Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

tea_lover

Yes, fortunately I was going straight home and it was dark. If I'd had to face the world I would definitely have needed a mirror!

elsien

Is there a set number of sessions, or is it as long as it's worthwhile for you?

Waves_and_Smiles

Yes, we always had mirrors in the room at the charity where I worked, JM. We also had lots of tissues! I also had a teddy in my room (totally my idea, no one else did), he had often moved position when I went back after the 10 minutes! I also had pens and paper next to my clients seat in case they wanted to write something for me to read instead of saying it. Some would leave me little messages during the 10 minutes alone about the thoughts they had or things they wanted to discuss next session after thinking on it for a while.

Awww, look at Gitdog! Correction, I can't see him!

jobbingmusician

Our sessions are for up to a year. (Some people have been known to go round the system twice.)

Yes, tissues are automatic, WaS. Useful any time I feel particularly snotty - we always have loads in stock (Actually I try not to use work supplies unless I am expecting a difficult interview in my office :eek:)

Waves_and_Smiles

I admit to using the tissues to wipe my own eyes after a particularly difficult session with a client. They never knew that of course but sometimes I would really hurt for them. I was a good therapist but not so good at separating myself from what my clients went through.

mellymoo74

BMI 16.8

Not a good thing

Hele4

The accusations about my credibility are unfair. If I had been given a chance to speak instead of being unfairly judged by the people who have judged me based on one short post. Those people would see I am not being dishonest.

My reasoning for posting the thread was to be seen. Be seen so I can be heard. I wanted to talk about my issues in this thread.

I was anxious about butting in cause the pages I have read looked like an ongoing conversation.

The thinking behind my thread was to introduce myself by explaining a problem within my life without disturbing the conversation with the intention of making a gentle transition into this thread.

The first line of this thread is why I joined. A continuation of the mental health thread. If people had given me the chance to speak they would learn that I am as much of a prisoner of my own captivity as anyone else is in this thread.

I was looking for a new safe haven to unload the burdens on my mind cause the site I used in the past has since closed down.

Being able to unload those burdens in a safe environment without fear of judgement is a basic coping mechanism many people with a mental health condition should be able to relate to.

One of the reasons I was judged was the time I posted at. If I was given a chance to speak. That person who judged me would have learned that I work nights on pupil reception at a boarding school.

The worst time to be a prisoner of your own captivity is when you are alone in the dead of night. The problems I worry about intensify with every passing second.

My preferred method to alleviate these worries is the same method as any of yours. To talk about it in a place where nobody will be judged.

Before I was given a chance. I was judged.

I was judged in this thread cause of a thread I made explaining a current issue. I only made that thread to avoid butting in on what I thought was a current conversation.

I won't be returning to this forum again. I will find a better safe haven where I won't be judged for talking about my problems.

Waves_and_Smiles

Hele, you really are more than welcome to post here. Sometimes on this forum, not on this thread, people make up stories and that can upset people who have put time into responding. There is no way that I would want you or anyone here to feel judged and I am so sorry that you felt that way and I do understand why. As you acknowledge, there are a lot of fragile people on this thread and people are protective of others getting hurt, but I am so sorry that we made you feel unwelcome because of that. We just care about each other, we do not mean to send people away.

I don't know how to make it better or if that is even possible but if you would like to talk here you are more than welcome to as is anyone else, I promise we will listen and help if we can. Whether you post again or not I do hope things improve for you and I am very sad that we never got the chance to get to know you.

jobbingmusician

Lovely post, WaS, and how I feel too. It's a really really delicate balance, as this thread is obviously very open to exploitation and we all feel very vulnerable sometimes, but we do genuinely welcome new people.

calleyw

Good Morning Shipmates,

Hugs and squishes and handshakes all round even if you don't need them.

Tea, I felt drained and really awful after each session. Made me feel worse for a while. But I knew I was getting to the nub of certain things that I knew but never really liked to admit.

WaS, You sound fab as counselor. Wish you had been mine.

Just spoken to husband and he said what does it feel like to be a property owner:eek: He gets his post before me. And he got the letter confirming that the house is in my name. It was so painless not sure why we did not do it before!!! And waited nearly 4 years to sort out. Fingers crossed there will be no CGT to be paid. As I said I would pay it.

Also I am finding out more and more about my lodger and its like a soap opera. I know this is mean but I don't feel sorry for him. Another friend of mine finally worked he sort of knows him and his wife. And what he was telling me about her is :eek: And my lodger wonders why I would not be interested in a relationship with him. But then I am not that intetested in a relationship with anyone.

Looks like my petticoat will arrive today :j

Just going to chill today.

Everyone take care.

Yours

Calley