Depression Support Thread

slowlyfading

cat9586 wrote: »

Hello,
Diets are murder! My dad hated when I was on a diet because I used to get angry and agressive because I wanted a Twix bar lol. Was not allowed to diet at home in the end. I once had an eating disorder and because Im quite obsessive Im scared to diet again just incase I get obsessive over losing weight and end up like I did again.
I'm good today as meeting went well. How are you feeling? x

I'm actually feeling really sad. I am just so huge - I weighed in at 9stone 13lbs this morning, and just look like a fat blob. I bet I've gained from all the stuff I've eaten today. Its just a never-ending cycle. x

Horace

What happened? I went to watch Neighbours and did so and the next I knew it was 7pm:eek: I don't remember nodding off.

SF - perhaps we could give each other some support because I need to go on a diet too. I have ballooned since August plus I have started having 2 sugars in tea and coffee where I used to have just one sugar - I shall have to start weaning myself off it again. I am usually a 12 but these days seem to be a 14 but I would like to be a size 10 but think that I am now probably too old to get that low again. I do exercise, I take the bus to work (I have to because it is too far to walk) but when I get off the bus I do have a 15 minute walk to work and its uphill, I could be lazy and hop on another bus but think that the walk will do me good. My colleagues keep asking me to take my car but why should I pay the silly parking fees when I can use the bus. I am starting to feel like a fat blob.

I spoke to my landlord's agent this morning as I want some repairs doing in my flat so I asked him about the flat next door (in the block next door) which backs onto mine. The folks have recently moved in and to be honest I don't think they work because they start making a heck of a racket at 11pm which goes on until about 2am:mad: They shout, scream and swear plus they play music really loud - the other night I was so angry I banged on the wall and I know they heard because they passed comment and cranked up the volume. Seems that my landlord had doubts about them and told the agent to watch them because they had got the flat via an Estate Agent who didn't take references. We all have a clause in our tenancy agreements where we mustn't disturb our neighbours by being noisy. Now the agent is going to speak to them and report back to the landlord, if things dont improve then they will be evicted:j I think they are the reason why I am suffering from sleeping sickness - they keep me awake all night.

poppycracker

slowlyfading wrote: »

I'm actually feeling really sad. I am just so huge - I weighed in at 9stone 13lbs this morning, and just look like a fat blob. I bet I've gained from all the stuff I've eaten today. Its just a never-ending cycle. x

SF, I wish I weighed that! Listen chick, your weight will always go up and down, it's natural. If you feel like you've overeaten today, just do a bit more exercise tomorrow, walk up the stairs a couple of times or walk to work....something like that. Its not a never ending cycle and you should not feel horrible about your weight k? ((((((hugs)))))) to you

(((((((hugs))))))))) to everyone else whos having a bad day

PC

slowlyfading

Horace, we should - i need support during these things! I'm just trying to cut out all the rubbish i eat and replace it with vegetables etc.

slowlyfading

poppycracker wrote: »

SF, I wish I weighed that! Listen chick, your weight will always go up and down, it's natural. If you feel like you've overeaten today, just do a bit more exercise tomorrow, walk up the stairs a couple of times or walk to work....something like that. ((((((hugs)))))) to you

Thanks for the hugs I've been walking around a lot today, but I just feel oh well, tomorrow's a new day, right? how are you this evening? x

poppycracker

slowlyfading wrote: »

Thanks for the hugs I've been walking around a lot today, but I just feel oh well, tomorrow's a new day, right? how are you this evening? x

I'm feeling good atm........... I'm quite curvy k? actually very curvy.......Sometimes I feel bad about it, but not today, today I'm showing my internet friend pics of me..........bits of me you don't usually see iyswim........and feeling great, because he's really making me feel good about the way I look. Everyone's different, and theres a heck of a lot of guys out there who LOVE curvy lasses. Lasses are supposed to have curves!!!!!!!!!!!!

So to everyone (guys too), whos feeling fat today......Celebrate your curves! There's someone out there who's admiring them you know, even if you dont think there is.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Stephb1986 Glad to hear you're feeling better. Hopefully you've managed to eat a little more today.

It was my manager who told the other colleagues about my self-harming.

How long have you your OH been together? Hmmm I'm not sure what you could buy him, it's been ages since I had to buy a valentines present lol What about both of you going away for the weekend and staying in a posh hotel or something.

cat9586 Yay! So pleased to hear that the appointment with the psychiatrist went well You're probably so relieved that the first appointment is over with.

meyore Did you make the appointment with your GP?

Hopefully you'll be able to grab a few hours with your OH at the weekend. Just knowing he's there waiting for you is a comfort in itself I would imagine.

What did the guy at work have to say?

Horace I'm glad to hear that the boss has cleared the air Lucky you getting paid more money :T great news. You must be feeling happier about the job now.

I'm sure you looked smart and professional. It seems like your boss is pleased with you anyway and if she wasn't I'm sure she would have let you know. Sorry to hear about the problem you had with your skirt. Maybe you'll be able to treat yourself to a new suit

dawnylou How was your counselling session today?

Please don't feel bad about ranting on this thread, it's what it's here for. Secondly, please don't feel useless. You are a valid member of this thread who has shown support to many of us at some point

Try not to worry yourself about the mental health team. It sounds scarier than it really is. Perhaps it means they will allocate you a CPN/social worker. I assume you don't have one?

Awww having your fiance complement you must have done wonders for your self-esteem I'm glad you enjoyed yourself though, you deserve it

Like many things, CBT isn't for everyone but IMO it's certainly worth a try. You've got nothing to lose.

Yeah, you're right SH is basically a coping mechanism albeit not one that's deemed good but I find it really helps me. Yep, it's also about control. I guess in a way SH, drinking, drugs e.t.c is all masking our true feelings and prevents us from having to face things head on.

weegie.geek :hello: Hope you're OK.

feelinggood Good luck with step 4. It sounds like it's going to be tough but you seem really determined and we're here to support you all the way (((HUGS)))

If I were you hun I'd go and get that burn checked out. If it's infected you might need antibiotics or something.

I'm extremely shy but I would really like to meet up. I probably can't do next week though because of work. Yes, that is near to where I live

slowlyfading It's great that you haven't cut in 5 days :T Have you looked at alternative coping methods?

Will you actually be happier as a size 10 or do you just think you will be? I've been on a diet since last june/july and I have lost quite a bit of weight. I'm now about a size 10 but am I any happier...probably not.

(((HUGS)))

Diamond78 Sorry to hear you're struggling atm. Your brother doesn't seem to treat you with any respect at all. I don't understand why he would want to say such horrible things to hurt you. To me it sounds like you've taken positive steps to improve your current situation. Starting driving lessons is good because it will eventually give you a lot more independance and freedom. Signing up for a course is also good because it shows that you want to learn and develop yourself. What course did you sign up to do? I know it's difficult but please don't let your brother bring you down. I think I would have a word with him and explain that his negative, hurtful comments aren't helpful to you and that he should stop.

I'm sure when you're son gets older he will be proud to have you as his Mum. To come through what you've been through and to have raised a child all by yourself with no help from family/friends is IMO amazing and definitely something worth feeling proud of.

Make sure you post the application form. You've got nothing to lose.

(((HUGS)))

scottyem :hello: Welcome to the thread. I hope you find it helpful.

Have you tried printing off some information about depression and giving it to your bf and Mum. Maybe it will help them to understand and see that it isn't as easy as just pulling yourself together.

slowlyfading

razorbladekisses wrote: »

slowlyfading It's great that you haven't cut in 5 days :T Have you looked at alternative coping methods?

I have tried alternative methods, but to be honest, none of them really worked. I'm just going on a day at a time. Hows it going for you?

Will you actually be happier as a size 10 or do you just think you will be? I've been on a diet since last june/july and I have lost quite a bit of weight. I'm now about a size 10 but am I any happier...probably not.

(((HUGS)))

I dont know, but I'm huge and I can't look any worse. -sighs- its horrible. and well done on being a size 10! how are you feeling this evening?
sf xx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

I'm going to try and get an early night in preparation for tomorrow. I have a Doctor's appointment first thing and then work :eek: Not sure what time the area manager is coming though. I contemplated calling in sick. I actually feel ill but I know it's just down to worrying/stressing about tomorrow.

Anyway, I'm going to try and get a fairly early night. GOODNIGHT all xxx

slowlyfading

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Anyway, I'm going to try and get a fairly early night. GOODNIGHT all xxx

Good night, sleep well x