Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

pollyanna_26

WELLY - crossposted with you . I think you're right not to worry about the feet licking at least it keeps both happy and occupied !
Not much help on the work dilemma it's a while since I was in the workplace and nowadays I don't tolerate chancers so my advice may be rather extreme .
polly

mellymoo74

Welly make them aware it was you. X

I think we should have a LinkedIn cv masterclass ad well as weigh ins

mellymoo74

Ok apparently Boo is allowed by my belly with a head on a boob if Froo can wrap herself round my head
This is comfy:undecided

elsien

Cheaper than putting the central heating on.

How you feeling now today's over, melly?

mellymoo74

Wiped out if honest.
I will be ok Elsien I always is.
ESA application is tomorrow's job along with tribunal forms (free while unemployed).

Then Sunday is the start of the interview prep for the Tuesday one I am seeing them as practice

Tomcat it turns out is even more territorial than the dogs.

Georgiegirl256

Yay for Gitdog! :j

I enjoy The Voice too WW. Although they've never produced a successful winner, and I couldn't name any of the winners bar the last one. I was a big Culture Club fan, so I think Boy George will make an interesting judge.

Welly, I'd make people aware that it was you. Why should someone else get all the credit for something you did?

Melly, a linkedin master class sounds good. D needs to get his sorted.

elsien

No day off in there at all? Do you not think you've earned a days rest somewhere? (I'll shut up now.)

I am watching complete cobblers on the TV because Gitdog is all curled up and comfy on my lap, so I'm delaying taking him out in the cold. I'm fairly sure I'll regret it in the morning.

System

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Thank you I think you are both likely correct, he was very forgiving. I just wish I could have one more hour with him to say I am sorry and that I had always loved him. I was just so scared all of the time and he was the one person I had always relied on to make everything ok. When he couldn't do that anymore I just felt completely lost and in a child's way I blamed him for leaving me and not making everything ok. I truly am sorry.

WaS you don't have to apologise. I'm sure he knew you loved him, and i understand why you felt angry, as as you said he was the person you could rely on and you felt lost when he was no longer here. You probably did feel abandoned but i feel that would never have been his intention, he was just in a bad way and made the the decision he made. That wasn;t your fault though. *hugs*

System

I'm currently trying the whole 5:2 diet again, i've had 2 fast days this week which went fine (in fact i had to force myself to eat the 500 cals) but i weighted myself today and had gained a pound :mad: but that's me being naughty, i really need to be weighing myself once a week not everyday. I see to have also suddenly developed an obsession with calories :eek: i don;t know how but in 8 days i've gotten to the point of checking calories on everything i pick up

I'm also making sure that when i'm at Swain's i'm drinking gallons of green tea. I used to drink a lot of pop when i was at his and am trying to replace it with green tea.

Currently on contract (16) hours at work, its died down after xmas and it's to be expected but is it really bad that after xmas, i'm actually quite relived to be on my contract hours? I just feel i need a bit of a break after the past few months, and moneywise i'm manaaging ok. I just orry what people would think of me.

Has anyone else bought a lotto ticket for tomorrow? I rarely play it....but my luck might be in, i won £20 on a scratchcard yesterday and i bought one for Swain's mum and she won £20! (sadly Swain did not win on his :rotfl: If i win i shall construct the worlds biggest comfiest blanket fort for us all

System

Ooh

Also, this month is a year since i last self harmed. I;ve talked about getting a tattoo before but !!!!!!ed up and relapsed last time, but this time i want to do it. Its a demon i have struggled with since age 12 (i'm nearly 30 now) and hopefully with Swain's support i won't go down that route again. I;ve seen a really nice orange butterfly (tattoo) that someone is doing on one of the tattoo places i follow (plus some of the cost goes towards charity), it seems fitting as orange (ribbons at least) are associated with self harm, plus a butterfly to me symbolizes both new beginnings and something good coming from something not so great, a plain caterpiller transforming into a beautiful butterfly etc)

I really hope this is it. The longest i ever went before was 2 years (before an argument with bio dad screwed it up). I was proud last year as when i split with Beau i didn't hurt myself even though i wanted to. And sine i've been with Swain i've managed to fight the urges.