Depression Support Thread

slowlyfading

Sorry to butt in, I've not been here lately, but as I'm sat trying to stop the flow of blood from my wrist, I'm wondering why it has got to this point, yet again. -sigh- I don't think I'll ever be normal.

meyore

Don't go anywhere anymore, and even when I did it was just the doctor and counsellor. They don't have the resources down here, so it really has to be bad before they refer you. I have friends who have attempted suicide and all they get is a week in the local mental health unit. It is really rubbish here. All the things everyone else seems to have access to don't exist down here.

I find my friends take too much effort and because I can't give them the attention they deserve they forget me. I can see that when I'm feeling sort of ok, but when I'm down I take it personally as if its their fault. Me and OH have been together for nearly 2 years and he is supportive now, but he hasn't always been that way. Hes come to understand its the way I am though. And I know he loves me the way I am-that really helps.

feelinggood_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

Sorry to butt in, I've not been here lately, but as I'm sat trying to stop the flow of blood from my wrist, I'm wondering why it has got to this point, yet again. -sigh- I don't think I'll ever be normal.

((Hugs))

Self-harm is an incredibly difficult thing to recover from. When I'm more established in my recovery, I'd love to set up a 12 Step group for self-harmers. There are a few in America. I've found AA to be the best thing I've ever done, and its helping me to overcome my problems with self-harm, food and relationships. Hopefully one day there will be 12 Step groups for self-harmers in the UK.

I never thought I'd ever recover from Alcoholism. I never thought I'd be normal. I'm not normal, and never will be, but I've got a daily reprieve from my alcoholism, and I think that I'll eventually have a daily reprieve from my self-harming.

I view it as an addiction, and I've seen people recovery from addiction many times, so I believe that things will get better.

Nice to see you posting again SF, I think about you often.

slowlyfading

feelinggood wrote: »

Nice to see you posting again SF, I think about you often.

You've just made my day.
Thanks for replying so fast, I'm just in despair at the moment. I sit all day with people who are so happy and full of life, and i'm so jealous of them. Its my final year at uni, and I'm so stressed with all the work that I've got to do, and then I'm battling this. I went to see my counsellor today, (whom I went about the selfharming thing) and she never mentions it, and I never know how to bring it up. She knows, but doesn't see it as a huge problem. oh well. xx

meyore

slowlyfading wrote: »

Sorry to butt in, I've not been here lately, but as I'm sat trying to stop the flow of blood from my wrist, I'm wondering why it has got to this point, yet again. -sigh- I don't think I'll ever be normal.

Hi SF sorry to hear things have got bad again.

Having never self harmed its not something I understand, all I can say is ((hugs))

Xx

cat9586

razorbladekisses wrote: »

cat9586 :hello: Sorry to hear about your unpleasant experience with your psychiatrist. They don't seem to realise that we go to them for help because we are unwell, not to be made to feel worse about ourselves. At least you don't have to see her again. Will you be allocated another psychiatrist?

The things your psychiatrist said were definately uncalled for. There is no way she should have got away with saying such things. Did you make a complaint about her?

Hello :wave:
Will hopefully have another appointment soon with another psychiatrist but may not be until late March Haven't made a complaint as I really dont want the confrontation with her again

Hope you are well

Catherine

feelinggood_2

Sorry to hear that your counsellor doesn't raise the issue of self-harming. Is it something you've found difficult to talk to her about in the past? Perhaps you could write a little note to hand to her at your next appointment, saying how you'd like to talk about it a bit more?

It can be hard to be around happy people when things are so bad. I remember when I first started going to meetings, some people would share about how wonderful thier lives were, how happy they are and how everything is so happy and smiley and lovely. I'd just want to scream at them that I'm not happy, that I'm hurting and how it hurts more to know that other people have so easy. I've learnt now that most people go through very hard times, and I should see it as a good thing that people are happy - it gives me hope that one day I'll be happy.

I've got to dash - OH is out the bath and I'm not allowed on MSE (Long story!)

I'll be back tomorrow day time though, take care till then. My PM box is open if you ever need it xx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

slowlyfading (((HUGS))) What's happened hun?

meyore The help/support where you live does sound really poor. It's a shame that you are unable to access any other kind of help. Do you no longer receive counselling?

How I see it is if friends can't be there for you when you are feeling down/at your worst then they aren't true friends.

It's good that your OH is now supportive of you. I guess to begin with he perhaps found it difficult to understand.

slowlyfading

meyore wrote: »

Hi SF sorry to hear things have got bad again.

Having never self harmed its not something I understand, all I can say is ((hugs))

Xx

Thanks, I need all the hugs I can get at the moment! How are you this evening? xx

slowlyfading

razorbladekisses wrote: »

slowlyfading (((HUGS))) What's happened hun?

To be honest, nothing really has to happen at the moment. Its just everything.. how are you? I read a few pages back that you're not doing so good. I wish we lived nearer to each other - we could meet up and support each other. -sigh- I just feel so alone. xx