Depression Support Thread

BigMummaF

Wow...QB, that is so much how I hoped my children would be, & on the whole I think I've made a good choice.

We have a neighbour with a child just four weeks older than my youngest who should be six weeks younger. He is confined to an electric wheelchair with cerebral palsy & severe learning difficulties, but most folk take the time to stop for a chat as they pass.

I have a cousin with severe learning difficulties & my brood josh with him all the time. They are also very good with their deaf & cantancerous granny, their pals young offspring & huge softies where animals are concerned!

Isn't it a shame that people like the teams in your posting, are in the minority?
Makes you think......

Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

gillette147

I just wrote a huge post and the site ate it. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

rose07

gillette147 wrote: »

I just wrote a huge post and the site ate it. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

aww silly site

u ok hun?

want me to come on msn?

xx

gillette147

I've been in Brum for last 4 days. Seeing loved ones and thinking.
The job I trained for isn't there. And doesn't pay enough even if I find it. This has left me in limbo for the last 3 months. Feeling there was no way of making anything happen that would truely be an answer to my problems. Splitting with g/f has had the effect of leaving me without ties to this area. I've had enough of waiting. Life isn't going to knock my door.

Over the next month I am bringing my house up to standard for renting it out. Selling excess stuff. Decluttering to the size of a suitcase. Then I am going to Cornwall.

I will buy a tent and I will look into buying a caravan to live in. I will look for work where I want to live rather than living where I work. Once there I have no excuses and will forge a new life. I built one here before circumstances smashed it all up.

Please keep my resolve up during the next month as the fear kicks in.
I love you all

xxx

rose07

Hi hun xxx

gillette147 wrote: »

I've been in Brum for last 4 days. Seeing loved ones and thinking.
The job I trained for isn't there. And doesn't pay enough even if I find it. This has left me in limbo for the last 3 months. Feeling there was no way of making anything happen that would truely be an answer to my problems. Splitting with g/f has had the effect of leaving me without ties to this area. I've had enough of waiting. Life isn't going to knock my door.

I am glad you have had the time out, sometimes we all need time out sometimes to get a perspective. Sometimes its easier to go along with what we have then break away from the norm as it were. Im soo glad you are realising what you need hun, and how u important

Over the next month I am bringing my house up to standard for renting it out. Selling excess stuff. Decluttering to the size of a suitcase. Then I am going to Cornwall.

Cornwall is lovely, nice scenery et all lol. As long as it makes you happy thats what matters

I will buy a tent and I will look into buying a caravan to live in. I will look for work where I want to live rather than living where I work. Once there I have no excuses and will forge a new life. I built one here before circumstances smashed it all up.

Glad you got a plan, I think some people just happy with what they got, but least you realise what you want, a dream even and you are following it

Please keep my resolve up during the next month as the fear kicks in.
I love you all

xxx

We love you too, you will always be in our hearts hun

Take care of yourself

And now rosie gonna go hide back under her rock lol

xxxxxxx

BigMummaF

Hey Gillette....I have a cunning plan..:rolleyes2 ......

Buy a caravan in Cornwall & rent THAT out! All that luvverly rough farm scumpy & gorrrrrrgeous clotted crem :drool: :drool: :drool: :drool: :drool: :drool: :dance: :dance: :dance: :beer: :beer: :beer: :T :T :T
I would be your very best customer--my dad's family were down on the north Devon & Cornwall coast. We used to visit every year coz it was a cheap holiday staying with rellies, but of course I hit teenage & didn't appreciate what I had. Boy do I miss it now.

I'm not so niave to think it will be anything close to resembling my memories, but it would be good to see the area again.

I'm off to dream my dreams of days gone by.......so night night.

Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

andipandi_2

hmmm,i've been informed that i need a supervised detox as apparently i am deemed alcohol dependant after explaining that i get the night terrors (delirium tremens,dt's),six month waiting list as well,well fcuk it i'll do it my way- cold turkey,have been told i must not stop drinking in the meantime) ,also i have an allergic reaction to valium and librium which is the drugs they use,its all bloody mutant .

i only started to drink to get to sleep because i've not slept well since i was 10 years old,was put on drugs to get me to sleep then,my mother was on sleeping tablets and god knows what else for 30 years,i got her off them when i found her(i was adopted),now all this sh1te and also been told i have 25% of getting crohns disease and that mum was also diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years before she died(mental illness runs riot through the family genes on mums side).

they want my fathers medical history and i was "how would i know ,never met him and nobody in my birth family knows anything about him ",


sorry about the rant,not been a good day sad.


Edit,copied from a another forum,pasted it because i can't be bothered to type it all in,folks here know some of this,the other lot(not mse,not putting it there)didn't know any of this.


but i have put it here.......just done it

poppycracker

morning all

andi, sorry your feeling so low ((((hugs)))) to you

gillete, can I come with you? Wow, wish I had the courage to just follow a dream, good on you! ((((hugs)))) to you too!

rose, please don't go back under your rock, you've got as much right to be 'here' as anyone else ((((hugs)))) to you

beautiful story QB, thankyou for sharing it. Made me stop thinking what a ****ed up world this is for a few minutes ((((hugs)))) to you.

And to everyone else, ((((hugs)))) to you too if you need em now or might need em later

Well, I'm in a stinker of a mood at the moment having spent the night on the couch because I cannot put up with OH's moods any more. Had an arguement last night and told him not to bother coming to bed, but apparently I don't have the right to kick him out of his own bed. So not being able to bear being in the same room as him at that point, I decamped to the living room.

Wind forward to 6am. IN he comes, puts the light and the tele on and makes himself a fag. Now is it me or is that just nasty? I mean, what the **** have I done to deserve being treated like that? :mad: Apparently my job is easy (try being on call 24 hours a day 10 days at a time) and his other job (which takes him all of an hour three times a week) is so hard he's not able to do anything in the house, or do half of what he gets paid for in THIS job. I feel like I'm carrying him but he says that I'M the one thats childish and lazy and everything else.......................................................................
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I've had enough. Anyway, back to the salt mines

have a good day everyone
huggles
PC

BigMummaF

Beautiful Morning Folks, spring-like in an autumn sort of way.:huh:

I still haven't decided about the funeral tomorrow, but have arranged the day to give me the option of attending. It's as much the thought of the 'what shall I wear; will those shoes be ok; is my jacket clean' palava as facing all those people & their comments on my preference for following a hermit lifestyle, that pains me.:o

I'm off to the deepest depths of outer wardrobe-who knows what I may discover hidden in the underwear...ooops undergrowth!!

Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

BigMummaF

Sorry Poppy, I was deep in thought & hadn't seen your post.

It is difficult living with a partner who can only see black & white. One time, I was sat musing over a cuppa, as you do, & began thinking aloud about decorating the lounge. I was visualising a soft peach--he said "no, blue"---& because I said that blue could make the room look colder [it don't get no sun no when] he said "Do what you bl88dy like....you always do!" That was the total of our conversation coz he got up & walked out!

Now I don't know about you folks, but I like to explore various options before making a choice--particularly with something you have to live with for the next couple of years. I enjoy the banter of exchanging ideas, & have tried to encourage the children to listen to other people's opinions & then reach a mutual agreement on things that will affect others too. In the case with the lounge, I hadn't dismissed blue at all--again just thinking aloud--& couldn't care less if we had flurescent stripes & day-glo spots, as long as we both wanted it!He never was prepared to talk with me...he went to see his childhood neighbour for help when I suggested some names for our last child, & it wasn't till much later that I found out why. The neighbour's son & my hubby were best friends growing up, until the other lad was sadly killed in an accident at 15. I knew him as one name-assuming it was the shortened version of his given name-but had inadvertently chosen his full name as a choice if we should have a son.

I don't know what to say to others in a similar situation, other than try to look at your relationship with complete objectivity if at all possible. If your mate was going through the type of thing you are facing.........what would you say to them? I wish I had had the foresight to do this earlier on in my marriage, but then I would not have the wonderful kids I have now.
HTH.
Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx