Depression Support Thread

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Just delivered the parcel so alls done and dusted,off now to have a bath and wash my hair,be on later as I am playing Gala Bingo for free tonight


love and light,

Katie xxx

gillette147

Sssssssh!
I'm at work.
I am technically allowed by my boss to leave at 4:45pm (he just did) but our customer thinks we work til 5:30pm. So I have started staying til then-but since I don't have to I reckon a little surfing is allowed morally.

I also hope it stops raining so I can walk to the station in the dry. Alot going on at work and it's stressful as i am still out of my depth but at least it feels like I am contributing. My boss is using me as a shield-he will have only spent 7hrs here for the week-so he's happy.
I can get him on the phone and I can bounce anything I'm unclear about up to him. And to be fair he takes what I throw to him.

I spose since this is the depression thread I ought to decide how I feel?
Hmmmm.......................don't know really.
It's miserable but that's the weather/time of year. I deffo get SADD IMO.
But apart from my life feeling like an endless round of work and travelling with a weekend to recover I guess I am OK. I wish I could make myself do some housework or DIY but I just want to flop on the weekend.

Diet has gone for a burton for a whole week now. All bets are off. Chips/pizza/puds the lot have been consumed in record breaking amounts. I celerbrated my job offer wednesday. Thursday work was hell and I comfort ate. And then it just continued from then to now. Coz I'm stopping late I can't face cooking the curly kale when I can have a micro meal or get chips on the way home.

I so want to sort out my weight as my social life would follow from it. But maybe I just need to try as well as I can and just make sure I can still get into my work clothes.

I diligently read up on you all btw.
SF and RBK:
I am, sad that you girls still feel the need to S-H. I wish you both could see what we see. Coz then you wouldn't want to harm someone as great as you.
xxx

Newbies:
Hiya.
I am sad you are on here-but glad to se you
xxx

The regulars:
I see you are all bumping along the bottom of life as usual. But that is a success of sorts. And less colds/flu seem to be around.
Take care and I wish you all my GLOVE (heehee)
xxx

slowlyfading

gillette147 wrote: »

SF and RBK:
I am, sad that you girls still feel the need to S-H. I wish you both could see what we see. Coz then you wouldn't want to harm someone as great as you.
xxx

Aw thank you, that's so sweet. i get so angry at myself sometimes because I see all the other 21-year-olds at uni having fun and laughing etc, and then here's me being a miserable sod. -sigh- I'm just trying to write another essay, which isn't going particularly well, but never mind. x

slowlyfading

Don't know where everyone is this evening, hope you're all alright. I'm having a rough night - have cut again and this essay is just making me feel so rubbish it has to be handed in tomorrow and i have 847/4000 words.... its not looking good.

feelinggood_2

SF, sorry that you are finding things hard. What Badger said earlier was so true. Wish you could see you how I see you.

One thing happened today that made me realise that I'm getting better. I put a photograph of me & OH up. Me. On the wall. Normally I can't stand to look at myself, but I found a photo that looks okay, and I've put it up. Change is slow, but it does happen.

I admire your honesty with SH. Things are 'good' for me at the moment, and I don't have the obsession to cut. I'm not stressed or low, but I still get thoughts coming in to my head. Hopefully they'll go eventually. I managed a couple of years cut free once, I'm looking forward to getting back to something like that, after my bad relapses last year.

I'm not sure if I mentioned this before, but do you SH more when drinking?

EthelBloggs

feelinggood wrote: »

Just wanted to clarify, has anyone heard from Tiff?

I tried to ring her but I must have saved her number wrong cos I could'nt get thru

Sugar_Coated_Owl

rose Wow! You must be exhausted working all those hours and going to the gym. Where do you find the energy... You must be really fit.

I agree that exercise can be really beneficial for people suffering from depression. After you've done a good work out you do tend to feel better for it.

How was your appointment with your GP?

meyore Sorry to hear that work is a bit rubbish right now (((HUGS))) I really think you should speak to your manager about the contract issue otherwise it's just going to frustrate you further. Is there a quiet moment during your day where you could take her to one side and have a chat? If you don't feel like you can talk to her face to face how about writing it down and handing it to her? One way or another I would let her know you aren't happy because otherwise they will think they can walk all over you.

Awww hun, it's understandable that you felt upset that they didn't remember your birthday. Have you been there quite a long time or are you fairly new? Tbh, if they are just work colleagues and you aren't close to them I would just brush it off and think to myself 'ok I was upset but I'm not going to let it ruin the rest of my day/week'. However, if you are close to them I would actually mention to them that you felt upset. If they are true friends then they would make it up to you

Were the others in your workplace aware of what happened to Charlie? It's OK to be upset. You're probably still in shock. (((HUGS)))

re: lottery win. It was bound to happen wasn't it. All those weeks she hasn't one and the one week where you don't actually buy a ticket she wins :mad: It was very kind of you to give her the money anyway. Can you actually afford to give away that kind of money though? I'm sure your Mum wouldn't want you to be left short or anything.

Those exercise balls are really good aren't they. I used to use them all the time at the gym. Great for sit-ups. I found it really did help to tone my stomach. You're right though, the day after is sooo painful.

You sound like you've had a pretty busy day today (Thurs.) Did you make it to your tae bo class or were you too exhausted?

CCStar Have you any idea what your OH wants for his future? Are you able to sit down together and have a long talk about where both of you are wanting to go in life?

Horace Awww I'd love to go shopping for a coffee with someone.

Do they know what causes low eye pressure? Is it painful? Does it affect your actual eyesight? I hope your eyes get better soon.

:rotfl: I bet your neighbour couldn't wait to get away from you :rotfl: haha she must have been embarrassed. Lets hope that's the last you hear from her. :eek: how inconsiderate of the guy! Surely he's aware of what he's done. Hope you manage to catch up with him soon.

Katie Thanks for explaining shop and scan it sounds quite good. You're lucky to be the only panelist doing it You must be doing well to have enough for a voucher already :T Do you know where can you spend the vouchers?

Thanks for the link katie. Much appreciated. I will have a look

Girl, Interrupted is one of my favourite films. Have you seen it before?

miss tbc Sorry to hear about the problems with your OH. Hopefully the marriage counselling will help your relationship. Have you looked into counselling just for yourself? It sounds like you have little self-confidence/low self-esteem, perhaps 1 on 1 counselling might help to address these issues and help you get some confidence back.

I don't think there's any issue with your weight. For a person who is 5ft 7 and a size 12, that seems perfectly normal to me.

(((HUGS))) Keep posting. We're always here to offer support.

ilovegreatdanes I've had a look on the GMTV website but can't seem to find anything. I might have a more detailed look over the weekend. Thank you for the info.
Sorry to hear about Charlie. :eek: aren't vet charges expensive. Will the heart murmur affect him a great deal or is he able to lead a normal life? It's good that he's lost some weight. I'm sure that will help him.

I can't believe she got such a high payout. You're right her career was practically over when cosmetic surgery went very very wrong. I wonder how they can justify 5 million pounds

I heard that they were going to start printing the cost of the medication on the boxes to encourage people to finish the course. I'm not so sure it will help very much. I would imagine that those people prescribed short courses of tablets, namely antibiotics finish the course anyway. It's those people that have many medicines on repeat who keep ticking items when they don't even need/want it and then they get so overstocked that it expires :mad: The amount of medication that gets returned where I work is truly shocking. Something definately needs to be done.

slowlyfading When we self-harm I know it releases various hormones that make us feel better. Perhaps you've become so used to the 'good' feeling that self-harming provides that you find it hard to break the cycle.

It isn't stupid or pathetic (((HUGS))) I'm similar in that I like seeing the blood run from the cuts. Most people find that slightly weird but oh well. It's just a shame we (me included) damage our bodies and are left with permanant scars.

I am OK. Struggling on...

BizzyBek Sorry to hear that your Mum is still in pain. When is she due to see the GP again?

You're always welcome here

feelinggood I hope your neck gets better real soon (((HUGS))) Are you still in a lot of pain?

I haven't heard from Tiff I think Ethel said she was going to call her the other day.

gillette :hello: You always seem to be working, no wonder you don't feel like cooking. I think you deserve to just rest at the weekends, don't you? The housework and DIY can wait, it's not like it's going anywhere is it. Too much work/stress will burn out the badger. Take time to RELAX.

How much weight are you looking to lose? Have you seen the weight loss thread in the arms? Don't know whether you have or would want to join?

Thanks for your kind words Gillette.


My day was pretty crap. I was glad to get home from work. As soon as I got in this morning my manager asked me how my appointment went with the GP (she asked in front of other staff as she always seems to). I said OK, he's just a bit concerned and has referred me back to the psychiatrist and team and asked me to go back next week to which I said I wasn't sure I'd go. She's like why not? Make an appointment now. Go on. Do it. *sigh* She said if you don't make one, I'll do it for you :mad: She then said I'm not doing it for your benefit, I'm doing it for mine hmmm nice thanks. I was really feeling quite low today while at work and I am never one to get upset, cry or anything but I made a few negative comments and she said you've got to be positive. I said what's there to be positive about (not expecting an actual answer). She then said to me if you've got nothing positive to say then just don't say anything. I replied fair enough and remained silent. I was a little hurt by her comments today tbh I don't think there was any need.

Ok, I'd better get some sleep. GOODNIGHT xxx

juno

And he made me reverse his car out of the drive. I've had a really bad day. My ex came over. And I can't explain why it makes me feel so bad because it doesn't make sense, but it does.

And he wanted to sleep with me and now he's sent me a txt saying he still loves me and wants to get back together

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Morning! I am up early today because I am off out after 9am for a bus to get me to my pottery class from 10am-12pm its all back to normal now

RBK: I can get vouchers of £10 for a range of shops,Next,Debenhams,Woolworths,Evans etc there is so many I have got enough for a gift voucher already because I did my first download and they automatically give you 10,000 points for a gift voucher straight away,now I have done that 1st one,I now get paid £1 a week for each download I make which is 1,000 points and work towards another voucher hope that makes sense to you

glad that Girl Interupted is your fave film I cant wait to see it

I am fine thanks SF,I didnt come back last night to play bingo as I was so tired and I watched Trial and Retrobution on ITV1,Wasnt it awful about that crash landing at Heathrow airport yesterday I was so glad everyone survived

I hope you all have a lovely day


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

Miss_tbc

Razorbladekisses

Thanks for your response i have previously had one to one counselling which was what helped me recognised my husbands family had been bullying me so i started to confront it just didnt realise my OH was involved my suspicions are they are all insecure people who have tried to bring me down and my OH was probably raised to see it as a weakness to not be the same i dont think on his behalf it is intentional but am going to counselling together to get to the bottom of it but he professes he loves me and it appears to me he has been so scared of loosing me the only way he knew to stop this happening was to put obstacles in my way, he says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me its just so sad because i think he was a victim of circumstance in his family and because he learnt this has been treating me the same way.

Im hoping things can be resolved he has had a lot of trauma in his life to and i think he has learnt to avoid dealing with this because its not perceived manly to deal with issues, i have been dealing with mine over the last few years and am trying to show him its not a bad thing to do.

We live about 10 miles from his family so dont see them that often but he has said hes would even move miles away if this would help our situation but i dont want to isolate him from them because that has to be his choice my belief is that they have been influencing his decisions with regards to the way our relationship has been and at the end of the day i suppose he is bound to ask them how to deal with my depression because its hard for him to cope. i now feel its a case of saying to him look i know whats going on and if we wants this to work it has to stop and we work on our relationship together with counselling and no outside influences.