Depression Support Thread

Sazbo

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Horasio

week wrote: »

I am sorry you feel so bad. Are you on any meds or seeing a doc at the moment?
I am no good at relationships and my Bi Polar caused hugh problems with partners and close family over the years so I can sympathise. I get very high, high and low from day to day and it is hard for me and many people dont understand. My family just label me as borderline mad now and I dont have a partner and have not had for 13 years. I am not saying you shouldnt have a partner, I am just saying I am better on my own I have a daughter of 18 and she is very good but even she doesnt understand my moods all the time and I annoy and irritate her with the way I am.
People think you can just shake yourself and get on with things but you cant. A long time ago my (ex) MILaw told me that there were others worse off then me in the world, like those that were handicapped etc. It tipped me over the edge to OD. Presumably I was meant to "pull myself together".
K

Oh yes that old chestnut - add guilt to a bad feeling, just what you need:rolleyes:

I am not on any meds as I feel it is circumstantial rather than chemical. I have a bad cold just now and it's affecting me badly, no meds will stop me getting colds. No amount of meds will stop someone conditionally caring for you. I have to be perfect or I get a row in our family.
I have spent 26 years correcting my wrongs yet no-one else has done anything about their faults. I also have him making out I am the bad guy all the time and I am the the ogre, whilst he is making out how loving and caring he is. Even our son thinks I am an ogre but he doesn't know what pressure I have to be the perfect mother, child and wife, and employee when I do have the energy to work.

I have to accept that or get out and be alone without the pressures of family making me feel worse.

slowlyfading

Was having a really rough day today. but i went to a salsa class tonight, and its cheered me up no end hope everyone's okay. xx

week

slowlyfading wrote: »

Was having a really rough day today. but i went to a salsa class tonight, and its cheered me up no end hope everyone's okay. xx

Glad you enjoyed yourself!! I went to Morrisons and bought indian ready meal stuff for tea and got petrol. I also went to Dorothy Perkins and bought 2 pairs of shoes for £5(BoGoF) in the sale. Cheaper than re-heeling old ones(thats my excuse anyway!!!!).
K

week

CCStar wrote: »

Oh yes that old chestnut - add guilt to a bad feeling, just what you need:rolleyes:

I am not on any meds as I feel it is circumstantial rather than chemical. I have a bad cold just now and it's affecting me badly, no meds will stop me getting colds. No amount of meds will stop someone conditionally caring for you. I have to be perfect or I get a row in our family.
I have spent 26 years correcting my wrongs yet no-one else has done anything about their faults. I also have him making out I am the bad guy all the time and I am the the ogre, whilst he is making out how loving and caring he is. Even our son thinks I am an ogre but he doesn't know what pressure I have to be the perfect mother, child and wife, and employee when I do have the energy to work.

I have to accept that or get out and be alone without the pressures of family making me feel worse.

Hi
how are you feeling now?
I know you said it was circumstances that made you feel bad but I think the way you describe your feelings reminds me of how I used to be, before I was diagnosed BP. I though everything was my fault and my husband LET ME feel that way. I know I was "not right" at the time but think that even if I was diagnosed earlier he(husband) would not have understood or been much help or support.
Family are much the same. I remember shortly after a spell in hospital being taken to my parents by my husband and being given a "talking to" to sort me out. It was like they were ganging up on me and when I was feeling low and vulnerable they all criticised me and said "drink" was at the root of my problems. The truth is that alcohol is used by BP sufferers to self medicate and I did it for years. I still miss it(2.5 years without a drop) and its use to calm me down, hwlp me hide from problems etc.
I am not saying you have a mental illness but dont exclude the possibility you might be suffering from such.

I an going to bed shortly as I am tired and working tomorrow.
K.

shazrobo

feeling really ashamed of myself right now, feel so low, that i started cutting my arm in the bathroom with a razor blade, not sh for quite a while, and when i did they were more like bad scratches, tonight i went deeper, just felt out of control doing it.

Sazbo

shazrobo wrote: »

feeling really ashamed of myself right now, feel so low, that i started cutting my arm in the bathroom with a razor blade, not sh for quite a while, and when i did they were more like bad scratches, tonight i went deeper, just felt out of control doing it.

Shaz hun, so sorry to hear you're feeling low. Do you think something specific triggered it? How are you feeling today? Please take care and big hugs sweetheart, Sazzyxxx

Sazbo

Good morning my lovlies :wave: Hope this finds you all well. Where's Tiffy - she'd never believe I was here so early, would she? lol Anyway, I just wanted to say:

:bdaycake:Happy Birthday :bdaycake:
Gilly Badger!!

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Have a great day hun!

You still have your youthful looks...





... and we think you're the best badger ever...


so can I have some cake?!:D


Much love,
Sazzy xxxxx

EthelBloggs

Happy
Birthday
Gorgeous Gilly!!!!!!

Lots of love
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

shazrobo

Sazbo wrote: »

Shaz hun, so sorry to hear you're feeling low. Do you think something specific triggered it? How are you feeling today? Please take care and big hugs sweetheart, Sazzyxxx

hi sazzy, think its just everything getting to me right now, including my ex, he has wrote long loving letters, telling me how much he still loves me etc, says he'll try and understand the derression and support me more. anyway to cut long story short, i contacted him, and we talked and he seemed really nice, and i said i would give us another chance. god i'm so stupid, he hasnt changed at all, still blames me for making him unhappy cos of my depression, tells me i'm not normal. apparently its normal when couples get back together that they sleep together, he said just sleep as in cuddles and sleep no s*x til we both ready, trouble is i dont even want to share my bed right now. feel so messed up. sorry for rant hope you ok hun,
big hugs
shaz x