Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

codemonkey

Hugs Melly. I'm so sorry for what happened to you and for your mother's reaction to it. I'm sorry she let you down like that.

I understand the control issue as most EDs are about control rather than body issues. There's a lot happening atm that you have no control over so I understand why you're doing it. The one thing I know from recovery is that it's not really control. It's an illusion of control and really, it's the ED controlling you and forcing you into abnormal behaviours. A huge part of my recovery was accepting that and learning to take back the control and give it to my body and trusting that it knows what to do. It doesn't always work but as time goes on, the monster loses his grip and the impulses lessen.

Another ED issue is space. Anorexics want to take up less space as they feel unworthy. Is that also one of your issues?

I think you know you need help before it does come to being sectioned and feeding tubes. You need to give counselling a chance otherwise it can't work. And yes, it's going to be painful, and yes, it's going to be messy but a way better idea to do it voluntarily. You'll develop healthier coping mechanisms and you will recover because you are so much stronger than this.

mellymoo74

Code you made me cry

mellymoo74

The kids have gone nutty
Much kissing and chasing going on (a little bit of stag behaviour and jrt wrestling for variety)
Tomcat was very forceful with this mornings kisses

I have done some washing. Going to shower then snooze am very sleepy (usual for low body weight better sleeping than exercising)

Georgiegirl256

Sleep is definitely better than exercise for you right now Melly. Hope you manage to get some, you'll feel better for it.

I don't know how people find baths relaxing? I nearly always have a shower, but thought I'd try a bath to see if it helped relax me....nah! Did it heck as like?! 5 mins max I get bored and fidgety so I ended up having a shower anyway!

elsien

Long soak in the bath with a book - beats a shower any day. Until you drop the book. Or Gitdog jailbreaks the baby gate.
I am a happy bunny. My DVD recorder has been repaired, hard drive fine, I can now watch the final episode of The Returned, and still be none the wiser.

Georgiegirl256

D likes a long soak listening to music and he finds it relaxing. I guess I'm just a born fidget!

Even when I used to buy Lush bath bombs (waste of money really, so I don't buy them anymore) I used to be itching to get out almost before the bath bomb had finished fizzing!

Yay for the DVD recorder being repaired! Enjoy The Returned

Pyxis

Georgiegirl256 wrote: »

D likes a long soak listening to music and he finds it relaxing. I guess I'm just a born fidget!

Even when I used to buy Lush bath bombs (waste of money really, so I don't buy them anymore) I used to be itching to get out almost before the bath bomb had finished fizzing!

Yay for the DVD recorder being repaired! Enjoy The Returned

I'm the same as you, Georgie, I get bored really quickly. And if I do force myself to stay in it, my fingertips go all wrinkly and then feel horrid for ages.

Even with a shower, I'm in and out like lightening!

I think I just don't like being wet!

Georgiegirl256

Same here Pyxis! I like being on the water, but I don't like being in it! :rotfl:

Edit: stage 2 of beautification the Melly way, I've painted my nails! (Well the first layer anyhow!)

mellymoo74

Shower all the way
Had a hot shower
Washed hair
Was getting ready for rest
Guess who's back........

mellymoo74

And good Georgie

I'm going to do mine again I think.
OH wants a love cos he never sees me so having g a cuddle first