No More Chardonnay for me! My booze-free Diary

MarylandCookie_2

Thanks HB for your thoughts, I really appreciate your comments. I would love never to drink again, but I just can't imagine that happening, and need to understand and explore my thoughts and feelings around this. And I seriously need to consider Belles 100 day challenge, instead of just thinking about it.

It's amazing that you can have drink in the house but not be tempted, I have so much admiration for your willpower.

Hope your having a lovely evening Chardonnay, and that the moderating is going well tonight xxx

Honey_Bear

Linky for new-to-me dog progress.

MarylandCookie_2

Ahhhhh HB, he's gorgeous! Do you rescue dogs? My parents have always had rescue dogs, they are so rewarding, hard work, but worth it. I'd love a dog, but working full time and having a less than enthusiastic OH has put paid to that at present! I borrow mums when I can, they currently have a very naughty spaniel!

Hope you had a lovely evening Chardonnay, how did the moderating go? Wine was my down fall at the weekend, it's just too easy to drink!

I've had a horrendous couple of days at work, but I'm not interested in drinking, its funny what triggers you isn't it? Stress doesn't equal alcohol to me, it never has really, I'd rather have chocolate! I can also have long periods when I don't drink, or moderately drink, but occasions like the weekend where it happens, almost unexpectedly. Anyway, I must stop over analysing and beating myself up, it's just making me feel worse.

It's Friday tomorrow, I'm ready for a lovely sober weekend!

Honey_Bear

Yes, Maryland Cookie, he's a rescue dog. This one was the easiest adoption by far, and that's mostly down to the dog's personality. He's just such a happy little chap. There were dogs around in my childhood on and off and always a cat or two. I couldn't have a dog until I stopped work; it was worth the wait. OH wasn't on board initially but the dogs have, one by one, won him over.

MarylandCookie_2

I'm hoping my OH will be the same! He wasn't keen on having a cat and he dotes on her now!! Pets just seem to make a house a home I think. In the mean time I make the most of my friends and relatives dogs.

Have a lovely weekend all xx

MarylandCookie_2

Hi Chardonnay, hope your ok and having a good weekend, hope your foot is improving x

Chardonnay

Helloooo!!! Sorry I have been AWOL, had a busy few days!

The work trip went well thanks. At the meal I had one pre-dinner G&T and then shared a bottle of Pinot Grigio Blush with my colleague. I then decided to stop drinking and had water for the rest of the night, along with a coffee. I was really pleased that I had the will power to stop as the drink was really flowing and they had just ordered more wine. I was definitely very pleased on Thursday morning when apart from feeling a bit tired (we had a late night) I felt fine and the meeting went really well.

On Saturday we had our day trip to the seaside. We had a lovely day. We went to our favourite restaurant overlooking the sea for lunch and my brother and I shared a bottle of white wine. I drank plenty of water with it too and felt fine. In the evening, I had 3 single G&T's over 3 hours. Again I felt fine yesterday apart from the usual tiredness as it's such a long day.

So I am pleased with how things are going. I am steering away from drinking wine apart from with a meal, which I do enjoy. I find it so very heavy and it's definitely been my downfall in the past!

How are you HB? Your dog is gorgeous and sounds so lovely natured! Living on Plymouth Hoe must be great too. I really love Devon - a beautiful part of the world!

MC I think our drinking habits sound very similar! Stress doesn't generally trigger drinking for me either, unless it's extreme (when my mum died and my dad got diagnosed with Cancer.) Both of those times I quickly got a grip on my drinking though. I am more of a social drinker. Drinking = a treat for me. How are things going for you?

Have a happy Monday all!

MarylandCookie_2

Lovely to hear from you Chardonnay, don't think I'm a mad stalker but I missed you and I'm glad your ok. Strange how strong the virtual link feels sometimes!

Your few days sound wonderful and I'm so, so happy to hear that the moderating is going well for you, that really is excellent news. You sound really strong and in control.

I went to a beer festival Saturday night, but didn't drink to excess. It was a great festival, met up with lots of friends and had a great time. Quite a few folk were worse for wear, which is fine, their call, but it felt strange to see them slurring and wobbling away. I felt quite detached from it and thought objectively that's how I've been in the past and how I don't want to be like it again. Drinking is definitely a social thing for me, I just need to be hyper vigilant that I do just have a limited number of drinks, and plenty of water and not to lose track of that.

How's your foot Chardonnay? Have you tried a run yet? X

Chardonnay

Hey MC! :wave: Ha ha, no you don't sound like a mad stalker at all! It's nice to know I am missed and I know what you mean about the virtual link. I find myself wondering if people are OK when they don't post for a while!

Well done for Saturday! It sounds like you were really in control! I know what you mean about seeing people drunk and realising that's how we've been and how we don't want to be like that again. I was thinking the other day about nights out where I've spent ages getting ready only to pour loads of booze down my neck - God knows what sort of state I have looked by the end of the night! It's the thought of being out of control and having that drunk feeling too - I used to strive for that feeling but it scares me now.

Argh, the foot is driving me mad! I haven't been able to run for over two weeks I have started wearing the ankle brace at all times, including in bed and also wearing running shoes around the house as I had been going round in bare feet which is apparently not good. So very very frustrating when I had really started to get somewhere and also OH is progressing really well on his Couch 2 5K and I really want to go out with him! I know that I will just have to be patient though as if I try running on it I could end up making it much worse.

The meditation has gone out of the window too. I haven't done it for a while now - I just can't be bothered first thing in the morning when all I want to do is make myself a cup of tea. I really do need to get back to it. I will try again tomorrow!

How's the meditation going for you and have you been back to the gym?

MarylandCookie_2

Glad you don't think I'm some kind of weird stalker!

I know what you feel about not being in control, i feel the same.

I've lost the love for the gym at the moment, things are really tough at work and I'm mentally and physically shattered at the end of the day, so I've not been to the gym. On a plus side I've come home and fettled and kondo'd loads - I love the Kon Marie thread on the old style board!

We're away this weekend, then away in June for 2 weeks, so I might just draw a line under the gym til we come back from holiday mid June and start back on the exercise and diet front!

Hope you get your foot sorted out soon, it must be really frustrating for you, especially as your husband is getting into his running. Fingers crossed it starts to get better soon x x