Depression Support Thread

Karrie

Lots of love and hugs Kate xx

Hope you feel better soon and back in your chair typing away soon xx

Tiff_2

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,
I am nearly better but not quite right in myself so I am off to a special hospital to have a rest for 2 days or possibly longer depending how I feel,I am off there today so I wont be on here tonight,I will repost when I return how ever long it will take but I know from the help I will get from the nurses at this hospital I will be ok eventually and get back to my normal life outside again.I just wanted to let you all know in case you all wonder why I am not online posting
See you all soon when I come out of hospital
Love
Katie xxx

Katie angel,
You are a shining example of grace and humanity.:T:A
I am so proud of you for taking the step to get some extra help and tlc. I'll be waiting here for you with the blue smarties for when you return. You are much loved & we'll be thinking of you sweetheart!

To all of the amazing people here, I'm thinking of you all and sending Tiffy hugs.
Just to warn you all that The Tiff Chronicles Part 2 is about to be posted and probably makes Part 1 look like a leaflet, so I apologise in advance to you all.

To katie, to you all, never forget just how special you all are.
Much love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

THE TIFF CHRONICLES ~ PART 2 continued...
His carers were told off about revealing info on him & interfering & making decisions regarding his education & dance which they weren't allowed to do by law.

One night I saw an article in the paper searching for any male of ethnic origin - or any origin - as the local Am.Dram. were looking for someone to play the lead role of Tyrone in ''FAME ~ THE MUSICAL'' & no-one had applied. I phoned and got him an audition. Remember, he was only 15 and never done anything like this before, had no experiece and just been through hell! He was so excited!
He passed purely on his talent and got the role!

Months of rehearsals lay ahead and getting this part really boosted his confidence. He won the Drama Award shield for the 2nd year running and the staff asked him to put something a dance piece together for the school's end of year show in June, with some of the girls.
Tiffy swelled up with pride.:dance: Also his visit lengths with me were being increased too.
DS continued to attend rehearsals for FAME. He wasn't sure how his dancing would be received at the school show by the other students, due to the bullying at the other schools & it would be the 1st time he'd perform in public. DS & the girls choreographed it & practiced continuously. He chose the song and they all agreed on it. And so, after the year from hell, and only a week before he was to perform the piece with the girls at the end of school year show, he got his GCSE Performing Arts Dance results back. He was shaking as agoraphobic me,, met him in town, to open his results with his friends.

He got an A (A)!
I squealed and leapt at him and burst into tears telling him how wonderful he was, how proud of him I was, how much I loved him, and I looked up at the 5ft 11ins he was then, and he had tears in his eyes and he said ''I couldn't have done it without you Mom. I love you.''
And then he hugged me so hard and I didn't ever want to let go of that moment.

It was a gorgeous final day at school & they'd put up a main stage for the Head & Governors to do their speeches from. There was a smaller stage for the various entertainments planned. I couldn't go - felt quite ill that day & I was sad at that. I couldn't wait for him to visit me that night to tell me how it went.
That boy bounded through the door that night. They had loved him. He'd worn a white sleeveless 'vest', blue jeans and a trilby hat and the girls all looked fantastic. They all stood posed around him with their backs to the audience. He said he'd been terrified and then the music started. He'd chosen 'Sexyback' by Justin Timberlake.
When the first beat hit, DS snapped his head round looking over his shoulder at the audience, he nodded & then they all burst into the routine. They got an encore and performed it again.
The kids were shouting his name and clapping and the girls were getting the same.
Bless him, he told me that even the 'cool kids' were coming up to him & saying well done & all the way down to the bus station, kids were shouting out to him and waving. He said it was the best day of his school life.

All this in a slice of our lives.
I'm sorry for all I've written - I know it's taken up half my day and you must all be ready to jump. But all this is leading somewhere. I hope you'll be patient and come back for hopefully the final chronicle of Tiff's tale - Part 3.
Don't think for a minute that I've forgotten how much some of you are hurting and that I don't care. Ol' Tiff will always be here for you
and I admit I do feel selfish for posting only about me. I'll get back & post replies if I can tonight - if you haven't locked the catflap!
It was DS's 1st day back at college today (3 induction days for the 2nd years.) so he'll be talking his head off and will have fallen asleep
by the end of Emmerdale probably!
To you wonderful souls, I'm thinking of you & thanks for reading.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

juno

I can't write much today coz my wrist really hurts, but Tiff, you must be really proud of your son!

*zippy*

Tiff I went from tears to smiles back to tears again reading that, how rightly proud you must be of him and its sounds like he follows his mum in rising above it all. I hope he had a great day in college today. I've worried about my DD today, but she came home happy as anything.

Don't feel sorry about writing it, its lovely to know more about you and i'm sure its helped alot of us who can relate different parts. Love and hugs to you :grouphug:

ilovegreatdanes

tiff....
just want to say thanks for bearing your soul... and to say am humbled to know you....and proud to call you a friend.i cried at the injustice...and i cried with joy how you both turned something so bad into something really great.you are a true survivor and my life is all the better for knowing you.this all sounds patronising but believe me, every word comes honestly from my heart.bless you
love julie xx

ilovegreatdanes

tulip......enjoy your rest....and dont be long!!!will miss you.
god bless xx

BigMummaF

Evening! ....................Tulip--enjoy your rest! The hopitals now seem to be more like hotels, but you don't have to pay for the privilege of someone else doing the cooking or changing the sheets:rotfl: See you as soon as you're ready............

Tiff........more power to your keyboard babe! I too have some fighting knowledge of education authorities, & snivelling little [EMAIL="pr@ts"]pr@ts[/EMAIL] who are all talk & "I know my legal rights concerning your child" [I want a 'smilie' that looks like Richie Rich from "Bottom"- Rik Mayall's character:rotfl: ]when in all honesty they are taking money under false pretences. They are employed to protect the welfare of the child, but never take the time to listen to the very children that are most vunerable:mad: :mad:

Again, my memory for names fails me, but I second the theory that you are taking the first step towards self healing. Your second chapter is written in a much more positive way than the first, as if a huge weight has lifted & the little spark of self preservation is burning a little brighter for it.

I think that it is because we feel guilty for everything that happens to ourselves, more so for the pain our loved ones endure, that feeds this beast known as depression. It's irrational to think we could have changed many of the events that shape our lives & all so easy to dwell on the 'what ifs' after the fact. But how horrendous would Life be if we didn't give a !!!!!!? After all...it's what makes us

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us!

So Tiffy Tiffster......GO GURL!! Don't worry about us....we can take it, will beat it soundly around the head & file it away in the Closure file for you OK?OK.

Peaceful Minds to ALL. BMFx

elona

Tiff

You are fantastic!

I am so pleased for your son and hope things continue to go well for him.

geminilady

Tiff wrote: »

THE TIFF CHRONICLES ~ PART 2 continued...

His carers were told off about revealing info on him & interfering & making decisions regarding his education & dance which they weren't allowed to do by law.

One night I saw an article in the paper searching for any male of ethnic origin - or any origin - as the local Am.Dram. were looking for someone to play the lead role of Tyrone in ''FAME ~ THE MUSICAL'' & no-one had applied. I phoned and got him an audition. Remember, he was only 15 and never done anything like this before, had no experiece and just been through hell! He was so excited!
He passed purely on his talent and got the role!

Months of rehearsals lay ahead and getting this part really boosted his confidence. He won the Drama Award shield for the 2nd year running and the staff asked him to put something a dance piece together for the school's end of year show in June, with some of the girls.
Tiffy swelled up with pride.:dance: Also his visit lengths with me were being increased too.
DS continued to attend rehearsals for FAME. He wasn't sure how his dancing would be received at the school show by the other students, due to the bullying at the other schools & it would be the 1st time he'd perform in public. DS & the girls choreographed it & practiced continuously. He chose the song and they all agreed on it. And so, after the year from hell, and only a week before he was to perform the piece with the girls at the end of school year show, he got his GCSE Performing Arts Dance results back. He was shaking as agoraphobic me,, met him in town, to open his results with his friends.

He got an A (A)!
I squealed and leapt at him and burst into tears telling him how wonderful he was, how proud of him I was, how much I loved him, and I looked up at the 5ft 11ins he was then, and he had tears in his eyes and he said ''I couldn't have done it without you Mom. I love you.''
And then he hugged me so hard and I didn't ever want to let go of that moment.

It was a gorgeous final day at school & they'd put up a main stage for the Head & Governors to do their speeches from. There was a smaller stage for the various entertainments planned. I couldn't go - felt quite ill that day & I was sad at that. I couldn't wait for him to visit me that night to tell me how it went.
That boy bounded through the door that night. They had loved him. He'd worn a white sleeveless 'vest', blue jeans and a trilby hat and the girls all looked fantastic. They all stood posed around him with their backs to the audience. He said he'd been terrified and then the music started. He'd chosen 'Sexyback' by Justin Timberlake.
When the first beat hit, DS snapped his head round looking over his shoulder at the audience, he nodded & then they all burst into the routine. They got an encore and performed it again.
The kids were shouting his name and clapping and the girls were getting the same.
Bless him, he told me that even the 'cool kids' were coming up to him & saying well done & all the way down to the bus station, kids were shouting out to him and waving. He said it was the best day of his school life.

All this in a slice of our lives.
I'm sorry for all I've written - I know it's taken up half my day and you must all be ready to jump. But all this is leading somewhere. I hope you'll be patient and come back for hopefully the final chronicle of Tiff's tale - Part 3.
Don't think for a minute that I've forgotten how much some of you are hurting and that I don't care. Ol' Tiff will always be here for you
and I admit I do feel selfish for posting only about me. I'll get back & post replies if I can tonight - if you haven't locked the catflap!
It was DS's 1st day back at college today (3 induction days for the 2nd years.) so he'll be talking his head off and will have fallen asleep
by the end of Emmerdale probably!
To you wonderful souls, I'm thinking of you & thanks for reading.
Much Love,

Tiff xxx

Tiff your chronicles have put me through a rollercoaster of emotions.Thank you so much for sharing your life with us.I cannot wait for part three.You have been through so much in your life but the main thing that stands out is what a survivor you are.Some might say your hard life has made you strong but i think it must have been there all along or you would not have survived all you have been through and still come out fighting.Rocky has nothing on you.