Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Wellyboots6

Code, you've had a while to do your grieving already, so don't worry about the amount you cry. Nobody measures how much you care by the amount of tears you shed. I think most people would feel relief, it shows you care how the other person felt

mellymoo74

Code it may not have hit you yet
My dad I was in floods for weeks following the call
My nan (was like my mum) didn't cry. It's always different.

They've just got back and it's wall shaking bangs again. Seen OH told him if the police come back and neighbouts come to our door we do not answer and I will dial 999

Georgiegirl256

Wellyboots6 wrote: »

Code, you've had a while to do your grieving already, so don't worry about the amount you cry. Nobody measures how much you care by the amount of tears you shed. I think most people would feel relief, it shows you care how the other person felt

You've summed up perfectly what I was thinking but didn't know how to express it.

You see people absolutely break down hysterically (nothing wrong with that of of course) and sob their hearts out, and I always thought I would be like that with my Dad as we were so so close, but I didn't, I was very matter of fact about it and didn't even cry at the funeral (even though I had at every one I'd been to before). It's like I had no emotion. Like Welly says, I think you do a lot of grieving before,you know they're not going to get any better. For a long time I felt so bad about that (still do really), I guess you never know how you're going to react.

The bit I've bolded is a really beautiful thing to say Welly.

How's your Mum doing code?

tea_lover

Totally agree Georgie and welly xx. My beloved grandad died just over a year ago and I'm not sure that I've actually shed a tear. He had a great life and was very ready to go. I can however bawl my eyes out at an advert. Tears aren't logical!

elsien

Should have gone out today but cancelled as energy levels have hit the floor. Noisy neighbour music is back. I'm fed up so Gitdog is picking up on body language and being clingy which is annoying me even more.
Is it too early to go to bed and hide away from the world?

whitewing

I've just got home from work. All I want to do is put on my pj's and close the curtains.

Waves_and_Smiles

Am I awake? I can't stay awake at all. I did laugh at your post, JM. I would love to know what medication they gave me, it seems to be still working! I am much calmer though, just completely out of it. I am going to finish The Form From Hell this weekend while I still able to face it, I am sure whatever they injected me with will wear off soon. I just need to be awake for long enough...

Big hugs to you and D, Georgie. Something will come up. I hope D doesn't feel too low.

Huge hugs to you, too code. It is ok to feel anything right now, there is no rule book.

Wellyboots6

WaS do you have to finish the form? Could WaSp take it down to the hospital and get the people who saw you to sign a note to say the state you were in over it? Then just send off what you have managed plus the note. It really isn't worth making yourself unwell over.

Waves_and_Smiles

That's a thought actually, Welly. I should have enough evidence now on the last hospital trip alone. The psychiatrist from the Crisis Team made me laugh because she said these forms aren't directed at people like you, I mean look at what has just happened! Good point! she also pointed out that my blood pressure was dangerously high because I get myself into so much of a mess so no one will think putting me under pressure would be a good thing (which makes me feel pathetic that I panic so much I put myself physically at risk. What an idiot). I am sure they would be helpful, I think I will call the Crisis Team. Thank you!

Incidentally, the funniest thought I had during the whole thing was after waking up briefly and wondering why people complain about hospital trolleys. I decided they were far more comfortable than any bed I had ever slept in, were like floating on a cloud and I wanted one at home instead of a bed. I even thought how safe and cosy the bars on the sides of it were. Amazing medication! :rotfl:

mellymoo74

Got my healthy minds letter today
Lots about RAID team if I go into crisis and doc and dietician to monitor weight and take action if it gets too low.

Idiots went out and have just got back don't think the police have seen them yet.

I had many lots of tramadol yesterday and have gauged a huge chunk out of my face.

Told.OH I stand by what I have done but agree it's kept quiet