Depression Support Thread

Tiff_2

Hi andi!:hello:
I hope you got some sleep angel and that you're looking after yourself properly, even though you feel so low.

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hello folks,well i'm struggling sitting here thinking about my daughter off to the states this week,she could be gone already i don't know,
I can understand how frustrated and worried you must feel andi. Is there anyone you could phone to find out if she has left already hun? It might help ease the worrying if for example, she doesn't go until Friday.

watched itv news at 6.30 ,had a big feature about teenagers and bebo facebook and the like,didn't make me feel any better thats for sure,they're running it all week if anyones interested,
I hope you know me enough to know that I'm not patronising at all andi, but the sad truth is that these days, these things can happen everywhere - even in her home town, God forbid. There are good people too hun, even in the US,;) and people will look out for her and help if she needs it.

i got an appointment with my phscologist next week and i can't face it ,all the questions about my dd and stuff will be to much,last time i went in april it took me 2 weeks or more to recover so what with all my issues i'll end up on beachy head again,not sure what to do right now,a month my dd is away,
Sweetheart, this is exactly the very time that you need to keep your psychologist's appointment! You already recognize that you're going to feel very low and by going and seeing the dr hun, you can get extra help to get through this month.

A lot of people don't realise that actually, recovering from depression and counselling is very hard work and when you're talking about deep issues, it's bound to hurt. It can seem like it's too much to bear, more pain than burying the problem, but it's a part of recovering hun.;)

I understand that you don't want to feel worse angel, but you already know what you're capable of doing to yourself and I know that suggestions are probably the last thing you need right now with everything feeling like a spaghetti of problems and issues. I think it would be a good idea to get yourself to the drs instead of Beachy Head, hun. You already need extra help andi. You're very angry and worried and you deserve the support.

When we're at our lowest, everything snowballs and it all feels too much. This isn't just for you, it's the same for everyone angel. That's why it's good to try and separate everything into separate problems. You have to put down the ones you can't change right now - it's a heavy load hun I know, but you will feel better if you can focus on just getting through each day.

can't face the cold turkey dt's,been told once AGAIN to keep drinking till i get supervised detox,yeah and getting really skint,it all bollox right now apart from OH who is good but cant do much to help me ethier with work on the flat or my stuff,(she has her own stuff to deal with ,which of course i have to deal with also and vice versa)
You've got a huge load to bear hun. Please see your gp - show them your post if that helps - and give them the chance to help. They'd rather prevent any harm happening than treat you for it afterwards.:o

And what will this do to your family, your daughter hun? They'll be devastated, as will all the people who become involved when someone commits suicide. I know you find it hard to care about that angel right now, but if you can't live with yourself, please try and think of all those it'll hurt and who do care for you.

I'm sorry if this sounds harsh angel but I won't just tell you what you want to hear - that won't help you hun.
Everything must seem black right now hun, but there is help to get you through this. Now is the time you need to ask for help andi.

i do know myself very well and it is going to be very hard for me in the next month,i don't want sympathy or hugs
I don't doubt your intelligence angel or the amount of problems you have in any way. It will be hard for the next month so call in that support you need now. As for sympathy and hugs andi - well, you're going to get them anyway and there's nothing wrong in that. It's what we do here.;)

i want folks to understand that there must be something inherently wrong in this country when a young lady of 16 with unresolved mental health issues can be allowed to travel round the planet to meet and stay with a family that no one knows anything about,keep your fingers crossed folks that my dd does not become a household name.
Andy/quote
You've naturally prepared yourself for the worst hun - quite understandable. The best thing that could happen is that she ends up having a good holiday or maybe gets bored and wants to come home early. I hope, as you must, that this is the scenario that happens. And if that's the case, what do you want her to come home to?

God forbid that anything should happen to her. Be reassured hun, that if her mental health declines, there will be help for her there. I know that's what it feels like hun but she's not travelling around the planet realistically. This will just make it scarier for you if you think of it in those terms. It's not as though she'll be able to go off and do this again on any kind of regular basis either.

Her mother paid for this trip. You made your feelings clear and did all you could angel. I would hope that her mother has contact details and will make and receive calls with DD.

If you stay as you are now andi hun, you'll be in a heap by the time the month has gone. You obviously love DD and you shouldn't be beating yourself up. As a parent myself, I know you're very angry and afraid angel, but that's just the time to ask for help. A step at a time angel - a problem at a time.;) You know, I hope, that we're all here for you andi. Please let the professionals help you more sweetheart.
Thinking of you hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

dawnylou

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

I am a bit sad tonight too and I am like this when I am tired but I will be fine tomorrow
Going now to have a sleep and I will feel better in the morning

Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

Morning Tulip - hope you feel better this morning!

*zippy*

Morning all

Lovely to see the sun

Eldest DD has decided she is going away for the week so I will miss her, pleased she has the chance to enjoy herself though. A bit sad today too as i'm finishing in one of the stores I work in. I have to go and pack up and say goodbye.

Hope everyone has a good day
zippy x

Tulip

dawnylou wrote: »

Morning Tulip - hope you feel better this morning!

Hi Dawnylou,

I am fine thanks not feeling so as I did last night

Have a nice day


love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,I am fine today,not feeling too bad like I felt last night I am going to have a nice day I am seeing my physcologist today so I can chat to her about things I find these sessions I have with her draining but they are helpful and she is very good at what she does with me and explains what was said in the last session to jog my memory before we begin the new one so that at least is good

love and light,

Katie xxx

roversbabe

Sazbo wrote: »

Hi Allie hun :wave: thanks for the update:D Sounds like more positives than negatives in there, which is the main thing :T There's ups and downs with depression, that's my experience anyways... good days, bad days. I'd go with your instincts and with what seems to work for you, perhaps?

Take care,
Sazzyxxxxx

Cor - been offline for a few days and this thread is HUUUUUUGE.

Thanks Sazzy - I'm just glad to be having more ups than downs. I guess when I have the down days, I appreciate the ups more!

Love Allie xx

roversbabe

Hi Tiff -

thanks for replying hun, my bits are in blue

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Hi roversbabe!:hello:
How are you today hun?

Great today - back at work full time so I'm really tired tho

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Hiya everyone,
Sorry I've not been around - I've gone back to work and not had any chance to get on the computer. I've been on prozac for the last 3 weeks and they have been BRILLIANT! I'm almost back to my old sparkly & irritatingly cheerful self.
Oh hun, that's fantastic!:j Great news both about the meds and work.;)
I can do irritating and cheerful as well - usually in the same post!:D

Meds still working yayy :j


I have had a bit of a setback - was very low yesterday and had worrying thoughts again. Got to the point again where I didn't want to live anymore. These episodes are getting shorter though which I guess is a good thing. My diary for yesterday makes lousy reading though .
The lower days come with the higher ones sadly. I'm glad you're seeing as just a setback hun. Sometimes, it's just down to life or natural human moods. if we didn't have the lows, we wouldn't feel the highs.;) The diary will help you on the low days hun because you'll have proof in your hands that you do go up again. i hope today is better for you angel
lif we didn't have the lows, we wouldn't feel the highs. - You're right there. I'm trying to appreciate the highs and need to remember that the lows don't last forever


Am a lot better today, bags of energy and lighter mood - I've even managed to get my contact lenses in for the first time in months - I couldn't be bothered before.
Always a good idea hun!:D How on earth did you read people's posts?;)
lol

Once the AD's kicked in, my energy levels soared and I decluttered my bedroom (its been a dumping ground for about a year :rolleyes:). Sounds like such a small thing but its been months since I've even been able to think about tidying, let alone doing it. I felt such a sense of achievement and felt totally lifted. My bedroom is a far more relaxing place now too.
Who thought they'd ever be happy to be able to clean?!:rolleyes: It's a great feeling and decluttering is a comforting act as you've created a haven for yourself.
Tiffy thinks you should come and stay at Tiff Towers for...
*how many rooms have I got? 1...2...4...*
the foreseeable future!:D :rotfl:
Only if I can have the orange smarties

Had my 1st appointment with the mental health team. Spoke for about an hour or so on how I've been feeling and what life has been like for the past few years - after the lengthy discussion, she concluded that I'm not clinically depressed, its just the way I am. The main reason that she has ruled out clinical depression is because I've not lost any weight - I still have a good appetite and am sleeping OK. Now I am a bit of a bloater, so weight loss would have been truly welcome
There are other forms of depression hun, so it may not be clinical depression. Ironically, some people comfort eat and sleep more when they're depressed. I'm glad you've got the professionals in hun. Don't be afraid to ask your questions or for a better explanation of why you feel the way you do.;)
I have been comfort eating - gained a fair few pounds. I really need to shift it - the therapist that I've been seeing is talking about arranging a gym membership on prescription as exercise is one of the best ways of lifting my mood.

I'm completely confused by her diagnosis as 2 doctors have said that my symptoms are classic depression symptoms, and any physical cause has been ruled out?!??!?!? Result is one extremely baffled Allie who feels like she has been both lied to and doesn't know what to do for the best - I have NOT made up any symptoms, I told the docs everything and this has made me feel really hurt.
I can understand why you might feel these things hun.
I can only guess that maybe the physical causes might be a health problem which might affect your body chemistry - you should ask her about that hun - or maybe a chemical imbalance that can cause depression. At least you know this is not the case with you.
There's a lot to take in during your first few times hun and not many people do understand straight away. It's very much a learning curve with mental ill health.;)

Diagnosis is a slow process angel and has many layers. We can be prone to being over-sensitive when we're unwell - did she actually say you were making it up hun? Or is it what you assumed she meant?
It was what I assumed - after I spoke to her last week, I'd taken it totally the wrong way the CBT is really useful and I now have a better idea of what is going on and how I can get better.
I do believe now that I am getting better and feel emotionally stronger every day. this place really helps .

Thanks again Tiff,

Will pop back on later if I get time.

Love Allie xx
Whether the cause of depression is physical or due to life events or for any other reason, it still affects you and is still depression hun. You should tell them how you feel about this angel so that they can explain and hopefully reassure you. This will hopefully mend the trust between you both and can be a really positive thing to do.;)
Like anything else we learn, we need to be able to understand so that we don't throw our arms in the air and give up. It would be a shame to miss out on any help just because we don't understand. It's their job to explain things until they are understood.;)

I'm going back tomorrow for a CBT appointment so I've got a few questions for her, like if I'm not depressed, 1, why has the prozac worked, 2, why do I get days like yesterday, where everything is bleak and there is no point to life anymore, 3, why have 2 doctors diagnosed me with depression if that isn't the case. Allie xx[/quote]
If there was nothing wrong hun, you certainly wouldn't be getting cbt, imho. Good luck for today angel and don't be afraid to keep asking questions.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx[/quote]

Tiff_2

Hi little pickle and savingstill!
How are you? Sorry I haven't posted to you yet - I'm still running on the Tiff time zone.:rolleyes:

savingstill wrote: »

Little_Pickle wrote: »

saw the doc this morning. ended up bawling my eyes out. I think I scared him.
he said 'hmmmmmm, yes I think you may be suffering with depression'
I stopped crying and looked at him as if to say 'no s**t sherlock!!'.
No don't worry hun - they don't scare easily. It's good that he saw you in that state because it'll help with his diagnosis. I imagine that this is how most of us started off hun. I bet a dr sees it at least once a day - they're used to seeing it as the gp is the first port of call as it were.

Yes, sometimes they do have a talent for stating the obvious.:rolleyes:
On the bright side hun, at least he recognized it and didn't just put it down to PMS.:rolleyes:

He's given me some forms to fill out and return so that I can be put on the waiting list for a psycologist. (*sp.)
sorry for being angry... i'm really angry today... i wonder why. I wish I knew.
god, I hate feeling like this.
I'm so glad it's friday...
Fill the forms in as quickly as you can hun and get them back to him if you haven't already. Be honestly honest on them.;)
You might get an appointment come through to meet with the psychologists, (usually there's 2 when you go, so that we can be sure of a fairly accurate assessment), and they'll talk to you informally and try to make you feel as comfortable as possible hun.

Your place on the list won't necessarily be bottom - it depends on how badly they assess you as needing help. The good thing is that you went to the dr and that you're going to get some support and you should feel really proud of that.:T

A lot of anger comes from fear and pain angel - it doesn't necessarily have to be over anything you can put your finger on.
I think too that we go to the gp and you expect everything to be resolved now, because we're hurting now and feeling that it's all just too hard. It can be so frustrating to head back home and have to wait for the wheels to get going.
You've just poured your heart and soul out and used up enough tissues to qualify for shares in Andrex, and you can feel that it was all pointless! But it really isn't! They need to know these things and then they'll discuss it further and decide on the next plan of action with you.

We're already poorly when we go and it is a very emotional experience and it's natural for everything to feel raw afterwards, imho. It's like that when you open up to lt out your pain.
So as usual angel, no apologies needed on this thread.;) I hope you're feeling better pickle.

This just about sums it up for me!
Last August I saw a practice nurse, she listened to my "ailments", watched me in tears and said "yes, I think you are under stress". I was more anxious about the tests she proceeded with -blood tests and being put on a heart monitor. Every thing was OK physically and the prescribed drugs ( 7 day course) helped even if I was like a zombie.
It's always better, and not unusual, to have these tests done, saving. I was curious as to why it was the practice nurse and not the gp though? Obviously I don't know your situation angel but I'd be surprised if a 7 day course helped someone who was very stressed to get better all on it's own. But I'm not a professional hun, so don't heed that.;) Didn't she refer you to the dr?

But I'm still not better. In September a girl in Church asked me if I am depressed and I just looked at her and couldnt decide yes or no? She said our minister is very good with problems but I would have to approach him as he wouldnt presume to give advise otherwise. But I couldnt approach him. I'm just not good at asking for help, never have been, I just feel stupid./quote
I'd book an appointment with your gp sweetie. It's important to see a medical professional too. You say yourself angel that you're not feeling better and that's the time to go back and see the dr.

It's good to know that your minister will be there to support you and I'm sure he'd want you to say something to him rather than suffer in silence. There's no reason why you can't do both.;)

As for asking for help, if it's very difficult for you, I always suggest typing/writing it up as you would a post and then handing it to them. Be sure to 'tell' them that you find it hard to ask for help - that's an important point to make, because then they'll know that they may have to follow through with you and not just assume that your silence means all is well. The last thing you are is stupid hun, so don't delay your recovery any longer and make that appointment.

I hope you'll both post back and let us know how you got on - you're very welcome here any time.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

something terrible happened to me yesterday.

i cant even think straight.

Hi sf!:hello:
Oh hun, I'm so sorry something upset you that badly.:o You did the right thing angel by posting.:T I'm so glad there were people around willing to help and listen angel - we're all here for each other and would rather you posted than suffer alone.:A
I don't know what it was but I hope it's over with sweetheart - you know you can call on any of us if you need to.;) Thinking of you sweetheart.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

slowlyfading

Tiff wrote: »

Hi sf!:hello:
Oh hun, I'm so sorry something upset you that badly.:o You did the right thing angel by posting.:T I'm so glad there were people around willing to help and listen angel - we're all here for each other and would rather you posted than suffer alone.:A
I don't know what it was but I hope it's over with sweetheart - you know you can call on any of us if you need to.;) Thinking of you sweetheart.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Good afternoon Tiff I'm alright, just trying to get with things. how are you today? how are things? you always give so much support to everyone else and never really talk about yourself.. i hope you're alright. love x x