Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

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Hugs to Pyxis and WaS and all who need them!

Ono, it's a totally different situation but I understand homework - trying to finish my squad's competition routines and keep hitting a blank!

Rather sad this morning. PENGUIN I saw on the BBC that Jonah Lomu has died, at the young, young age of 40. That's only 4 years older than me! It was him who got me watching rugby in the first place. Am glad I'm wearing my rugby hoodie today and have shed a few tears.

WaS, this was NOT your fault! END PENGUIN

On a very small lighter note, Cherry Vimto is delicious.

HBS x

tea_lover

That does sound complicated! I'd love to have some sort of language ability but it's always confused the hell out of me. I managed GCSE Latin -useful :rotfl:. One night to get the homework done is just silly, does she think you have nothing else to do with your life?!

Got in this morning to an email from the top CEO complaining that the car email had stopped him from getting any work done for two hours, as well as two more reminders from IT not to do it again. If I was the person who sent that email I think I'd be calling in sick today!

codemonkey

I just got mega angry at my laptop, screamed at it and terrified poor DA dog who thought I shouted at him. I immediately burst into tears and said sorry and gave him cuddles and I think I've been forgiven. Not sure what's wrong with me atm. I havent been this bad for a long time.

Ono, you definitely need more than one evening for homework especially if it's difficult. Still struggling with Portuguese so and Pyxis have my admiration for mastering it so well.

Hbs- I was sad about the same thing. He was one of my heroes.

mellymoo74

Hbs also sad a year younger than me
Busy busy busy day today.
Moving stuff from contract place where I have stored it to storage unit.
Had OHS PIP assessment this morning went badly
Got consultant for me in 5

whitewing

Bright spots of the day:

mmmm...lemon shortbread
I can now get into a crouching position. I couldn't do that before. (I can't get up without using my hands but that is a bright spot for another day).

codemonkey

Crouching Whitewing, hidden dragon?

Georgiegirl256

Another one here having abit of a sh*tty day I think a lot of it is hormonal, my mood does go on a downer then. But, I'm also greatly missing my Dad today. I don't know what brought it on, I've been doing pretty well, but the last few days especially, I've been feeling about meh

Then (and I feel really bad for admitting this), there's a woman who lives opposite, same age as me, and her Dad seems to be coming round all the time now, a lot more than normal, which is great and lovely etc, I just can't help but feel jealous I know that stupid and irrational, it's just how I'm feeling atm, it's because I just wish I still had that, I don't feel like I'll ever laugh the same and have fun the same ever again.

Then, D (who plays music while he works) has just played Tears in Heaven and I just cracked....just think I needed a good sob.

Hugs to code and Pyxis and to anyone else who could do with one today x x

codemonkey

Hugs Georgie. It will take time to deal with your grief. It will always be there a bit and you'll always miss your dad, but it will become more bearable in time. Not much use to you now though. I think it's good for you to have a cry. Particularly to Tears in Heaven which is such a sad song.

I miss my dad. That sounds like a weird thing to say, since he's still alive, but he's not the same. I miss the dad that used to say cheeky things and run away, I miss the dad that always charmed people and was confident, I miss the dad with a sense of humour, I miss the dad I could have a banter with. Now he's like a shell of who he used to be, who says hurtful things because his mind can't keep up any more, he can barely remember anything (the psychiatrist says he doesn't have dementia, but I wouldn't take bets on him remembering my name) and he doesn't want to go out of the house. It sounds terrible and I still love him, but I feel like my 'real' dad is lost in there somewhere and I'll never get him back. Me and my dad have a bit of a troubled past (too similar in a lot of ways), but we eventually made up and became close and now I really miss who he used to be. I hope that's not a bad thing to say Georgie, because I know how lucky I am that I still have him.

Got my SAD lamp pointed at me and have taken Vitamin D in the hope it will help my mood a bit. It's freezing here though.

Phone still not been delivered. Ironically, the screen protector I ordered, which was sent through normal RM delivery has arrived. So that's good.

Kitty777

Afternoon all

Hugs to Georgie xx I missed someone very close to me last week when it was my birthday...my first birthday without them and it kind of came crashing down the day before...but I just rode the grief and pain and came out the other side

I am all hyped up for christmas this week, but then realising that I don't really have many people to buy for...or that much cash to spend...boo I may just make christmas cards instead

tea_lover

code - I think it's very normal (depressingly so, these days) to be grieving for someone while they're physically still around. Dementia and similar illnesses are just so horrible.
GG - grief's a b*tch like that, isn't it?! You bumble along doing ok for a bit than bam, all the stuffing is knocked out of you again. I very much agree with code that sometimes a good cry does you the world of good. I also think hormones have a lot to answer for!