Depression Support Thread

Diamond78

celestineperu wrote: »

Hello, i have just found this board and think that it is a wonderful idea to have this kind of support.
I have been on many different a/d's over the years, currently on Mirtazapine which i began about two months ago, finding life very hard at the moment, have gone into a deep depression after a relationship break up 6 months ago. Not so much due to the break up but the fact that i was pregnant at the time but lost the baby a couple of months after. Ex was and is unaware of all this, his departure was sudden after a family holiday, i must admit throughout this holiday i was an 'emotional wreck' but that would have been due to hormones and not any depression. I tried to mail him several times to strike up a conversation and let him know but he would not answer me and i also found out that his new g/f was claiming she was pregnant, which turned out to be a false alarm. I thought it was best to keep quiet and i didn't want him back 'for the sake of the baby'. I think i am going through a grieving process, which would make sense, for both of them.

Im sorry to go on about my stuff, i will pull through, i always do. I just have only been able to tell one person about what happened and i suppose like others this is a form of therapy in itself!

Has anyone else taken Mirtazapine out there? How have you found it?

Hello There,
Firstly Id like to say welcome to this board. You have come to the right place and please dont apologise as you have nothing to be sorry for.

Im so so sorry to hear about your loss aswell as the breakup of your relathionship. It is a very hard time for you at the moment but please be assured that you can come here and open up without being judged. I havent been on this thread for long and was worried at first about coming on and after my first couple of posts felt stupid posting my problems.But EVERYONE (to many names to write and if i 4get one out il feel bad so saying EVERY1) made me feel welcome, accepted me and allowed me to be myself and open up.They are all stars as I think I would of actually self harmed again had it not been for this post and the amazing ppl that post on here.I have had more from them by them just listening to me and cheering me up, than anyon else.

I am also taking the AD you are,its also called Zispin, nt sure if your is the same as mine as mine melts on my tongue.I also take Parexotine(seroxat) which i am weaning myself off.It will take time for you and you have to give the AD time too. Just be aware that it makes you sleepy so take it at night time.

Do you feel like you could do with councelling or are you having any???I feel it may benefit you if you feel you are ready as it helps some ppl.

Make sure you come and post on here hun, we are all here for each other and as you get to read ppl posts you feel you get to know them which then is like a little bond, like family as we all understand each other in one way or another,if theres anything i can do or y9ou want a private chat please pm and dont be afriad to post

sending u lots of hugs and love
xXx

As time goes by you will get to read and know

celestineperu

Thankyou so much, i have been giving myself a hard time since i posted earlier, i am just a bundle of guilt at the moment. I do not want anybody to think i was being irresponsible, i am already a Mum to 3 wonderful children and this was my first relationship in many years. I had all STD checks done before relationship and had gone onto the pill for the first time in many years too, i fell within the first few weeks of being on it. I know now that he must have been seeing someone during our time together and feel a fool now and maybe i should have told him, feel guilty for that too!

Yes it is the same medication as you are taking and i do take it at night time, i cant feel that it is working for me, i too had to wean myself off another a/d. This episode has brought about a flare up of ME too which is stopping me from being able to get out and do things for myself physically which can help the depression. I will keep checking on here, but i do worry and feel paranoid that he or someone else may know who i am, i know it's irrational and i will try to overcome it.

Thankyou again

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Diamond78

celestineperu wrote: »

Thankyou so much, i have been giving myself a hard time since i posted earlier, i am just a bundle of guilt at the moment. I do not want anybody to think i was being irresponsible, i am already a Mum to 3 wonderful children and this was my first relationship in many years. I had all STD checks done before relationship and had gone onto the pill for the first time in many years too, i fell within the first few weeks of being on it. I know now that he must have been seeing someone during our time together and feel a fool now and maybe i should have told him, feel guilty for that too!

Yes it is the same medication as you are taking and i do take it at night time, i cant feel that it is working for me, i too had to wean myself off another a/d. This episode has brought about a flare up of ME too which is stopping me from being able to get out and do things for myself physically which can help the depression. I will keep checking on here, but i do worry and feel paranoid that he or someone else may know who i am, i know it's irrational and i will try to overcome it.

Thankyou again

Dont worry, know one knows who we are, its natural to worry though as I am the same as im sure others to.Thats part of the depression.

I hope you post when you feel low and feel you can open up, never ever blame yourself and dont be guilty about anything. Your a fanstatic mum as it is and doing a wonderful job bringing him/her up. Be proud of ourself. I feel you still have slight feelings for your ex.

Dont know if it helps but I was seeing someone 4 years after being single,it was hard but i feel for him instantly and we was so good together, i introduced him to my son and we was like a little family, we wasnt togther long just over 4 months but he was the 1st man i was with after my violent ex. it took me over 4 years to be with a man but he was thw wrong person as his job was just a no go(cant really say)anyway just after xmas, a week b4 by birthday(not this one gone but the year b4) i found out i was pregnant and I actually told him and i didnt hear from him again.I was friends with his friends and also his mum but had a bleed and was confirmed i had early miscarriage.Ive had blocked all that episode out of my life as I am unable to deal with it,it took me a long time to get over him as it was but every now and then it pops in my mind that had the pregnancy continued i would of had a baby that would of been a few months old now.The thing is it was very early stages but still thats not the point. Its been a year since but im stronger and have moved on.

I havent met anyone else sonce or been with anyone but eventually I will and i have started chatting to guys even flirting with them but i feel im not ready just yet.

Im off now guys, go to go and do some food shop

chat soon
huggggggggggsssssssss xxx

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Horasio

I feel exhausted this week. I feel I have crashed after feeling so good last week.

I am getting over a strange cold, had a busy week celebrating my son's birthday, househunting as we are being evicted in 7 weeks, not getting any and I am going away this weekend. We can't find anything suitable even tho our budget is pretty good.

Since Saturday night I haven't been able to function properly. I can't be bothered to eat properly and I have to pack for the weekend, plan where we are going to visit and book a hotel for Sunday night.

I ended up in a huge row last night because my OH upset me on top of having this dead feeling. I feel under such pressure to feel in the right mood all the time, I was in the perfect mood last week and felt I could make plans. This week, it all falls down because I crash. He can't help me and ends up shouting at me, which makes me cry and want to leave him.

I am going to have to leave here in 7 weeks, and can't find a decent place to live up here for us. Even if we do, it will be a matter of time before he ruins it. If I feel confident to be close, he tends to change on me without warning which upsets me. If I feel low, he shouts at me. I have to be in the perfect mood else it all crashes or he spoils it.

My mother is exactly the same.

I feel deflated by them when I feel good and when I feel low, I am got at. I turn to things to make me feel good which has made me put on weight. My family are toxic and my so called friends leave me.

Does anyone else feel this and what do they do to get out of this trough?

week

clipboard2 wrote: »

Hi Everyone:wave:

I love this.......
http://www.bigwhitewall.com/

Bigwhitewall, the online emotional health specialist has just announced the launch of its Emotion in Art Academy - a dedicated space for people to express themselves and post reviews of others work.

It will soon be release to the international media.....

Rose - perhaps you'd like to contribute a brick or two?
Anybody else?.....Fame awaits....
CB2X

I did a brick! its fun!!!
K

week

CCStar wrote: »

I feel exhausted this week. I feel I have crashed after feeling so good last week.

I am getting over a strange cold, had a busy week celebrating my son's birthday, househunting as we are being evicted in 7 weeks, not getting any and I am going away this weekend. We can't find anything suitable even tho our budget is pretty good.

Since Saturday night I haven't been able to function properly. I can't be bothered to eat properly and I have to pack for the weekend, plan where we are going to visit and book a hotel for Sunday night.

I ended up in a huge row last night because my OH upset me on top of having this dead feeling. I feel under such pressure to feel in the right mood all the time, I was in the perfect mood last week and felt I could make plans. This week, it all falls down because I crash. He can't help me and ends up shouting at me, which makes me cry and want to leave him.

I am going to have to leave here in 7 weeks, and can't find a decent place to live up here for us. Even if we do, it will be a matter of time before he ruins it. If I feel confident to be close, he tends to change on me without warning which upsets me. If I feel low, he shouts at me. I have to be in the perfect mood else it all crashes or he spoils it.

My mother is exactly the same.

I feel deflated by them when I feel good and when I feel low, I am got at. I turn to things to make me feel good which has made me put on weight. My family are toxic and my so called friends leave me.

Does anyone else feel this and what do they do to get out of this trough?

I am sorry you feel so bad. Are you on any meds or seeing a doc at the moment?
I am no good at relationships and my Bi Polar caused hugh problems with partners and close family over the years so I can sympathise. I get very high, high and low from day to day and it is hard for me and many people dont understand. My family just label me as borderline mad now and I dont have a partner and have not had for 13 years. I am not saying you shouldnt have a partner, I am just saying I am better on my own I have a daughter of 18 and she is very good but even she doesnt understand my moods all the time and I annoy and irritate her with the way I am.
People think you can just shake yourself and get on with things but you cant. A long time ago my (ex) MILaw told me that there were others worse off then me in the world, like those that were handicapped etc. It tipped me over the edge to OD. Presumably I was meant to "pull myself together".
K

week

week wrote: »

I did a brick! its fun!!!
K

Doing a second one!!!!!!!!
K.