Depression Support Thread

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queensway_boy wrote: »

Dad...so many images come to mind
whenever I speak your name;
It seems without you in my life
things have never been the same.

What happened to those lazy days
when I was just a child;
When my life was consumed in you
in your love, and in your smile.

What happened to all those times
when I always looked to you;
No matter what happened in my life
you could make my gray skies blue.

Dad, some days I hear your voice
and turn to see your face;
Yet in my turning...it seems
the sound has been erased.

Dad, who will I turn to for answers
when life does not make sense;
Who will be there to hold me close
when the pieces just don't fit.

Oh, Dad, if I could turn back time
and once more hear your voice;
I'd tell you that out of all the dads
you would still be my choice.

Please always know I love you
and no one can take your place;
Years may come and go
but your memory will never be erased.

Today, Jesus, as You are listening
in your home above;
Would you go and find my dad
and give him all my love.




by J. Burnette

that is a beautiful poem and well it makes me miss my dad who passed away 5 months ago.
This is a difficult time for me at the moment as I really dont feel like celebrating christmas but that would be unfair on my 11 yr old daughter.

rose07

Im a little red rose
sitting in the mud
holding on
in this world we call life

As the seasons pass by
I wonder where the time goes
doesnt seem that long ago
that i was a little rose

My pettels fall off
one by one
I can see them on the grass
I wonder when it will stop
and this will all pass

My thorns warn off
the evils that try and get to close
but they are also there stopping
anyone else that comes across

Im all alone now,
isolated it seems
Im just forever waiting
to see true come my dreams

Im beginning to fade now
as my body freezes up
I cant remember how
all of this turned to dust

Where did it go?
What did i do?
You never know
when your time is through

Im slowly sleepin
away al the bad
away all the dreams
that i once did have

BigMummaF

It is very difficult to face all the 'firsts', whether it is from a passing of a loved one or the dramatic change in a relationship. But it's like every other thing we ever do in our lives....first step; first kiss; first dance; first serious relationship; first driving lesson; first born.......

My dad passed in the October, two weeks before mum's birthday. It was their wedding anniversary & my birthday in November, & of course christmas.

My father-in-law passed three weeks after the birth of my eldest; my mother-in-law diagnosed with bowel cancer early November & passed the beginning of January a few years back, & now their son has been told this week, he has terminal pancreatic cancer.

If we love someone, it is never a 'good time' to miss them; you just find a less painful way of coping with your loss. And that's when the good memories come.....

Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

BigMummaF

Hi Rose...that's a lovely poem....did you write it? It's good to see you posting again. How are you feeling today?

QWB, you find some lovely poetic pieces too...I wouldn't know where to begin looking. But I do get told off for spending too much time reading birthday cards:o

Hope everyone is able to look at themselves in the mirror, cuz we are all survivors on this thread......& don't let's forget that OK?

I'm off for an early night, so catchas later. BMFx

rose07

BigMummaF wrote: »

It is very difficult to face all the 'firsts', whether it is from a passing of a loved one or the dramatic change in a relationship. But it's like every other thing we ever do in our lives....first step; first kiss; first dance; first serious relationship; first driving lesson; first born.......

My dad passed in the October, two weeks before mum's birthday. It was their wedding anniversary & my birthday in November, & of course christmas.

My father-in-law passed three weeks after the birth of my eldest; my mother-in-law diagnosed with bowel cancer early November & passed the beginning of January a few years back, & now their son has been told this week, he has terminal pancreatic cancer.

If we love someone, it is never a 'good time' to miss them; you just find a less painful way of coping with your loss. And that's when the good memories come.....

Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

hi mumma

how r u feelin?

i soo agree with you

first times are always hard, and when we love someone it makes it even harder if they have bad news for the first time, or is in need of help.

Sounds like this time of year is a hard time for you, which i can relate to, my bad time is october thru to jan, with all bad dates and sad memories, but then this is the time of year when we try and pull together, try and help one another. but you get pulled in all directions wondering if its ok to be happy when others have it bad, or arent doing soo well.

Life throws us all the carp it can, we just need to think how we will deal with it in order to keep going

hope your ok
always here for ya
take care mumma
xxxxxx

rose07

BigMummaF wrote: »

Hi Rose...that's a lovely poem....did you write it? It's good to see you posting again. How are you feeling today?

QWB, you find some lovely poetic pieces too...I wouldn't know where to begin looking. But I do get told off for spending too much time reading birthday cards:o

Hope everyone is able to look at themselves in the mirror, cuz we are all survivors on this thread......& don't let's forget that OK?

I'm off for an early night, so catchas later. BMFx

Yeah i wrote it mumma, from the heart that

How am i feelin? hmmmm well im up and down...
But the last 24 hours has been amazing, kinda emotional tbh, i went out last night, with my 3 of my best friends, Katie, Jenny and Stacy. We havent been all together like that in years, we went out to a bar first where we seen a couple of people we knew, one guy came up to me and said "hey rosie how r u?" i didnt know who he was, then i remembered i went to school with him, he has grown up alot, and is really good looking:p, was soo lovely that he acknowledged me. . We then went to the club, where we seen more people from school, one mate i seen Jo, i havent seen her in 5 years, she seen me and screamed "rosie" omg it felt good, to know all these years and you can still be friends with someone, me and her were best friends, i found out she now has a 5 year old, and has been married and divorced, where does the time go eh? then we were all dancing on the dance floor, and i seen more people i knew, we all leap up and down, huggin and a kissin, was mad. All the time me and my best friends stayed together, then we were came away from the dance floor, and Katie said to me, look how farr youve came, i wasnt sure what she was talking about, until it clicked, this time last year i was in hospital, and katie was the only friend i told tat to at the time, last night she said " i was thinking of you the other day, thinking of how farr you have came in just a year" and you know that is the nicest of things she coulda said, coz i think it finally sunk into me, that i have came farr, and no matter what my friends have been there for me. And to think she was thinking of me, well its just a nice feelin aint it? Katie is soo gorgeous too, she looks like katie holmes from dawsons creek, and im soo lucky to have her as a friend. Then we went back on the dance floor, and we were all dancing, but then people started pushing me around, coz im small, so ten my mates stood around me, so no one could bump into me, its these little things thats make you realise who your friends are, and makes you also realise you do have something to keep going for. Jenny went home early as she wasnt feelin well, so we all made sure she got in a taxi, and got her to text when she was home, which she did. then Stacy and me were dancing with katie and i realised something else, i seen other girlies gettin drunk and droolin over guys and just in states, when i realised you dont need to go out and get drunk and end up in bed the next mornin thinking fcuk. Long as you have your mates around you, you always have someone. Me and katie have been friends for 12 years, and Jenny for 10, and Stacy is Jennys cousin so we have all known each other for a while. But it was great to be out, as even though we have grown up 12 years have passed and we are still friends. :D:D


Then tonight we had a family meal, yes we atually sat down like a proper family and had a good time. As you may know my brother is back, which im :D:D about, its my mums birthday tomorrow, so my sister and her hubby came up and made the meal, we all sat down and ate and talked, dont think weve done that in a good while . Then we were reminising about the old days :rotfl:, and i finally have an answer to why im soo mad :rotfl:. when me and my sister was little, she hit me over the head with a hammer, could explain alot :rotfl: tbh tho it was just nice to have a family meal for once, with no arguing or fighting

Things have been hard, but im determined i will get there, how can i not?


Dont forget your a survivor too mumma, you bring alot to this thread and family here, whatever/whoever knocks ya down, just you keep fighting back, coz i know ya can do it

take care xxx

geminilady

queensway_boy wrote: »

Thanks gem,like a lot of others,its not my favourite time of year tbh,miss mam & dad plus mam died on the 30th Dec and was in hospital all that December,i don't like coming across all dark and sad so am sorry if i make anyone feel worse:o hope your ok gem

Yes christmas being such a family time it is natural to miss our loved ones who have died but have you thought what parents want for their children?I believe what all parents wish is their children to be healthy and happy and of course they would like to be remembered but no loving parent would want their child to be miserable at this time, remember them with love but also remember the happy times and all the lovely memories which never die.
I am ok GB,I always get a bit hyper at christmas and love buying presents and spoiling my boys just as my mum spoiled me.I follow a lot of the same traditions my mum did,christmas dinner at three with the queens speech present opening after breakfirst.I make a trifle for boxiing day with strawberry blamongue? --spelling lol instead of custard just like my mum did sounds strange but it tastes good.I do not look forward to the new year though never have,everything feels a bit flat after christmas and it is a long time until summer.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are ok,I had a good time this evening as at 6pm I went off to a Carol Service at my local church that I belong to and it was lovely,Had a mug of tea and a mincepie with Clotted cream,then I went home well I am off now so I will chat tomorrow


lovely poems QWB and Rosie welcome to the thread Gillian

Ethel sorry to hear about your troubles you are having at the moment with your son,hope there will be a reasonable outcome soon,Your Daughter must be so missing her brother very much,I am thinking of you all *hugs*
Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

meyore

Hi all hope you're all coping ok at the moment.

I'm so tired after a very busy weekend. OH came home for the weekend and I've worn myself out...

...Not in a fun way though

I had to drive 60 odd miles each way on Friday to pick him up from Plymouth as the bloody train didn't come this far. Why he wasn't told that when he booked the ticket I don't know. This was after working all day and we didn't get home till gone midnight. Add the fact the main road to Plymouth was closed and I was diverted miles out of my way down country lanes...

Anyway, obviously worth it! :rotfl:

I worked yesterday, but when I got home we sat in bed watching tv and eating junk and generally relaxing. What could be better?

Today I decided not to make him catch the train back, because it would've shortened our time together. I drove him as far as Weston Super Mare and one of his mates took him the rest of the way from there. Worth it because we got an extra 5 or so hours together, but I'm shattered now.

Went and visited my Dad on the way back which was nice. Because he lives at the other end of the county and the roads are so rubbish down here, I don't go often. Made a nice change though.

Then I dropped in on OHs mum and stepdad, but they were very drunk and I couldn't handle that, so I came home.

Its lonely here without him, I guess I was avoiding this moment wasn't I.

Probably should attempt sleep now, will try and come back to chat tomorrow-I miss you guys

Xx

meyore

Actually forget that I don't think I can sleep.

So much to do, but too lazy.

I haven't eaten since lunch, so I'm going to much on crisps and catch up with you guys.