Depression Support Thread

Tulip

velocity_boy wrote: »

hey guys and ladies, i've been depressed and come out the other side so thought i would share my story with you.

mine came from all the usual rubbish, breaking up with different girlfriends, went to uni and couldn't cope with the workload alongside a full time job, anxiety crept in and got worse and worse, then 'it' started, i didn't know what 'it' was back then and certainly couldn't admit to anything. i was in debt too, 3 years ago it was approx £6500 (loans, credit cards etc) and i was in a mimimum wage job :eek: 'it' was at its worst about 2-3 years ago, i spent most of my time working, often 50-60 hours a week, i hated what i did and i had a manager that didn't know if i was in or not (didn't care much either) and supervisors that thought it was ok to swear at people (well just me actually) in front of customers, i didn't much care for the job and nearly walked out, the only things that stopped me were what my family would think and how would i pay my debts. i had low confidence, low self esteem and only a few real friends. then about 18 months ago i saw a few friends that had left to work somewhere else, working in tech support for a technology company, i thought i could do that and applied, about a month went by and no-one got in touch, suddenly one day my mobile rang as i was getting ready for work, they gave me a phone interview on the spot, which i passed and they gave me an interview date for a few weeks later. i worked on flexible rota's and the interview was for my day off, then suddenly about a week before the interview, my boss gave the rota out, expecting to work at 7am on my day off after an 11pm finish, i couldn't do it (physically i would have been in no state to) so explained this to her, she didn't care as per usual. i went in (even though family members were phoning in faking a family emergency they wouldn't let me go home :rolleyes:) it was the hottest day of 2006, i rushed home, got changed into my interview stuff and had my interview, i found out a week later i got the job and started 15 months ago. about 11 months ago i moved onto a new team, i was quiet, inexperienced and not the most confident person in the world, but they all helped me and now i am a lot happier, have been able to admit i had depression and am finally truly confident for the first time in my life, last week i did a series of presentations to senior managers (100 odd of them) for a product launch, i would never have been able to do that before.

my debt is cleared, i finally have money to save and my life has changed, see everyone there is hope *hugs* to you all

vb

Welcome VB Good for you,glad things are starting to look up


love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,I am fine I had a great time in Pottery class today,I went on a potters wheel It was great fun I kept going wrong but hey I didnt fail,anyway I managed in the end to make a little bowl,next week I will try to do a big bowl if I can

I had lunch out,then went to do my food shop I then came home,on the way I saw some people at the pub by my flat that I had met in the Summer,I went hello do you remember me? and they did so I put away my food shop and they got me a drink and it was nice,so we were nattering away for at least an hour then I had to get a bit more shopping


Tonight I am going to relax and not do much


Have a nice evening everyone


Love and light,

Katie xxx

feelinggood_2

fantastico wrote: »

Sorry, completly went off track. I can only say that you know the true meaning of friendship and they dont. Its their loss.

I don't think it was ever true friendship - all that was lost was a relationship that wasn't healthy for either party, and I don't think I should feel guilty from walking away from something that I was not comfortable with and that made me unhappy.

BigMummaF

Evening.....having trouble with the land line, & can't make or receive calls, but thank the High Heavens t'internet is still on:o Big booboo on my part tho, cuz I can't remember who I signed up with. The door-knocking little twerp caught me in a down time, & I signed to get rid of him if I were honest:o

:hello: Feelie---I agree with your sentiments & wish I'd had the strength of character to sort out several "relationships" back then. It would have saved an awful lot of heartache now:o

Hi Tulip! Part of me would lurve to have a go on a potters wheel; part of me thinks 'eurgh---mucky fingernails for a month'; & the biggest part just knows that the clay would come flying off the wheel & hit me smack in the eye:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

THAT my friends, sums up the total of my Life! My attempts to faithfully follow the instructions always ends up with me getting it in the eye, albeit a simple pottery class or trying to get a divorce! NOTHING surprises me any more; it's like that advert where the Dumb Balance is restored!:laugh: :laugh: :laugh:

Gotta go....Hope everyone has a pleasant evening, & QWB? We should start our own calypso group, & folk would queue for miles to wonder where our marraccas are:rotfl: :rotfl:
Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

hayley11

Hi everyone

Went to the doctors today and he has diagnosed me as having moderate depression and prescribed citalopram (20g a day) . I really didn't want to go down this road but I'm not getting better on my own so I think I do need some help.

I've had a read of some of the threads on here regarding citalopram and i've read the leaflet in the pack and i'm really really scared of taking them. I don't want to feel worse, I don't want to think suicidal thoughts, it's bad enough when I hurt myself and think bad things about myself as it is, I couldn't bear it getting worse.

I'm on my own a lot of the time because i'm not in work and we live about an hour away from all our friends and family and i'm sooooo worried about being on my own a lot and not knowing how these tablets are going to affect me.

Anyway thanks for reading. Bigs hugs to everyone x

Tulip

wow,I got a shoutout by the lovely Tony Hadley from Spandau Ballet on Virgin Radio woo I said I prefered Geri Halliwells version of Raining men to the weathergirls

I like Tony loads for that,I may not win a prize but at least I had a mention tonight and thats enough for me

Katie

BigMummaF

Is that the 'Spandau Ballet' Tony? Ooooh I remember seeing them looking like they should be in 'BraveHeart' with Mel Gibson:drool: There's something to be said about a guy in tweed jacket & tartan trews, & they did it so much better than those drips from Bay City Rollers.

And I do like a man with nice eyes; Steve McQueen, Paul Newman, Mel Gibson....... hhhaaaahhh :rolleyes: And as I sit here Elvis, Freddie, Robbie & David are all looking at me:happyhear If only they were here :kisses2: :rotfl: :rotfl:

BigMummaF

Hayley--try not to think about the "possible" side effects---you may not get any of them; a bit like never crossing the road in case you get hit by a steam roller!
I don't mean to be off-hand, but until you DO try something, how will you know if it works? I can appreciate how isolated you must feel, & can only repeat what others have said before

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WE are here for you, & 98% of us have been exactly where you are now, including me.
I find it helps to write a list of the reasons why I should & should not do something, particularly if my judgement is a little off radar. A piece of paper with two headings Yes & No, then jot down thoughts as & when they come into my head. Then you have something solid to base your decision on, & also something to show the doc etc next time you have an appointment. HTH.

Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

Tulip

BigMummaF wrote: »

Is that the 'Spandau Ballet' Tony? Ooooh I remember seeing them looking like they should be in 'BraveHeart' with Mel Gibson:drool: There's something to be said about a guy in tweed jacket & tartan trews, & they did it so much better than those drips from Bay City Rollers.

And I do like a man with nice eyes; Steve McQueen, Paul Newman, Mel Gibson....... hhhaaaahhh :rolleyes: And as I sit here Elvis, Freddie, Robbie & David are all looking at me:happyhear If only they were here :kisses2: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Yes Spandau Ballet Tony it was


Katie

BigMummaF

You have all the luck Tulip....I wouldn't be able to sleep tonight if he had said my name, even tho Martin Kemp has more blue in his eyes....