured her as a complete chav, sorry but that is just the image I got of her.

You have had so much go on in your life but you have come out fighting. I have wanted to slap you some times when you kept using your credit card and applying for new ones but I also have wanted to hug you.

I also am over weight (by 35lbs), in my mid 30s with no prospect of ever getting my own house. I am also fighting with my career options.

I have a thread where I basically just talk to myself :rotfl:https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/5445142

Sun_Addict

Don't suffer with the toothache Buffy. The days of injections in your gum hurting are long gone. I have had all sorts of hideous dental work done: root canal, crown fitted on a gold pin and post and veneers. The worst bit was keeping my mouth open for ages not the needle. Personally I think the worst thing my dentist does is the 6 monthly scale and polish.

hign10pines

Yes I've just had some work done, all NHS thank god. I had 4 visits in all. Had a filling, root canal and extraction all in one sitting. I felt nothing apart from the pressure of the dentist pushing on my lower lip to remove tooth. Had no pain afterwards either.

Buffythedebtslayer

nothing much is happening here. Am spending money although it is a lot it is less than it was going to be............:)

I sorted a dentist who will sedate me. but that does mean it will cost a great deal. Almost 3000 and possibly more as need work in two places in my mouth which will mean two or three trips.

I could pay from the ISA, which is depressing!!! but may do a O% deal - thanks for the reminder Highpines Cannot believe you read all the dairies! you must like repetitive go no where stories!!

Things are difficult at the moment. one friend announced her pregnancy and another friend is waiting to announce. I don't deal well with it all frankly! Which I know makes me sound selfish. I am happy for them. Especially friend who is closer to me, she wanted this SO much. But it leaves me 100% childless and single! or that how it feels (see what I mean by repetitive!!!)

Any how am fully aware this is all on me and I can change it. I am working on it. Accepting and dealing.........

Meanwhile, I have bought the rabbits outdoor accommodation for the Summer. I also want to remove one shed and replace it with a Summer house - am excited by that and am in the middle of enlarging the pond.......I have been shopping around for a while now and am doing the cheapest way possible! Have wanted to do it for years and am so so sick of putting stuff off. For what!?? What am I waiting for!?

This weekend I am out with my friend celebrating her birthday..that should be fun. And some thing to look forward to. Also I am going on potentially two holidays! one in a spa and one we are going to show up with our passports and pick somewhere!

Just decided to live a little. What the hell!

beanielou

Life is for livi.ng Buffster.
You can have my DS!

in_need_of_direction

And my dd too. I'd offer my son but he's so bad at keeping in touch, he may as well not be there

beanielou

in_need_of_direction wrote: »

And my dd too. I'd offer my son but he's so bad at keeping in touch, he may as well not be there

Mine is the same. If I dident message/text him I hate to think how long it would be til I heard from him.
It is what it is.

Buffythedebtslayer

Things have been decidedly rough lately. Work is being it's normal charming self.
I found lumps in my breast (which thank God aren't cancerous). I need extensive work on my teeth which will mean I am in debt again,(which from this end doesn't matter now but at the time...) I still have benign skin cancer on the end of my nose. My friend died, at the age of 37 and there are not words to describe the shock and pain that brought. my aunt died and the waves of guilt and sorrow plus trying to look after mum nearly finished me off. And at the end of last week I fell ill, big time throwing up and feeling awful. Took Monday off school. I realised I needed to rest and did the sensible put myself first thing.

Then Ofsted phoned. Dragged myself in on Tuesday after maybe 2 hours sleep? worked all day without eating in case it made me vomit, did pretty much the same Wednesday, thankfully did not get seen, had to come home to my sister's birthday, which should have been lovely but I was sick with exhaustion, terrible headache. just wanted to go to bed.

And then this morning, post Ofsted, so happy it was over (no clue of the result but at this point the pressure was at least off) going out to the car, twisted my foot on the door step and my bad previously broken ankle just gave way and I was left screaming in pain.

Nearly five hours at A and E resulted in pretty much nothing. Nurse virtually said it was never broken and admittedly very vaguely implied I was putting it on. Then tried to insisted on the cast, to which I said no. So am back in the boot.

Obviously the worst thing I have ever felt is the grief of losing my Dad. But these last few months have been awful. I can't say it is anything major but the constant wearing down of everything, the having to wait to sort the house out, the constant pandering to Mum, the fact that no one even really understood the vast importance of ofsted in my family. that mum was mean to make sure my sister felt special (she did apologise this morning and actually it wasn't even that bad) I hate all the !!!!ing guilt. If I was healthy I could find the strength not to give up. And I know there is a way through. I just don't want to find it right now.

I am tired.