Just needed to be heard for a little while

oldestgnome

whitewing wrote: »

When I started facing up to my mh problems I didn't feel like a person with mh pronblems, I felt that I was a mh problem. I lost myself totally. But as I get better, I understand that it is just a part of me that I have to accept and work with. I am rediscovering and renewing my personality.

This sprang to mind from your last post LiR.

Waves_and_Smiles

Gitdog also works! He might get dognapped by me though when no one is looking. Although I have a feeling that he wouldn't go quietly!

whitewing

Apart from obesity, (and intermittent diarrhoea), I don't have physical health problems. Oh yes, heavy periods and anaemia - I forgot about that. I went through a stage of flooding the sanitary towels too. That was down to stress I think as I'd moved countries, started a new job and all sorts at the time.

The way I understand my mh conditions is that they are part of the normal spectrum of human variance, but at the end of the spectrum that gives problems in daily life. Mine are really all to do with relating to other people, which is very sad really. So I am at the 1% worse end of the spectrum. I am still a lot better than a lot of people, partly because, like WaS, I try to understand it.

ETA: personality disorders (or disordered personalities as I prefer to call them) are also related to the norms of the society into which you are living. But I don't have specific examples of this.

oldestgnome

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Ok, I am in for blanket den! I'll even bring colouring books! Everyone is welcome, bring your own pugs.

This brings back lovely memories of playing with my sister as a child, chairs and blankets made fab dens would be great to do that with you!

oldestgnome

That makes sense whitewing, trying to understand why and how the way you are impacts on you and others goes a long way in rationalising the world around you and how it relates to you and vice versa.

whitewing

WaS, I was going to ask, have you ever had food allergy testing done?

Are your food issues to do with schizophrenia,/paranoia, digestive issues or something else. What does food mean to you?

oldestgnome

Gitdog wouldn't go anywhere quietly I'm betting!!

Waves_and_Smiles

Allergies are something I suffer from, although I haven't has specific foods tested. So far I know of nettles, penicillin, ibuprofen, Valium derivatives, some shellfish, cannabis (yes really, gives me itchy spots and I throw up continuously as my fingers swell up) and the antidote to Paracetamol which in hindsight was hilarious after an overdose as there was more of more of panic after giving me the treatment than there was about what I had taken.

I lean towards having an Eating Disorder which I try to keep under control. I have spent most of my life eating loads and then eating almost nothing with my weight going up and down constantly. It took me a long time to learn to like food rather than seeing it as a source of control and guilt, withholding and rewarding with food was something my mother did a lot. It is still difficult but not as much of a problem as it once was.

Pyxis

WaS, next time the bad voices are loud, remember to go and look at your certificate and read what we all think of you. That might shut them up, or at least turn the volume down!

whitewing

How very wicked to withhold food from a child.