Want (?need) to change everything...

FBaby

I know the situation as it is doesn't feel nice at all, but the positive part is that you often have to do through this meltdown, questioning your current situation to get the urge to make some changes, so in a way, it is good you are feeling the way you do. What is essential though is that you see as a mean to reconsider where you are and what you want to do so you can put all your focus on enabling the changes rather than feeling overwhelmed by it all and retrieve into yourself as a result.

It would seem that your relationship could go either way as it stands and you are doing the right thing by considering your near future if it was to end at some point.

You seem determined and that will get you through. Good luck.

befuddled000

FBaby wrote: »

I know the situation as it is doesn't feel nice at all, but the positive part is that you often have to do through this meltdown, questioning your current situation to get the urge to make some changes, so in a way, it is good you are feeling the way you do. What is essential though is that you see as a mean to reconsider where you are and what you want to do so you can put all your focus on enabling the changes rather than feeling overwhelmed by it all and retrieve into yourself as a result.

It would seem that your relationship could go either way as it stands and you are doing the right thing by considering your near future if it was to end at some point.

You seem determined and that will get you through. Good luck.

I do want to use this as some sort of turning point, but for right now, for my own peace of mind, I need to just get through the next little while (I cannot even know or guess how long) and work my way out of this darkness.

I have assumed relationship wise, for now, that it is not going to proceed. If it does then that is a bonus, but I need to be prepared and have all my plans without taking him into account. I am 99.9% sure he would easily walk away if I ended it with no sad feeling, so I want to be braced to do the same.

I am in such a dark place, if I am hopeful it will succeed and it does not, I dread to think how much sadder I will be.

befuddled000

befuddled000 wrote: »

I am in such a dark place, if I am hopeful it will succeed and it does not, I dread to think how much sadder I will be.

So, it didn't last. 2 days later he ended it-he apparently cannot cope with a relationship. "Too much in his head"

I thought I was sad before. This, on top of all before, has made life quite sad. Understatement.

I have 2 wonderful children, and I know I should feel blessed. I've got through worse before and I am SO angry with myself for letting this break up get to me