Depression Support Thread

shazrobo

i'm an idiot, a totally f8cked up idiot, i've made a mess of my arm, sorry

Stephb1986_2

shaz are you ok hun??

shazrobo

Stephb1986 wrote: »

shaz are you ok hun??

no, i'm not feel like a complete failure at life, wonder sometimes why i carry on, it dosent get any easier

meyore

That doesn't make you an idiot shaz. You're hurting, but do look after your cuts please. You don't need to apologise ok.

You're not a failure, whether you believe that or not, I think its true. You've brought up your 2 boys and you keep trying. Thats important, you cope with more than I have to and you do a lot better than I do Xx

Stephb1986_2

your not though your just feeling down today thats all, you carry on for your family and friends (im one of them)

Hugs love and kisses

Stephxxx

shazrobo

thanks guys, in real life i have no real friends. i used to have friends, when i had free time to help them out and run their kids to school, but one day it dawned on me that they were never there when i needed help, and i had to struggle alone, even if it meant taking my sons to appointments with me, not easy when both have adhd, and other learning disabilities.
i know i've done my best, but it dosen't feel good enough, i haven't given my children the opportunities that other kids have experianced, can't even seem to keep my self together for their sakes anymore. they found out about the sh'ing after i cut my arms last week, feel so ashamed. started smoking again on sunday, not a wise move but thought it would help me calm , but it dosen't and kids are disgusted with me for that too, especially after all lectures i've given them bout how harmful it can be too.
my kids do not see their dad, haven't since birth more or less, so they look up to me so much, and i feel under so much pressure, no support from anywhere cept you guys on here.
just feel like i'm falling apart, and worried the effects its having on my sons, they worry so much, especially after the last year when i o'd twice
sorry for rant and long post
shaz x

Sazbo

Shaz angel, the last thing you are is a failure - and I ought to know!:) You're doing a great job bringing up your kids, it's clear to see that they love you as much as you love them. I'm not saying it's easy, god I wish it was. You are a wonderful person, you just need to see yourself the same way we do. It will get better angel, trust me a while please xxxx

Diamond78

Hi Guys,
Havent been on for a few days again, so many posts to catch up on but going bed in a bit as got migrane.
Tulip welcome back hun, great pics and hope u had a fab time coz u deserve it.
RBK hope ur ok to hun
Shazrobo u ok hunni?
Hope ur all ok xx

shazrobo

sorry to hear that you have a migraine diamond, i used to get them a lot, so i can sympathise, hope it goes after a good nights sleep.
i'm ok, just cleaned up my arm, feel so stupid, one day i'm gonna have scars and i've only got myself to blame
shaz x

Stephb1986_2

shaz your doing a great job bringing up your kids i know its not easy i have a few customers that have kids with adhd, i wasnt exactly a brilliant kid myself and made it really hard for my mum sometimes i dont know how she coped with us! but she did a great jobs and im sure your kids love you so much. i hope your ok hunni i really do care about you

Steph xxx