Depression Support Thread

shazrobo

Diamond78 wrote: »

Hey hun, hope your feeling a it better,I wont be able to sleep as migranes bad.
I hope ur arm is ok. Dont feel bad and your not stupid. But plz dont do it again, think of the pain later on and the scars. My scars are pretty bad, if i could turn back time and go back to when i did it i would. But its done now and the scars are there, mine arent just a few or on 1 arm, like a fool i done both but i regret it so badly for the simple fact that in the summer when I want to wear a short sleeve top i get looks from ppl which the looks could kill, it doesnt help ppl like that who judge us ppl not knowing what self harm is about and that we have problems. I still have the urge at times but i cant do it as Im scared if i did and doctor found out, i met get sectioned or have my son taken away, maybe thats why i feel even more depressed as i cannot get my frustration out. I cant punch walls or kick them like men but self harming as in cutting my arms was a relief, I havent done it in over a year and altho those cuts was nothing as bad as my previous its still on my medical notes.

I think maybe i should start smoking again but that will make me feel like a failure so I dont want to. I have so many problems, which are never ending, one thing after the other and nothing ever goes right for me. I havent done nothing bad to anybody so why do I have such !!!! luck and no luck at all?

The only thing that keeps me going is my son, when his at school im even more depressed as his not with me, im much more happier when his at home but feel guilty and bad that I cant take him no where. I wish he could stay young forever so I could protect him from the bad but his growing and dunno has to learn i suppose.he knows i love him unconditionally tho, he loves me and its his love that keeps me alive.xx

smoking dosen't help diamond, i feel a failure for starting again, even tho its only 3 or 4 a day, and it hasnt helped as tonight has shown.
we all wish our kids could stay young forever i certainly do, i could protect them more when they were younger, now i feel like they are watching and worryin about me. dont know where i would be if it wasnt for them.
hope you get some good luck soon hun, you deserve it
big hugs shaz x

shazrobo

meyore wrote: »

Sleeps probably a good plan, I'd go to bed, but I know I won't sleep. Hope tomorrow is better for you though. Night night Xx

try not to stay up too late, you need sleep too
big hugs
shaz x

shazrobo

RainbowChild wrote: »

I am sorry to join this thread so late, but I have been reading it for over a year now. I am a long time sufferer of depression and have been since my teens although only diagnosed in 1996. I have a Oh 2 DD and am on a bad spell again, I have been off work for 4 weeks and had a change of meds from citalopram to sertraline. I am due back at Docs in the morning. I feel like work think I am taking the mick and I should go back but I can barely get out of bed before 2 in the afternoon, not sure what to do. My brill Oh sent me a lovely card on valentines day..poor him got a Will-!!! suicide note. I don;t know what to tell my GP in the morning do I go back or hang off for another week?

hi rainbow, welcome to this thread, we are all a friendly bunch in here.
if i were you i would tell the gp exactly how your feeling, no point going back to work, if at the moment you dont feel you could cope at work.
going to bed now, as its been a long day for me, chat another time
big hugs
shaz x

shazrobo

right i'm definatly off to bed now, or i'll never get up in the morn, to see ds off to school in his taxi.
night all, and thanks again for all your support tonight
big hugs
shaz x

RainbowChild_2

Night Shaz, thanks & take care x

Diamond78

RainbowChild wrote: »

I am sorry to join this thread so late, but I have been reading it for over a year now. I am a long time sufferer of depression and have been since my teens although only diagnosed in 1996. I have a Oh 2 DD and am on a bad spell again, I have been off work for 4 weeks and had a change of meds from citalopram to sertraline. I am due back at Docs in the morning. I feel like work think I am taking the mick and I should go back but I can barely get out of bed before 2 in the afternoon, not sure what to do. My brill Oh sent me a lovely card on valentines day..poor him got a Will-!!! suicide note. I don;t know what to tell my GP in the morning do I go back or hang off for another week?

Hi Rainbowchild,
Welcome on here. Im glad you finally posted as it takes a bit of courage to post for some.Like you, i would come and read the posts and it took me a while b4 i could actually post. In the end I did as I knew I wasnt getting any better, I read post of how these wonderful ppl on this thread were encouraging each other, helping each other, being nice to each other, caring for each other and not judging one another. It took a while b4 I could open up, Im still opening up as times goes by but this thread has helped me a lot and I know it will you to.

It takes time.Im so sorry to hear your having a bad spell.Its a horrible thing depression, as long as you can accept that theres a problem somewhere and you feel depressed that is the 1st step for recovery.

Please do go and see your doctor.I dont know why but a lot of us feel frightened to see our doctor and tell them how we feel. A lot of the time we are not honest with ourselves let alone our doctors, yet that is what they are there for, thats what they get paid for and thats why we get worse coz we block it all in and dont get the help that we need and deserve. For some like myself, i felt ashamed of my depression, ppl made me feel like having depression is a illness to be ashamed of but its NOT. Any type of person, young old, fit unfit, rich poor can suffer with depression. Anything can trigger it, yet hiding it away will make it worse. Even if you feel good and well for a few months, its so easy to come crashing down and the longer it gets un noticed for the worse it can get.

Im so happy that you have a loving OH who is caring and supportive, it helps so much to have ppl that love and care for you. I hope you go to the gp tomoro and explain how you feel as you have nothing to feel bad or guilty about. Sod work, you do not need the stress of them adding on to your depression hun, it doesnt matter what they think, its your health and happiness that comes first.Sending u hugs xxx

Diamond78

shazrobo wrote: »

right i'm definatly off to bed now, or i'll never get up in the morn, to see ds off to school in his taxi.
night all, and thanks again for all your support tonight
big hugs
shaz x

nite hun, chat soon and sending u big hugs and love and kisses xxxxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

welcome Rainbowchild to our thread today I am cleaning my flat and seeing my Physcologist at 11am listening to Westlife this morning to their Turnaround album havent heard this for a while so its nice to hear it again after so long

Got a food shop to do later,off to find some Kylie Minogue bedding so far I have been unsuccessful in locating it so trying nearer to home or its a trip out to Plymouth to another stockist tomorrow as I love plymouth I will go on the bus as its free for me to get there and I dont have to pay so hope you are ok Shaz,I am your friend too

I hope you all have a lovely day

*hugs* to everyone


love and light,

Katie xxx

meyore

Hope you have luck in finding the bedding Katie-I love shopping in Plymouth too, its the nearest decent place to here!

Xx

Tulip

meyore wrote: »

Hope you have luck in finding the bedding Katie-I love shopping in Plymouth too, its the nearest decent place to here!

Xx

thanks Meyore I have seen pictures of it all on the internet but its not the same as seeing the real thing

got to go now everyone,be back later,Appointment with Physcologist in an hour


Katie