Depression Support Thread

shazrobo

happy birthday meyore, hope you get over the lurgy flu thing real soon, (((((BIG HUGS)))))
shaz x

Limana68

Hello there to you all
My lovely dad dies 6 yrs ago..........went downhill from there really, been on tabs, got better, okay for 4 yrs, working, loevely hubby, 2 great kids, then in Jan last yr, my mum got ill and we moved house so she could live with us. That was fine for a bit, I am main breadwinner, hubby looks after home and my mum.
I was off work again for a while but went back in May, and went back on tabs( Citalopram) and fely ok, but came off them last mth after doc said I seemed fine......... well I have hit rock bottom again............and back on tabs again.
Im feeling so guilty that I am unable to cope with what everyone else does, ie work, home etc. Work have been great so feel guilty that I am letting them down again but couldnt cope if I went back. I dont really like my job but Im stuck with it due to pension and its good money.
I am also in alot of debt which isnt helping as we have not been living within our means, most of it is in my name.
Hubby dosnt really understand and I feel so useless, because I should be able to 'get a grip' theres people worse off than us.( his words)
Anyway, just want to say hi and that I am trying to get sorted.


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juno

Aaaarrrggh!

I might get promoted at work.

antronella

Well, the no smoking lasted just under 24 hours I woke up this morning desperate for a ciggy and by lunchtime I was in an awful state..crying etc and in panic. My friend happened to ring while I was like it and she was there in 10 mins with a pack. After talking it through, I think I may be trying to take too much on before I'm strong enough mentally. I'm back at work wed and can't afford to go backwards in any way. So I'm going to concentrate for now on trying to get back to work and worry about the cigs a bit later..(feel disappointed in myself though).

Limana, welcome x you will gain a lot of support here..but please make that appt with your GP and let us know how you get on.

Happy Birthday Meyore!! so sorry you're not feeling good (in body and mind) maybe you should see doc too? And hope BMF is feeling bit better, also Steph and anyone else feeling rotten.

QWB, hugs to you, hope you managed to remember all your happy memories of your mum x

Gilette, glad you had a good time over xmas..well hope you did! Chocolates are a hazard of xmas...I have a HUOWGE tin of Roses, box of celebrations and a box of thorntons continental to get through. Managing quite well so far You never know..you may enjoy your night out NYE...go for it!

Did you get to the cinema Shaz?

Juno, what's the news on the promotion?!!!

Hope everyone else is ok tonight. My kids bought me an exercise ball for xmas so I'm going to blow it up now (with a pump!) and then try and work off some choccies!!

shazrobo

hi antronella, i had one of them exercise balls, funnily enough i looked at it every day, but nothing happened:rotfl: so i gave it to kids as a giant football for back garden. dont be too hard on yourself for not giving up smoking, you will get there when the time is right, concentrate on getting back to work first.
the film we saw at the cinema was really good, apparently its been out a while, which would explain why the cinema was quiet, but i prefer it that way anyway, and both boys behaved really well while we was there, which was good.
still eating my choccies from christmas, and i think the kids will be eating theirs til easter they got so many. its giving up the booze thats my challenge from tues, have cut down a lot, but still drinking most days lately which isnt good.
hi limana, everyone is lovely on this thread and have given me a lot of support, i'm on citalopram too, if you feel its not working please go back to your gp, and let us know how you get on.
juno, what was the promotion that you got??
big hugs
shaz x

Stephb1986_2

Hi all im feeling slightly better today not much though, im still drugging myself up to my eyeballs but its not working that great. seen my fella last night and got my christmas present, he asked if i'd spend tomorrow night with him i really want to but i dont want to upset my family or make them angry coz they really dont like him now im so torn because in my head i was spending christmas and new year with my fella and then with what happened i had a pretty pooh christmas with my family and new year is never that exciting (im always driving) and now i have this offer i really really dont want to upset them please help!

Stephb xx

shazrobo

hi steph, glad your feeling bit better. i'd say go with your heart, its your life, and you can choose who you want to spend new years eve with.

my ex rang earlier and wants to spend tommorrrow night here, not all night just to see new year in. dont think i want to get back with him, but not sure i wanna spend tommorrrow night in alone either.
shaz x

reehsetin

Tiff wrote: »

Tiff xxx

thank you everyone, especially tiff, its not me though and just very difficult because they dont want to get help wont even talk about it
becoming unbearable!

Stephb1986_2

Hi Shaz its a shame i dont live near you or we could of gone out for a drink!

I know its my life but i dont think i can cope with the arguments it would cause with my family but part of me says go because they see me all the time and its a change of place (saves me taking people i dont like home when they are drunk!) we've promised eachother that we will change the things we did wrong and try again, this time in 2 weeks im not going to be here im off to egypt for a week so i'd like to see as much of him as i can. My mum thinks im daft for going back with him but i love him so much

Stephb xx

shazrobo

hi steph, dont wanna upset you hun, so please ignore me if you want, my ex said he would change, he kept on sayin it and i kept on believeing him, til fiday last week, wen it finally dawned on me that he probably never going to change, and to be honest he has contacted me again tonight askin bout tommorrow night and saying we can put the past year behind us, but i dont think i can, he has caused me do much pain, that i have tried to commit suicide twice this year, and thought about it loads more times. think carefully about what your doing hun, your family will always be there for you, as mine are always there for me
shaz x