Depression Support Thread

fantastico_2

Spikey wrote: »

Why does it hurt so much when you lose someone who you thought was a friend?

Because life is a B**ch. Ive lost a few friends recently and i blame myself for being so paranoid about things. Really my so-called friends knew about it but i got a bit much for my friend Rosie. My mum had died and i turned to her for support, id send texts but not get replies. Anyway she said that my behaviour was unacceptable and that going through bereavement was no excuse to lose control of your mind.

I didn't have anyone of my own to turn to, i have brothers and sisters but they have their own wives/husbands to comfort them. I just needed a friend and i couldn't find anyone who would listen to me.

I need someone to love me, i do love someone, his name is Paul. He is teacher i met whilst working in a school. He has the most gorgeous dulcet voice that can carry me far far away from all my troubles. He is such a warm gentleman, with strong arms and the reddest hair. I wrote to him last year asking to meet one day for coffee and he hadnt replied. He knows i can be a little demanding and that he is also a friend of Rosie, so no suprise really that he didnt get back in contact. When i go to work, sometimes i see him in his car. And i fall back in love with him al over again.

Sorry, completly went off track. I can only say that you know the true meaning of friendship and they dont. Its their loss.

BigMummaF

Have to agree with you Fantastico. If we didn't give a monkey's left cashew we wouldn't be posting on this thread would we!

Just today me muvva asked why I married the plonker I did "surely there was someone else"........if I knew then what I know now etc etc. & you deal with whatever Life slings at you in the best way you can at the time. It's not like you can go into a chemist & ask for 1/2lb of hindsight!

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Welcome to the thread Fantastico Hope you are all having a great evening

I will chat tomorrow


Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

geminilady

feelinggood wrote: »

Just wanted to say I'm around, but I'm taking a break from the thread - don't feel comfortable here anymore, so I'm off.

Hope everyone is okay

Hi Feely,Sorry you don't feel comfortable on here at the moment hope you are ok and still going to your meetings.

juno

I'm really not coping atm, and I don't know what to do. I saw my doctor on tuesday, and all i got was a prescription for ibuprofen. and he way im currently feeling, im scared i'll od on it. My friend says if self-harming in a safe way is stopping me from killing myself, it's a bit of a trade off, and I kinda agree with that. but i'm fed up of feeling like this.

queensway_boy

Anyone else get sick of taking tablets everyday,i'm ok normally but sometimes it really gets me down:o 15 a day minimum,105 a week,5,460 a year:eek:

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geminilady

juno wrote: »

I'm really not coping atm, and I don't know what to do. I saw my doctor on tuesday, and all i got was a prescription for ibuprofen. and he way im currently feeling, im scared i'll od on it. My friend says if self-harming in a safe way is stopping me from killing myself, it's a bit of a trade off, and I kinda agree with that. but i'm fed up of feeling like this.

Hi Juno.Sorry you are struggling at the moment.Did you explain to your Doctor how bad you are feeling?I cannot believe all he gave you were ibuprofen.Did he suggest any other form of treatment?Just a reminder that the samaritans are only a phone call away if you do think you might od.I know i seem to mention them a lot but i think they do a really good job they do not judge anyone and there is always someone at the end of the phone.Also someone mentioned that you can go to your local a and e and which i did not know before.

geminilady

queensway_boy wrote: »

Anyone else get sick of taking tablets everyday,i'm ok normally but sometimes it really gets me down:o 15 a day minimum,105 a week,5,460 a year:eek:

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Hi QB:hello: wOW That is a LOT of tablets no wonder it gets you down,but if you need them i suppose there is not a lot you can do so don't really know what to say.I think out Tiff is on a lot of meds so maybe she will be more help.

fantastico_2

BigMummaF wrote: »

Just today me muvva asked why I married the plonker I did "surely there was someone else"........if I knew then what I know now etc etc. & you deal with whatever Life slings at you in the best way you can at the time. It's not like you can go into a chemist & ask for 1/2lb of hindsight!

If they could sell 1/2 ib of hindsight, how much do you think it would be, and could you get it on perscription?:rolleyes:

Think i am going to find you all a great help, just nice to be able to write it all down and get it off my chest. Hope everyone is feeling good today, lovely bright sunshine. Been and finished work already, and just going to take my dog for a walk along the canal. Lovely people along there to talk to aswell.

velocity_boy

hey guys and ladies, i've been depressed and come out the other side so thought i would share my story with you.

mine came from all the usual rubbish, breaking up with different girlfriends, went to uni and couldn't cope with the workload alongside a full time job, anxiety crept in and got worse and worse, then 'it' started, i didn't know what 'it' was back then and certainly couldn't admit to anything. i was in debt too, 3 years ago it was approx £6500 (loans, credit cards etc) and i was in a mimimum wage job :eek: 'it' was at its worst about 2-3 years ago, i spent most of my time working, often 50-60 hours a week, i hated what i did and i had a manager that didn't know if i was in or not (didn't care much either) and supervisors that thought it was ok to swear at people (well just me actually) in front of customers, i didn't much care for the job and nearly walked out, the only things that stopped me were what my family would think and how would i pay my debts. i had low confidence, low self esteem and only a few real friends. then about 18 months ago i saw a few friends that had left to work somewhere else, working in tech support for a technology company, i thought i could do that and applied, about a month went by and no-one got in touch, suddenly one day my mobile rang as i was getting ready for work, they gave me a phone interview on the spot, which i passed and they gave me an interview date for a few weeks later. i worked on flexible rota's and the interview was for my day off, then suddenly about a week before the interview, my boss gave the rota out, expecting to work at 7am on my day off after an 11pm finish, i couldn't do it (physically i would have been in no state to) so explained this to her, she didn't care as per usual. i went in (even though family members were phoning in faking a family emergency they wouldn't let me go home :rolleyes:) it was the hottest day of 2006, i rushed home, got changed into my interview stuff and had my interview, i found out a week later i got the job and started 15 months ago. about 11 months ago i moved onto a new team, i was quiet, inexperienced and not the most confident person in the world, but they all helped me and now i am a lot happier, have been able to admit i had depression and am finally truly confident for the first time in my life, last week i did a series of presentations to senior managers (100 odd of them) for a product launch, i would never have been able to do that before.

my debt is cleared, i finally have money to save and my life has changed, see everyone there is hope *hugs* to you all

vb