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Thinking of you NOA. Take care of yourself and be gentle to yourself ..it'll take so much time to come to terms with your loss. Hope your mum is coping too.
Suspect work may take your mind off it a little so do it when you can
Much love and hugs xxxMFiT-T4 Member No. 96 - 2022 is my MF goal
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Bob,
Brizzle,
applemuncher
Thank you so much, for your hugs and support. Applemuncher, I'm so sorry about your dad. Hugs to you too. No words.
I just want everyone - whether posting or not, to know how grateful I am, Not finding it easy to find words at the moment. I will catch up with you all in time, at the moment time keeps ticking on and all I want is for it to stop. But I am thinking of you and I hope that life is treating you well, and that you are spending every moment you can with the people you love.
Love
NOA
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Still thinking of you. I think you should do as much normal as you can cope with. And then stop. No one who has a heart would think that you should be 'over it' by now.
hugs
chevI want a job that is less than an hour driving away from my house! Are you listening universe?
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:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:MFiT-T4 Member No. 96 - 2022 is my MF goal
Winter 17/18 Savings Rate Goal: 25% [October 30%] :T
Declutter 60 items before 31.03.18 9/60 ** LSDs Target 10 for March 03/10 **AFDs 10/15 ** Sales/TCB Target 2018 £25/£500 NSDs Target 10 for March 02/10 Trying to be a Frugalista:rotfl::T0 -
Lurker here - sad news, sorry to hear. Can't imagine how hard it is.0
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Thank You Doobop, Brizzle, Chev :A
Spent weekend with mum, back home and trying to catch up with SE work but not succeeding. House is a mess and with the weather turning now there are cobwebs everywhere:( can see them all as it's a bright sunny day. Feeling quite numb most of the time, really just want to be with mum at the moment but DS needs me here too. Coming on here to get some thoughts down, maybe it will help get my head clear to do some work.
Made a call to update a creditor today. I used to get all worked up about it but today it was just an emotionless thing that needed to be done and I did it, no longer felt the pangs of guilt. Progress I guess. Finally have clicked how low in priority worrying about the massive unsecured debt that hangs over us should have been. It is not getting worse, and it's is creeping downwards.
I have a goal for next year and that is to get my garden sorted and also make a new veg plot and a new rose bed. Dad was always asking me to plant all sorts of things, getting seeds even and I collected them all and occasionally planted but never nurtured them (rabbits ate most things, and I used that and lack of time as an excuse). So I have it in my mind that I will do that for dad. My love of gardening came from him. Only time will tell if I can make it happen or if all the time will now divert to supporting mum in her loneliness.
Feel really guilty today as I haven't even thought of my DD for a couple of days, though I know she is really happy this year, and (I think) working hard. DS is 16 today, but doesn't want to do anything, not even go out for a meal. He asked for an oven ready meal we hardly ever have but he really likes so we'll pick that up after school and he can choose a little cake just for the three of us.
NOA
xxFeb2014 Total unsecured debt £72,520>>01/06/16 £68166>01/02/17 £66,600=8.18%PAID
Mortgage Jan14=209,800 Jan15=£200,300 Jan17£180,700>OCT17 £170,200
Health/Fitness Challenges Priority#1 Stay Fit and healthy - whatever it takes:)
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Happy birthday to your DS NOA. What a good idea about your garden. Don't feel guilty about your thoughts not being with your daughter. It's actually a compliment to her as you aren't worried about her, so she is obviously a capable young woman who you have done a great job with.
Hugs as always." Your vibe attracts your tribe":D
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Lovely idea about the garden....plant things that will remind you of your Dad
Your DS made a good choice about his birthday celebrations...........he is obviously feeling it too. Celebrate when things are not so rawBe the change you want to see -with apologies to Gandhi
In gardens, beauty is a by-product. The main business is sex and death. ~Sam Llewelyn
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Hi Noa,
I have read all your diary over a few weeks. You have come so far and dealt with so much in that time you should be truly proud. I have never lost a parent so I cannot begin to imagine how you are feeling, just remember every day you get up and out of bed you are achieving something. It has been such a short amount of time since your loss so please don't pressure yourself that you should be back to 'normal' you can't rush grief. Focus energy you have on things that help you or your loved ones, the house can be cleaned any old time.
Thinking of you
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Have worked 4 days at part time job this week, gives a little bit of structure and keeps mind occupied for those hours. Did a few hours at voluntary job too, but have avoided situations where I will bump into people for chit chat.
Just been to garage to get 3 lights fixed on car, have been driving around and on motorways but had no idea one of the head lights and 2 brake lights weren't working until a friend called an told me
DS on school trip, dh has helped a lot with SE work despite work full time and long hours. I'm off to see mum again tomorrow, she has been poorly this week, her first few nights by herself. Lots of paperwork to do for her, VAt returns also due in a couple of weeks. Comfort eating rubbish food too, buying odds and ends and pizzas a lot:eek:will try and get a bit more organised this coming week.
xxFeb2014 Total unsecured debt £72,520>>01/06/16 £68166>01/02/17 £66,600=8.18%PAID
Mortgage Jan14=209,800 Jan15=£200,300 Jan17£180,700>OCT17 £170,200
Health/Fitness Challenges Priority#1 Stay Fit and healthy - whatever it takes:)
Wombling Free Cash May2016 £510
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