Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

whitewing

Lol, welly - don't even think about going for a wee without her for the next 5 years!

codemonkey

I'm rather surprised that you get to wee alone anyway as a dog slave. DA dog seems to think weeing is a communal activity. I wonder if because we watch him pee, he thinks that that's how life is.

I am struggling. Just left work early as ran out of steam and I felt like I was going to collspse in a big pile of incoherent crying mush. Brief stop at the supermarket for binge foods (I know but my impulse control setting is out) and now at the train station wondering if I have enough in my tank to get home. Not sure what's wrong except I feel wiped out and hopeless and like if a comet crashed into earth i'd welcome it because at least then it would end.

Waves_and_Smiles

Hope escapette has settled, Welly! I am afraid I have no idea how to settle her, my only experience is caring for babies from 6 months old, before that I'm lost!

Big hugs code, I hope that you got home safely and this evening is a bit better for you. Nap time with DA dog?

Right everyone, do I sound prepared for Halloween? I shall make pumpkin pie tomorrow and long-suffering WaSp is carving the pumpkin. We shall have home made pizza for dinner (my american friend assures me that you have to eat pizza on Halloween) and I have some white chocolate skulls and jelly vampire teeth to eat whilst watching some of the films you all recommended. I was thinking earlier that it's such a shame that people don't dress up more, I could probably get away with wearing a Halloween costume and a mask and feel much better about being outside for an evening!

elsien

Aw, sorry to hear you're struggling code.
Anything to do with the clocks going back maybe? I've had a week of generally feeling a bit urgh and under the weather and I'm sure it's in part to do with winter now being imminent and dark nights coming home from work.
Much as I hate to wish my life away, roll on spring.

piggles1

Hi all,

I'm annoyed about the 'anxiety' prescription today. It says it all over my pharmacy list as well. There's no doubt in my mind he's got that from the notes of the previous doctor. He used to say to me 'you really should have sorted the anxiety out by now' and not take anything else into account. I can't make another appointment with the new doctor when I've only just seen him, do I write to him or make an appointment next month or something and take the note in?

WaS: I suppose I have to be the front person on occasion but I wouldn't say the main one. I only speak when I have to be acceptable to who I look like, if you see, kindof what people expect. The rest of the time they get on and do whatever and I'm not party to it, even the shopping. Things that happen in the house are nothing to do with me. It's almost like because things are really difficult at the moment they've taken over and hidden me. I have huge gaps and maybe only a few snapshot memories from me as a child.

If people ask me something about myself I have to borrow something from one of the others, so I must come across as a bit inconsistent, one minute I'm saying one thing, the next saying another because I don't have any opinions/favourites/like and dislikes myself.

Even though I've had people as far back at least when I was 6, I'm sure I've been more to do with my life than I am at the moment. If you imagine a water bubble on a surface, and take off a tiny bit of water, the original bubble closes up again and the tiny bit is me here typing this, then when I've finished I'm swallowed back into the original bubble again and hidden, and all the people on the outside of the bubble take over.

I've had masses of counselling, but only in the last few years realised I'm not the only person with others. I thought it was just my odd thing and never mentioned it. Counselling isn't the right thing to deal with it in my experience, but what with the doctor and his anxiety thing I can't see any help getting much further unless I can get across how bad it is.

I suppose I just want to sort out my distress/fear of everything, but I wouldn't have the others without the original distress so they need to be taken into account.

Sorry if I'm not really engaging properly at the moment I hope you're all ok and getting/at home safely. And congrats on escapette Welly, hallowe'en must be the first national occasion for her?

I'm not keen on hallowe'en, and I've got no treats in if anyone knows on the door. I don't know what happens round here because I'm new.

codemonkey

You're not prepared at all WaS. Where are the apples for dooking? Also in Scotland we hang scones covered in treacle from the ceiling from string and you have to take a bite. :rotfl:

Think you might be right about the clocks elsien. Everyone at work is exhausted too. I came home and had a nap with DA dog which helped a bit but still feeling out of sorts.

dragonette

Offers cuddles for Piggles - you are making perfect sense to me. I haven't had any professional help with my others but I think I agree that counselling night bit be very helpful. Maybe a conversation between you and your others? Sit down with some paper and a pen and ask one of them to wrote their name and done thoughts?


Was - Lucee sounds lovely. She would be competing with the cats for chatting

It seems that there a new neighbour with 2 cats had moved in nearby. I now have 3 who like to visit! Def becoming the neighbourhood crazy cat lady - only feeding my own 2 tho! Cannot afford to feed them all. I do like having the visitors, esp since my resident-was stray cat - is now being very cuddly and sooky with me.

I remind myself that even if I can't contribute economically to society, I have improved his life immeasurably. Just as we all try to do on this thread hugs to all who want them

codemonkey

Oops sorry piggles. Didn't mean to ignore you. You're safe in the fort.

Dragonette - there are so many ways to contribute to society other than economically. You saved a stray cat which is amazing and you help on this thread too.

jobbingmusician

How have I missed so many pages? I was sure I'd read this yesterday morning, but I seem to have missed about 48 hours!

WaS - you are wonderful the way you understand things. Hello piggles :hello: - I am fascinated by the MPD side of things, and can really relate to the 'remote control' bit which makes us all MP. Those with extra people get extra hugs! ((((()))))

And Pyxis - I am more and more realising that your amdram must be SERIOUSLY good, the number of overseas tours they do!

I am starting a rigorous regime of rehearsals (all the r's) next week, so will be around even less than usual (plus 2 days in Wales at a conference). But I do read, even if I don't post as much as I'd like

That MH programme was based not a million miles from where I work, BTW In fact they interviewed one of my projects to be on it (but obviously we weren't glamorous enough lol)

Waves_and_Smiles

...And breathe.

I just screamed at someone down the phone. We were expecting Milliefleur to call from her sisters, sometimes she uses my number and we don't know the number she calls from so when phone rang I answered. A man stated that he was from Microsoft and had become aware that my computer had been hacked and he would like to resolve my security issue. Now, I am not that stupid so I acted suitably shocked and asked him what he wished to do. He told me to go to a site and download a piece of software so that he could assist me. I asked him to tell me what he could do to help me before I did that, he told me that Microsoft could reset my password (?) for a fee of 69.99 but first I had to enable him to be able to look at my computer.

I totally amazed myself at this point and screamed at him exactly what I thought of him. To say the air turned blue was an understatement and he quickly hung up. Now I am completely paranoid and have already used an image restorer to wipe my laptop and put it back the way it was a year ago. I know logically I am safe but I am still checking my bank account every 10 minutes.

That is probably the first time I have ever yelled at anyone that isn't a family member or someone I was in a relationship with, I totally surprised myself. All I felt was utter indignation and anger that he dare try that with me. Believe it or not, me being me is now feeling a little guilty for shouting at him...

I am also shaking like a leaf.