Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Georgiegirl256

calleyw wrote: »

I woke up this morning and realised that I don't remember hearing anything from Tea.

I know someone pm her and she said she was ok but the new job was taking up her time.

I wonder how she is?

Yours

Calley

I've been thinking of tea lately too, and wondering how she's getting on.

Pyxis, soooo cute!

Birdie85

I often wonder how Tea is doing too. Miss her!

Georgiegirl256

A housewives work is never done Can finally sit down, have a bite to eat and then pack.

Just had a suitcase panic....for some reason D, new fangled with the new suitcase with the fancy lock decided to pick a combination code, locked the suitcase (why?) and then promptly forgot it....ensuing 10 minutes of panic when we couldn't figure it out and get into the case, sorted now though.

faerielight

Thank you all so much for accepting me here and taking the time to write me messages, I could not sleep last night, it was 6.30 and I woke up at 10.. Social services are helping me with a care agency for my physical disabilities but it was a horrible mental health social worker for the MH team who was doing all the blocking.. He's left last week and they refuse to asign me a care coordinator, not that the SW for MH helped me at all in the 4 years I was under him. The Women's Centre is up 3 flights of very steep stairs with no lift (I'm terribly claustrophobic anyway) and no rooms on the ground floor as that is a creche so that is inaccessible for me, and the Christian group is a born again group to guide you back to Jesus.. if anything, my spirituality has always leaned more towards paganism, plus I'm terrified of churches , I find them really creepy.. so none of those are options. I rang my GP surgery today, really angry that no professionals have rung me, I couldn't get my GP but I spoke to another one who totally agreed I need crisis support, and it is negligent to leave me to get even worse, she is going to call the MH team tomorrow, as is my friend , for him to feed back that the Rapid response team refuse to let me call, so I'll wait and see, but I do not have hope! It's been 5 years since I last had a CPN, it was so helpful.. having them visit me at home was so helpful due to my disabilities and the struggles to get up my steps and go outside. I had her for 4 and half years and she was my rock.. she was so skilled at dealing with trauma, I did take up a lot of it trying to deal with the SA, and she helped me reduce some of my risky behaviours.. I stopped self harming, I gave up alcohol.. she helped me so much and It was a relationship for almost half a decade.. I never dealt with my eating disorder, which I need to do at some point, but most of all, I need some 1 to 1 support to offload some of the medical negligence trauma and to help me come to terms with the permanent physical damage I'm left with, and I desperately need to find some hope for some sort of future, be it limited by my illnesses and find some meaning to my life that is not just about major surgeries and recovering, manning all my illness, and basically piece myself back together.. I don't mind what form this 1 to 1 support takes.. cpn/ therapist, it doesn't matter, as long as I get some support.. They won't give me therapy as they say I'm not too ill.. A year ago, I wouldn't have said I needed a cPN or the crisis team, but I'm here now and I need some help.. I'm going to go back to the LGBT mind group on thus, but I do feel too ill to be in a group really, but I will take it cos it;s all I've got.

I'm so grateful that I can come here and talk, I really hope you all don't think I'm selfish.. I used to be a samaritan, and I worked for 20 years in a supportive role, but I am so ill that I've got nothing in my tank.at the moment,. I will get out of f this crisis.. I have to, I really want to love a bit, life has been only about survival for the last 4 years, Right now, I have to keep breathing and get though each day and night, and hopefully the MH team will budge , have mercy on me and get me some help.

I think it's Carrot cake cupcakes with frosting for you all for being so kind to me

whitewing

Faerie,

I think we have all been through stages in our lives where the emotional pain is so great that there is little energy left over for anyone else, so no, I don't think you are selfish. I think you are trying your best to take responsibility for your own health and that is a good thing.

I saw you had beaten alcohol on another thread and am very impressed about that.

I am also pleased that you are going back to the mind group. A group environment may bring some as-yet-undiscovered benefits.

Also, what a great friend you have.

DomRavioli

Hi all

I managed to do a lot today towards getting over the anxiety/agoraphobia.Went to therapy, had workmen in, went to Aldi (shops are not my best places!) and went to view the house after a bit of a debacle on Saturday where the estate agent told the seller a different time from me; could have new walls by christmas!

Hugs to all who need them

Georgiegirl256

Faerie, I think it's great that you feel comfortable enough to open up here and feel comfortable here. You are not selfish in the slightest.

:wave: Dom You sure have had a busy day!

Georgiegirl256

Finally finished packing....I don't travel light, that's for sure! I never wear half of what I take, but best take it "just to be sure"

So tired now *yawn*

Flybaby

Thanks for the luck – it must have worked coz today went ok and I was a good little student with no panicking. Once I was in and surrounded by books I was relatively happy.
Georgie – S’ok to worry………we try and keep the worries in the box, but they do like to escape don’t they? I know you don’t want to talk about it, but is the thing you are worrying about a you thing, or is it someone else's thing that you are worrying about for them?
Welly - AC/DC!

codemonkey

Welly - do you think Escapette would like Journey, Rush, Black Sabbath, Whitesnake and all other hair metal bands. Love that she's a wee rock chick.

Miss tea too.

I got up at 3 and have been washing down everything in case the workmen think my house is filthy. It actually is. I can keep up with the basics but DA dog splatters mud everywhere and I don't have the energy for deep cleaning. DH is no use as his mum always picked up after him and I have to nag him so hard to do anything.

I am curled up on the couch having a nap with DA dog. Going to have workies in for a couple of days and I am so unsettled.

Georgie - enjoy your holiday. Jealous.