Depression Support Thread

rose07

dawnylou wrote: »

The thing is I don't want to cause any more damage to our family and this could possibly destroy them.

How much is it destroying you tho?

I know you are thinking of your family, but sometimes we need to think of ourselves, may seem selfish that, but sometimes we need to take steps to be ok

x

dawnylou

I would rather continue to feel like this than to hurt my family.

rose07

geminilady wrote: »

rose07 wrote: »

Hi Rosie,Well as i said i did hear from him but heard very little since.As you said he could be busy but it takes very little time to send a text,so i think he has got bored with me and found someone more interesting to chat to.It hurts as when someone texts 20 plus times a day then hardly at all it gives mixed signels and i am the kind of person who wants,reasons,explanations for things.A few days ago i said i would rather have no friends than farewether ones and just got a lol ok, i don't know what it is about me but everyone seems to find me funny when i don't mean to be.I said glad you are amused and just got a what the hells ur problem so i did not answer and have heard nothing since .As to talking on the phone i have a bit of a phobia about it maybe because its something i seldom do.
As to you not having that special someone,as you said you are a yong thing and have all your life in front of you so he will come along some day.I know you are finding it hard at the moment but from all your posts i can still see your fighting spirit so you hold on to that and you will get through.I know you have been though a lot in your short life and some of it can leave damage but the positive thing is it makes you stronger if that makes sense.Even though you are suffering yourself you still find the time to help others and in my book that makes you a very speial person.

Hi hun

Sounds like this person really hurt you hun, and it which case you have to ask yourself is he worth it? I understand that it must hurt when someone goes cold on you, they go from texting you all the time to not at all, and you start asking yourself what went wrong and wondering if there is something wrong with you. But hun you are a strong, kind, caring person, with alot to give, and if he is being a pain, he isnt worth it hun, because you deserve alot more.
Sometimes people can get the wrong end of the stick, see things the wrong way. I know people think im funny sometimes when im trying to be serious, ahh well. Doesnt sound like he is being much of a friend. Have you got someone to talk to a friend? or was he that friend?
You know you can always talk here hun (((((hugs))))

Awww thanks for your kind words hun.
Just wish sometimes other people would see that im strong :rolleyes:

Last night i got a phone call from the ex friend i was telling you about, it all turned out to be my fault and me the one apologising, when she was the one that went and ....well did something awful. Gets me soo confused as to who my mates are. My sister says im too forgiving, but i dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing.

hope you have a good day

xxx

rose07

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,


Hope you are all ok *hugs*to you all that need one I am out today to the pub for lunch and then its Karioke,Not sure what I will be singing today but they will be nice songs

I hope you all have a lovely day

chat later


love and light,

Katie xxx

Hi Katie

I hope you have a good day, pub lunch sounds lovely, and karaoke too, i have only done karaoke once, when i was ever soo slightly intoxicated, and even then i had to drag me mates up to sing too :rotfl:
so your a brave thing

have a nice day and take care xx

rose07

dawnylou wrote: »

I would rather continue to feel like this than to hurt my family.

do your family need to know then? could you still talk to someone, just to let it out? x

dawnylou

My fiance knows - as do a couple of close friends - so it's not like it is completely bottled up.
Talking to anybody else about it just increases the risk of others finding out.

I don't know why it torments me the way it does.

rose07

slowlyfading wrote: »

Rose, for my dissertation I'm looking at film music and whether or not it infulences our perception of events in a film and yup, I'm in my final year now its gone really fast! :eek: I have no idea what I want to do in life, lol.
sf xx

ooo thats a good one, i did mine on....trauma :eek:, hard thing to cover

Im one of these people where music has an affect on me, esp in a film, films like dirty dancing, and i will even tell you i was watching the fox and the hound recently and that had me crying because of the music too, (yep im on old wuss :rotfl:)

Sometimes its the music that makes it
or you could say actions speak louder than words, but words help to convey a meaning, sad songs to happy songs they help the person to feel the film.

Cool final year, dont worry you dont need to know what you want to do in life now, take it one thing at a time, i know you have great talent and will go farr in whatever you decide to do, so just take it in your stride

take care hun xxx

rose07

dawnylou wrote: »

My fiance knows - as do a couple of close friends - so it's not like it is completely bottled up.
Talking to anybody else about it just increases the risk of others finding out.

I don't know why it torments me the way it does.

Its good you have told a few people, as you say least its not totally bottled up.

Have you wrote it down?
I know its hard for you right now, things torment us coz they can, depends how much you think about it, and how much it was a part of your life, or how much you are reminded of it, depends on alot of things hun.

x

rose07

Miroslav wrote: »

As a male, my experience is that males are not taken seriously, especially when you are my size and nobody ever thinks someone like me could be depressed/anxious/have low self esteem.

Everywhere you go 'If you are female and would like a female doctor...' etc etc but males get no choice.

It's more acceptable in a woman as they are considered the more emotional gender.

It's wrong, but most things in life are balanced in one way or the other, of which none of it is right.

Nice to see you posting Rose :T

Hi miro

nice to see you :T:D:D

I have to agree with you, i know alot of males who are like rugby built :eek:, and it can be hard for them to say how they feel and if a guy breaks down in tears people think there something wrong with him, where if a female cries it seems more exceptable, strannnge.

And i agree it is wrong, but guess tis life

right better run, :rotfl:,

take care everyone

xx

hayley11

Hi


I hope you don't mind me posting, it's a lot scarier, posting this than I thought it would be. I'm just feeling very fed up and I don't really have anybody to talk to about it. I've been feeling very low for a couple of months now and i've been off work since the end of August. It started where I just felt sad and was crying for no reason and it's slowly just gotten worse, I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness and I can't do anything to make it go away, I can't leave the house on my own, i'm scared all the time, I cry a lot for no reason, I have awful panic attacks and I scratch at my arms so they just look awful and then that upsets me even more.


I've been to see my doctor loads recently but he just puts it down to the fact that my mum moved in June (I'm in Manchester and she's moved to Gloucester) and i'm just missing her. I know that's part of it because I do miss her but that can't be whats causing me to be like this. I've been to see a counsellor but it was just for an assessment and i'm not having a proper counselling session for a few weeks. I'm due to go back to work part time next Monday and i'm dreading it. I just don't know how I am going to get there let alone be around all those people and act normal. But work stopped paying me at the end of September so i'm only getting SSP and it's nowhere near enough so I have to go back to work.


I don't understand why I feel like this, I should be happy, I've got the best boyfriend ever, he's been so great and he really looks after me and I have a good job and work have been very supprtive. I feel very lonely sometimes though, we live about an hour away from all our friends and family and I just don't see anybody much anymore. I used to go up and see people at the weekend but I just feel so fed up I can't even make myself go to the shop let alone sit on a bus for an hour.


I feel like everybody's getting sick of me now, my mums been quite harsh to me, saying i'm just being selfish and i should stop thinking about myself. I don't know if she's going for the tough love approach but it just makes me feel ten times worse. She used to work at MIND, you think she would understand that I can't help it. The only person I feel like I can talk to and rely is my OH and I hate putting that much pressure on him, he's only 21, he shouldn't have to put up with all this.


Anyway sorry for going on.


H x