Depression Support Thread

shazrobo

Stephb1986 wrote: »

shaz your doing a great job bringing up your kids i know its not easy i have a few customers that have kids with adhd, i wasnt exactly a brilliant kid myself and made it really hard for my mum sometimes i dont know how she coped with us! but she did a great jobs and im sure your kids love you so much. i hope your ok hunni i really do care about you

Steph xxx

i know deep down they love me, but i also think they are ashamed of me, and i'm not making life easier for them, causing them to worry about me, which in turn upsets me more.
thanks for caring all of you, i don't deserve it, but it does mean a lot to me
thanks again
shaz x

meyore

You do deserve people to care shaz

You do so many things to try and make your life better, its more than I do, I just wallow in self-pity. Glad you took care of your cuts. Just think tomorrow will be a better day Xx

Sazbo

shazrobo wrote: »

thanks for caring all of you, i don't deserve it, but it does mean a lot to me
thanks again
shaz x

you so DO deserve it. Sxxx

Sazbo

sorry i need to crash my lovlies... wish i didn't... sleep well my angels, Sazzy xxxxxxxx

meyore

Night night Xx

shazrobo

night night sazzy, sweet dreams
shaz x

shazrobo

meyore wrote: »

You do deserve people to care shaz

You do so many things to try and make your life better, its more than I do, I just wallow in self-pity. Glad you took care of your cuts. Just think tomorrow will be a better day Xx

tommorrow day time should be ok, i have woodwork in the morning at my day centre, i call it a day centre, but in reality its a mental health clinic, still it gets me out of the house for a couple of hours. need to find something to keep me occupied in the evenings, not easy when i have no one to sit for my son
think i might make myself a milky drink and head off to bed, thanks for being there for me tonight
big hugs
night night
shaz x

meyore

Sleeps probably a good plan, I'd go to bed, but I know I won't sleep. Hope tomorrow is better for you though. Night night Xx

Diamond78

shazrobo wrote: »

sorry to hear that you have a migraine diamond, i used to get them a lot, so i can sympathise, hope it goes after a good nights sleep.
i'm ok, just cleaned up my arm, feel so stupid, one day i'm gonna have scars and i've only got myself to blame
shaz x

Hey hun, hope your feeling a it better,I wont be able to sleep as migranes bad.
I hope ur arm is ok. Dont feel bad and your not stupid. But plz dont do it again, think of the pain later on and the scars. My scars are pretty bad, if i could turn back time and go back to when i did it i would. But its done now and the scars are there, mine arent just a few or on 1 arm, like a fool i done both but i regret it so badly for the simple fact that in the summer when I want to wear a short sleeve top i get looks from ppl which the looks could kill, it doesnt help ppl like that who judge us ppl not knowing what self harm is about and that we have problems. I still have the urge at times but i cant do it as Im scared if i did and doctor found out, i met get sectioned or have my son taken away, maybe thats why i feel even more depressed as i cannot get my frustration out. I cant punch walls or kick them like men but self harming as in cutting my arms was a relief, I havent done it in over a year and altho those cuts was nothing as bad as my previous its still on my medical notes.

I think maybe i should start smoking again but that will make me feel like a failure so I dont want to. I have so many problems, which are never ending, one thing after the other and nothing ever goes right for me. I havent done nothing bad to anybody so why do I have such !!!! luck and no luck at all?

The only thing that keeps me going is my son, when his at school im even more depressed as his not with me, im much more happier when his at home but feel guilty and bad that I cant take him no where. I wish he could stay young forever so I could protect him from the bad but his growing and dunno has to learn i suppose.he knows i love him unconditionally tho, he loves me and its his love that keeps me alive.xx

RainbowChild_2

I am sorry to join this thread so late, but I have been reading it for over a year now. I am a long time sufferer of depression and have been since my teens although only diagnosed in 1996. I have a Oh 2 DD and am on a bad spell again, I have been off work for 4 weeks and had a change of meds from citalopram to sertraline. I am due back at Docs in the morning. I feel like work think I am taking the mick and I should go back but I can barely get out of bed before 2 in the afternoon, not sure what to do. My brill Oh sent me a lovely card on valentines day..poor him got a Will-!!! suicide note. I don;t know what to tell my GP in the morning do I go back or hang off for another week?