Battling Debt and Mental Illness — and (hopefully) Winning!

AspiringButAnxious

Thanks guys

I've had an awful couple of days. I can't remember being so utterly depressed for months. The final straw was when the SAD lamp arrived today — and didn't work. I spent all day crying and feeling suicidal. I've felt a bit better for the past couple of hours and dragged myself to the shower before Graham Norton came on. I feel like my life is destined to turn to !!!!!!. Every time I think things are looking up, there's a huge disappointment. It was less painful when I had no hope, because that way I never got disappointed.

The handbag is no longer discounted, so I can avoid that temptation. I also received s £5 Amazon voucher from SB, so my new balance is £5. I also requested a refund for the lamp, which I bought via Amazon. It was from Lloyds Pharmacy, so I expected it to be decent quality and, you know, actually work.

Today has been completely wasted. I watched tv without enjoying it and felt too bad to go out with the dogs. I have done nothing productive all week. I really hate feeling like this, but I can't help it.

crazy_cat_lady

How are you sleeping?
Are you managing to get outdoors at all? Even 10 minutes of dull daylight will help.
And celebrate the small stuff - you've had a shower (so did my dh today )
For what it's worth, your support and advice have been completely invaluable to me over the past few weeks and I really have appreciated everything that you've taken the time to do for me.
Can I suggest something in return? A list of things you will do tomorrow. Anything from 'get dressed' to 'text a friend' to 'ask if I need something'. It will focus your mind and help you feel useful when you see things being crossed off the list.

AspiringButAnxious

Thanks CCL Haven't been sleeping well lately, but last night was actually okay. Managed to get up at a sensible time this morning too

Feeling fragile today, but received my. £30 of Amazon vouchers from GTM, so managed to get 3 more Xmas presents, plus a £1.99 Kafka book for me to get free delivery! Now I've only got to get presents for my parents and brother :j Though I also hope to throw something together for the pets and get some vegan Xmas treats. New balance: £2.72.

Bobarella

So sorry to read how you are feeling ABA. It sounds really awful. I wish there was something I could do for you.

Orange_Ena

Hugs to you ABA, I hope you feel better very soon. Well done on getting a few presents too. Please don't tell me you've wrapped them already........I'm so behind

crazy_cat_lady

Sounds like a productive day ABA - that's all progress, and you're just about done for Christmas.

AspiringButAnxious

Thanks guys I feel so much better today. Ena — no, I definitely haven't wrapped the presents! I will leave them until December, when I can listen to Xmas music as I wrap... I usually end up doing wrapping for everyone else in the house as well (except for the ones for me!).

Trying not to pressure myself, but I still want to get stuff done. The first priority is to print out the return label for the lamp. I also need to plan my career strategy and work out how to play to my strengths.

misstara

Glad you're feeling a bit better

Re wrapping christmas presents, I usually do mine mid Dec with a glass or two of mulled wine and a christmas film on.

bellevie

Glad you are feeling better.

You are on a roll with the Amazon vouchers well done!

I love wrapping my gifts to a good Christmas film with a nice hot chocolate

Bobarella

I do hope the lamp will be accepted back with no major issues. Glad you are feeling brighter as well ABA.