Depression Support Thread

meyore

I just don't sleep well on my back at all I wake up loads and have weird dreams.
The only thing that stops me moving away is my debts. I'd love to be with my OH but I can't afford to move up there. I reckon you should go for it if its what you want-you only get one chance at life, so should make the most of it
Xx

fantastico_2

Thanks, i just want to get christmas out of the way. Dont feel as there is anything for me here anymore. My mum died 2 1/2 years ago and i havent ever got on with my dad. He has always seen the worst in me, that hasnt helped my self esteem at all. Hope i will have my nerves in check when the time comes to go. Thankfully i dont have any children, just my dog to worry about taking.

xx

fantastico_2

I wonder why sleeping on your back gives us really weird dreams?

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

I had a good day today, I got Kylie Minogues new album X with the dvd I love the cd loads,going to put on the dvd in a minute took me ages to get it,I had to get it in Exeter and I nearly didnt get it in Woolies there ether,I had to go 3 times to a bank today and 3 times to the store,I was in tears as well and that was awful.I eventually got the album with cash after the man looked for me I got a kylie bag as well and paid an extra £2.97


I went to karioke at my pub.Came home early as I had done all my songs at 3.15pm and wanted to get back before it was dark I made my tea and caught up on two home and away programmes I then had a bath and came on here to some good news in an e-mail, I am getting my laptop delivered to me tomorrow morning before 9am so I have to be up early just when I thought what a nice lie in I was going to have and thats just got shelved :rotfl:


Have a nice evening everyone


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie

santashelper_2

hi have not been on here for a while just felt i needed someone to talk to i have been suffering after having a nervous breakdown for 4 years now and am slowly improving but feel no one is interested in supporting me the reason i had a breakdown was i was trying to do to much working full time with two children and running away from my problems my parents never wanted me and always compare me to my sister and whatever she does is always right whatever ive done is always wrong after councelling i learnt they would never see it differently and consequently found out from a relative they never wanted children unfortunately my sister is a twin and the comparison thing is a big issue.

My husband totally resents me being ill always complaining he is doing all the financial support he has never had it easy financially as a child and i feel as if he holds this against me, my children were not planned as i had such low self esteem i was so scared of losing my partner that when he didnt want to use protection i trusted him to respect me

my parents broke up my relationship with a boyfriend i was very much in love with prior to my marriage and i recently found out he is now married to the person he met after me and are both very supported by her parents and running successful businesses, athough he came from a poor financial upbringing my parents forced me to end my relationship with him saying he was not good enough so i never really got over this.

My husband does work hard but holds it against me that i cant work full time like i used to but i feel his views are unjust as whenever they were ill i took time off work, i worked full time, i cleaned the house, we did the shopping together, i feel like i have been cheated all my life and never been good enough i tried to do well in my carear and was taken advantage of

I dont know what my future holds for me but i feel lost and alone i would never have thought that when you are at rock bottom people would desert you i have made a new friend since my illness and she is very supportive and understands where i am coming from but feel so let down by my husband.

Then he wants to buy expensive presents for his nephew who we hardly ever see but has never shown this enthusiasm over his own children when they were little he would always say i will do things with them when they are older but when they got older he had another excuse

I dont understand what i have done wrong when i have given him so much support i have helped him with his business financially and supporting him typing letters, advice, etc but the minuite i want some support its like i am asking to much i recently went to hospital with symptoms that could be related to cancer fortunately the result was ok but he didnt even come to the hospital to support me as he says he was to busy at work.

I just feel like my relationship was ok when i was submissive and doing more than my fair share and now i cant im being punished by being ignored and resented

I have had many other problems in my life my daughter has a heart problem i had a kidney problem, was in a car accident, abandoned emotionally by my parents and cant understand why this is happening to me

Thanks for spending the time to read this.

meyore

I'm sorry to hear you're suffering so much at the moment santashelper. I hope things get easier for you. Xx

meyore

fantastico wrote: »

I wonder why sleeping on your back gives us really weird dreams?

I reckon its the fact I don't breathe so well on my back... I'm going to research this I think
Xx

johnroberts07

Hi i havent been on much lately, been feeling really down. The doctor changed my anti-depressants a couple of weeks ago been sleeping most of the time. Had to laugh when i read this in the paper tonight though
Liverpool woman jailed for smuggling drugs into Stafford Prison

A WOMAN who smuggled drugs, a mobile phone and charger into Stafford Prison hidden in her vagina, was jailed today for two years. £2,000 worth of heroin and cannabis plus a sim card wrapped in plastic :eek:

meyore

Thats mad-the most exciting thing we get in the news papers down here is disputes about roadworks and garden fetes! Sorry to hear you're having a rough time at the moment, hope things get better for you soon
Xx

ElegantlyWasted

SantasHelper - I'm sorry things are so bad for you right now. I don't want to make any rash judgements as I don't know you or your family, but your husband sounds very unsupportive. Obviously, this could be for many reasons. It's likely that he is concerned, and doesn't know how to help you, and is therefore getting defensive and being hurtful, rather than admit he is stuck.

Are you still having counselling? Or having any support from your GP? If you haven't already been to see them, I'd really recommend it. It's scary, but they are equipped to help, or refer you on to the right people.

*hugs*

Lisa x