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Pyxis

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Aww, thank you JM. I am glad that we all have this thread. Everyone just get the wet fish out and slap me everytime I end up all self-hatey for the next few days please!

jobbingmusician wrote: »

*waits for Pyxis to produce appropriate piccy*
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Your wish is my command oh Great PanjanJM! salaam!salaam!



Sorry it's so late! I fell asleep soon after my last post yesterday!
This was the best I could find. It was surprisingly difficult! :D

WaS, consider yourself slapped with a wet fish!

Great news about your friend's book! How lovely to have a dedication! There for posterity! You're immortal, now! :T

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahahaha! there's the wet fish!

I am very touched about the book dedication. He really does care about me. Of course, I do know that but it is lovely to be able to stamp on that little bit of insecurity that tries to tell me I am not worth anyone's care. He is forgiven for the blog post, this certainly overcomes any anger towards that.

elsien

WaS, are you actually admitting to possibly having felt the teensiest bit angry? Without feeling bad about yourself for doing so? If so, I think that's a positive thing to feel.

And you can now tell the voices to get stuffed, because your friend values that you have always been there for him. Can we all join in with a rousing chorus of "na na na naaah na" at them in a particularly childish way?

MU, hope you're managing to get some sleep and wake up with a bit more strength. You do have coping mechanisms, you must have to have got as far as you have. Even if there are times when it doesn't feel like it.

Gingernutty, I'm glad there was someone around and awake when MU needed help. Just hoping that being awake at silly o'clock was for a good reason, not a sleep deprived reason.

tea_lover

(((MU))), hope you got some sleep xx.

Today I will be sorting the wardrobe of doom...I may be some time!

elsien

Good luck with that. Do you have the emergency flares and Kendal mint cake?

Today I am doing as little as possible. I have a cold, so am doing a bit of a dying duck. Then the theatre tonight to see Harvey. Does anyone remember the black and white film about the guy whose best friend is an invisible white rabbit? I'm really hoping this doesn't spoil it, and am also wondering if they're going to keep the rabbit invisible. I do hope so.

jobbingmusician

OMG OMG what a lot has happened since I logged out last night!

MU, keep talking. I won't be here much today - we have guests coming and I must help DH - but there will be someone here and we all care.

WaS, I feel so proud to have a friend with a whole book dedicated to her. And read what he's said. We have all heard from you about how he's supported you over the years, but YOU have supported HIM, and he appreciates this. That shows what a lovely person you are - you do support others in 'real life' too. *wanders off saying 'BDP my !!!!'*...........

SingleSue

MU, to post here about how you was feeling at the time was an incredibly positive thing to do, in a way, it was a form of coping mechanism...you were letting those feelings out.

It may not have felt like it at the time but talking about it (even if in written form), would have helped you and possibly distracted you a little from acting on those feelings.

Talking about stuff is one of my problems, something friends realised when I had my breakdown. My way of coping at the time was to lock everything away from friends, to retreat from people and society and then basically think myself into bad stuff. Friends eventually worked out that when things were really bad, I withdraw and their way of bringing me through was to force me to stay in this world (rather than the world in my head), and talk about how I was feeling.

They pretty much pulled me through the bad times and helped me in my recovery.

Mind you, I still withdraw now when things are not so great, so if I go missing for a length of time, you know what is happening.

tea_lover

Going round in circles. OH thinks I should try to get mortgage sorted on this place before I'm made redundant. My plan was to wait until I'd got a new job, then (depending on income) either take on the mortgage on my own, or sell this place and buy somewhere cheaper.

Had got my head round that, but he thinks it's stupid and I should sort it now while I can

But if I apply for mortgage on my own I won't be able to change jobs while that's going through. Plus am worried that applying, when I could well lose my job in few months, is fraud. Am not actually at risk of redundancy yet, but its v likely that I will be from april.

Really need to speak to parents as part of my plan depends on a small inheritance from my grandad and no idea when I'll be getting that. But I can't face that conversation.

Head is spinning.

seven-day-weekend

It is wonderful to have a book dedicated to you. A former pupil of my husband's, who is now around 30, dedicated a book to him last year. It brought tears to my husband's eyes because it was such a compliment. So be blessed that your Teacher friend thinks such a lot of you, WaS!
The dedication in the book by my husband's pupil says

To Mr W, Mr L, Mr M (my husband's name) and Mr M2.
Teachers who not only didn't mind me doodling in the margins, but who actively preferred it to the work I was supposed to be doing. This book would not exist without them.

seven-day-weekend

MU, imho you are grieving for what might have been and it is understandable in the circumstances that you are feeling so bad. Things WILL get better and we are all here for you. Please talk as and when you need.