Depression Support Thread

rose07

meyore wrote: »

I thought you were older too... Just mature I guess, don't tell OH though, he says I act like a big kid!

I agree totally with what you're going to say to the psychiatrist-it is ok to be shy, it is ok to dress how you want to because you're an individual and you don't have to impress anyone else unless you want to. Your doctor sounds pretty cool to me!

With the sit up things you lie on your back, knees bent, feet flat on the floor and put your fingers behind your ears. You then lift your head using your stomach muscles, not your hands or neck. If you move your neck you'll just strain it. Breathe out as you raise up and in as you go down. Also if you keep your elbows out of your line on vision it works better. I don't know why. Does this make sense?

The balls make it all much easier and they're very cheap at Tesco at the moment.

This is the plank-



This is another variation, the side plank, and it also hurts like hell!



Is this turning into the exercise thread!?

Xx

hello
how r u tonight?

I get told im like a big kid too, im just a hyper ..erm energetic person sometimes :rotfl:

Arghhh seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow morning, not looking forward to it, and its well early, why oh why do they have to get me up soo early, i dont even have to be up that early for work :rotfl:

ohh tae bo report...

well i went and omg, i dont know how you do it. Squats, pressups, star jumps, punching, kicking, jogging, lunges :rotfl:. I ddid it tho, looked like a monkey all over the place, legs all over the place hands in the air, im bound to be doing it wrong. There were such skinny girls there, i dont think they should be allowed to exercise they need to put weight on :rotfl:

I will try the plank tomorrow, i have a feeling im going to be suffering tomorrow after the tae bo this evening. Ahh well its spinning on thursday, know anything bout that?

hmmm an exercise thread now theres an idea

hope your ok
take care
from rosie
xxxxx

cat9586

slowlyfading wrote: »

I seem to be rubbish at them as well since I've done terribly today. I'm going to concentrate on tomorrow being better though how are you this evening? x

I good thanks for asking hun. Just catching up with BB hijack, was the previous episode every time I sit down for dinner Other than that Im feeling good, a lot happier than yesterday.
Good luck with your dieting tomorrow, I used to suck on lollipops to stop me snacking
Take Care
Catherine x

cat9586

slowlyfading wrote: »

I'm actually feeling really sad. I am just so huge - I weighed in at 9stone 13lbs this morning, and just look like a fat blob. I bet I've gained from all the stuff I've eaten today. Its just a never-ending cycle. x

Don't feel down, 9st 13lb is not bad, Im 11+ and only 5' 1". I have moments when I feel really 'bleurgh' about myself, but at the end of the day I have too much other stuff going on in my head to start worrying what I eat. Don't overpush yourself, to lose weight, take your time.

cat9586

razorbladekisses wrote: »

I'm going to try and get an early night in preparation for tomorrow. I have a Doctor's appointment first thing and then work :eek: Not sure what time the area manager is coming though. I contemplated calling in sick. I actually feel ill but I know it's just down to worrying/stressing about tomorrow.

Anyway, I'm going to try and get a fairly early night. GOODNIGHT all xxx

Hello,
Try not to worry too much. I made myself ill the last few days with worry and it wasn't that bad in the end. I really hope the area manager has more compassion for you and respects your privacy. I would even tell the area manager about how your manager has made you feel. She may not be aware she is doing it and needs to be stopped.
Good luck with tomorrow and sleep well.
Catherine xx

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Hi Everyone:hello:

Dear Auntie Tiff

Now what's this....quote "I have honestly never felt so alone" (19/1/08)....you say...Hmmm...Right....
I note Warwickshire is just up the M1 en route to Nottingham where my brother lives. Think I might just drop in on you one day and give you a great big HUG....!!!! <<<<Tiff>>>> oh yes....!:D

Welcome back Blinky!

Here are 3 things you didn't want to know:-:D

(1) On Friday you become middle-aged (clipboard researchers count 18-34 as young):D
(2) You only find out what someone is really like after you marry them :eek:
Living together is absolutely not the same...

(3) It has not gone unnoticed that you have neglected your duties as self-appointed 'Hug Provider for Depression Thread'....going AWOL is not allowed Come back soon!!!

Seriously, good luck and don't forget my offer to you and R is always open....


Hi razorbladekisses!

Glad you like my posts. Thank you!
You recently posted...
"In day to day ...I don't have any friends. No-one who I can go out shopping or for coffee .."
Well I work regularly in Guildford, and my offer to you (from last summer!) still stands as well....happy to meet for coffee 'n' chat anytime...:) You could even do one of my surveys...:D and get money for it


Dear Everyone...

It's not how far you fall
It's how high you bounce!

CB2X

juno

I ache all over today, and I don't know why! Moving hurts, and I can't find a comfortable bit to lie on.

I don't have much to say atm. Well, I probably do but I've forgotten it all as my memory is terrible. I keep forgetting my tablets, and then that just makes it worse.

cat9586

juno wrote: »

I ache all over today, and I don't know why! Moving hurts, and I can't find a comfortable bit to lie on.

I don't have much to say atm. Well, I probably do but I've forgotten it all as my memory is terrible. I keep forgetting my tablets, and then that just makes it worse.

Hi Juno,
Could it be your medication or maybe a bug that you are coming down with? I used to forget my tablets too, but I have an alarm that goes off at 9pm everyday on my phone so now Im good
I recommend a hot soak in the bath with a hot drink Hope you feel better soon.

Take Care and sleep well
Catherine

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
How is everyone? Hoping you're all still fighting, guys - you're real survivors!
to the clan, to our new friends, weegie and emma! Thank you for posting and sharing with us. The guys here are dedicated to helping and together they are a force to be reckoned with. You'll find a warm welcome, without judgement and hopefully some ideas which will direct you to available resources.

As gem said, there are more peeps joining here all the time and yes, it is sad - but it would be even sadder for anyone to isolate themselves with their issues. It's amazing how much better you can feel just by taking that first step and posting. For every new person that posts, there are probably 3 others reading and lurking. And that's fine too, because you must do things as and when you're ready to. But to our anonymous readers, please don't feel shy about posting - no-one's ever been refused entry here and they always receive a warm welcome.

I'm pleased to report that cpn did come yesterday and I was a good Tiff, telling him everything that had been going on. After all, how can they help us, if we're not 100% honest with them? And obviously, they haven't thrown away the key - but only because they couldn't get me in the cage, heh-heh!
I'd also seen the gp to check up on the chest infection and he was happier...although I somehow ended up with a prescription for a short course of hormones!!! Tiffy on hormones - can you imagine it?
Ya can keep your smarties! Heaven help you all now!:j

I hope you all have the best day that you can guys - I'll be thinking of you. If today feels unbearable, there's always a tomorrow which can hold new possibilities. Nothing is set in stone. Take care guys.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

dawnylou

razorbladekisses wrote: »

dawnylou How was your counselling session today?

Please don't feel bad about ranting on this thread, it's what it's here for. Secondly, please don't feel useless. You are a valid member of this thread who has shown support to many of us at some point

Try not to worry yourself about the mental health team. It sounds scarier than it really is. Perhaps it means they will allocate you a CPN/social worker. I assume you don't have one?

Awww having your fiance complement you must have done wonders for your self-esteem I'm glad you enjoyed yourself though, you deserve it

Like many things, CBT isn't for everyone but IMO it's certainly worth a try. You've got nothing to lose.

Yeah, you're right SH is basically a coping mechanism albeit not one that's deemed good but I find it really helps me. Yep, it's also about control. I guess in a way SH, drinking, drugs e.t.c is all masking our true feelings and prevents us from having to face things head on.

First of all I just want to let you know that I am thinking of you today and I hope all goes well. x

I went to my counsellor last night. It was so weird.
I always cry and clam up, but yesterday I just wouldn't stop talking and time was up before I even noticed!!! I didn't talk about anything that would help me as such - just about things in general such as how difficult it seems to be for others to understand I am not well because I don't look as if I am, about shame and embarrassment for being like this, about being alone as I don't want to burden others, about how I worry people will fear me in some way if they hear I am 'mentally ill' because of the stigma attached. I just sort of ranted on and on and on....
I bet he was thinking how much more he liked me when I just sat there and cried!!!
:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

I think part of the reason I feel bad is because - like in real life - I worry I burden others and maybe even make things worse for them in some way too by doing so.

I don't have a CPN or social worker - what exactly does it involve having one? I always though social workers were just people who visited homes of naughty children!!!

I did feel quite good about having my Fiance compliment me - he always does, but I normally refuse to take compliments and tend to throw it back in his face by saying things like' you have to say that you're my boyfriend' and other such stupid things. I don't mean to.
In the past I even told him I didn't love him anymore and thought I loved someone else (this is going years back, before we even lived together) during this time I had not been with anyone, but I think I was trying to push him away as I felt I didn't deserve him.
I still feel I don't deserve him. I feel he could do so much better. If only he could get free of me I am certain that he would find someone so much prettier, sexier, confident and fun-loving than me. Someone who would really make him happy. Someone who wouldn't spend hours crying or sulking for no apparant reason.
Someone who didn't spend time laid in a bath contemplating making just that one swift movement with the razor....imagining the relief that would be felt as the blood made pretty swirling movements across the water all the time knowing that soon it would all be over. Someone who wasn't as selfish. Someone who wouldn't have sudden moodswings over nothing. Someone who could control their emotions and actually make good company!! :rotfl:
But I don't really want to let him go - I need him if I'm honest. He is my rock and without him goodness knows where I would be today...if anywhere on this Earth.
And although I may not act like it sometimes I do love him. More than life itself. I just hope that no matter what happens he knows that.

I have my review at the doctors on monday so will see what she says. CBT itself has never been mentioned, but I will try anything if there is even a tiny possibilty that it can help me.

I guess with SH, drugs, drinking - they are all an escape route effectively. A way of gaining control over our lives, even if just momentarily, when everything just feels way out of control.
And once a step is taken down that path it can be so extremely hard to backtrack.

Anyway I do hope that today turns out to be ok for you!

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

I have just heard the sad news of Heath Ledger,what a fine actor he was and to die so young (28 years old) . Anyway I have had a great evening watching tv,I watched Holby City,took Enchanted game back to Asda today as I found the game so hard to play and wasnt getting anywhere and got a exchange for the more Brain training game so I am happy

Came online to find I had won one of 10 copies of Concert for Diana on DVD so I am very delighted with the prize,that lucky magic dust I gave to Dawny earlier must have rubbed on me somehow as I didnt dust myself down properly

Good Luck for tomorrow RBK I will be thinking of you

Anyway I will chat tomorrow

Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

It is so sad isn't it?!? I had no idea how young he was though!! My goodness.
Do you think it was an accident?

Were Asda ok about the exchange or did you have to fight a little?
Do you know how Boots are with regards to returning skincare products but without a receipt by any chance??
I got a couple of Olay Regenerist for my Nana for her birthday but decided against it preferring to get a lovely big bouquet instead as it is her 70th and thought flowers may be better suited....but I can't find the receipt and am scared to take them back in case they refuse to help me!!


Congratulations on winning....again!!:T
Are you sure you blew the magic dust in the right direction? Or did you just sort of spill it all over your lap??? :rotfl:
So far...nothing...zilch...nada...nowt...
However got until lunch time for the post to come so you never know.


Hope everyone has a good day today.

I am meant to be walking up to his Mam's but don't feel like it, dunno if I will even get motivation together to get dressed! Am just sooooooo tired!!

But just one more day to get through and then Fiance has holidays!!! :j:j:j

dawnylou

Tiff wrote: »

Hi guys!:hello:
How is everyone? Hoping you're all still fighting, guys - you're real survivors!
to the clan, to our new friends, weegie and emma! Thank you for posting and sharing with us. The guys here are dedicated to helping and together they are a force to be reckoned with. You'll find a warm welcome, without judgement and hopefully some ideas which will direct you to available resources.

As gem said, there are more peeps joining here all the time and yes, it is sad - but it would be even sadder for anyone to isolate themselves with their issues. It's amazing how much better you can feel just by taking that first step and posting. For every new person that posts, there are probably 3 others reading and lurking. And that's fine too, because you must do things as and when you're ready to. But to our anonymous readers, please don't feel shy about posting - no-one's ever been refused entry here and they always receive a warm welcome.

I'm pleased to report that cpn did come yesterday and I was a good Tiff, telling him everything that had been going on. After all, how can they help us, if we're not 100% honest with them? And obviously, they haven't thrown away the key - but only because they couldn't get me in the cage, heh-heh!
I'd also seen the gp to check up on the chest infection and he was happier...although I somehow ended up with a prescription for a short course of hormones!!! Tiffy on hormones - can you imagine it?
Ya can keep your smarties! Heaven help you all now!:j

:rotfl:

I hope you all have the best day that you can guys - I'll be thinking of you. If today feels unbearable, there's always a tomorrow which can hold new possibilities. Nothing is set in stone. Take care guys.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Hey Tiff - we just don't seem to see as much of you these days - I do hope that you are keeping well. Afterall if any of us are survivors - it is most certainly you!!

But to our anonymous readers, please don't feel shy about posting - no-one's ever been refused entry here and they always receive a warm welcome.

Yes please please don't feel you must suffer alone. I mean they even let ME in!!! :rotfl:
Seriously though, if you are reading this, and you are a regular MSEr, don't ever feel you will be judged here - you could even take on another name if you prefer.

I tried to remain anonymous by making sure I didn't use a photo as an avatar etc, but as I'm rather dumb it never did dawn (no pun intended!!) on me that given the fact I use the same username no matter where I go.... well it is simply so easy for anyone I know to discover me on here and put 2 and 2 together :rolleyes:
BUT why should I care? Why should I feel shamed and embarrassed - because afterall this is an illness, just like any other illness. Why should I hide it away like a dirty little secret? Afterall that is probably what got me here in the first place - fighting it so much, trying to hide it and pretend I am normal..

Although having said that I am still careful of what I post

Just in case....:o

Sorry I have went off on some sort of tangent here!! Anyway please do post, even if just for a rant, even for a hug, for anything.

Anyway...back to you Tiff!!
I am glad that you felt able to be honest with your CPN.
I know exactly what you are saying, but I find it hard to be 100% honest with myself never mind others!! :rotfl:
Not that I am a fibber, just I would rather keep certain facts to myself. But are they even facts? Maybe not, maybe just some sort of awful misinterpretation brought about by my illness. A muddle of reality and fractions of things seen and read that have affected me in some way, stuck in my mind and confused the actual reality of things?

Oh there I go again! :rotfl:

I just don't seem to be able to think straight! I'm sure a good nights sleep would sort it, but my doctor has advised meagainst taking any sort of sleeping pills - even herbal remedies... :rolleyes:

Tiff - for you -