Depression Support Thread

tooties

hello everyone,

today is the day i have to go and pick up my weekly supply of my anti- depressents and face the all so knowing staff in my local chemist. Yesterday my GP phoned me as the psychiatrist at the day hospital had called her re the OD and change in my meds, although it was lovely of her to call and i appreciated her phoning me i couldnt be bothered with all the quiestions, why, how, etc. No body seems to understand that i have simply had enough of trying to live with this awful illness and that i dont want to go on living if i am going to feel this awful everyday for the rest of my life.
i suppose you have to feel like this to fully understand how i feel at the moment.

today i am going to my best friend house for a natter and lunch so im looking forward to that.
can i ask a somewhat sensitive question to all you folks??

I havent washed my face or hair or changed my jeans and jumper in a week i just realised that today and i havent cleaned my teeth either!! disgusting i know but is this part of my depression or what?
thanks in advance
tooties

BigMummaF

Hi Tooties......I too go through periods where I don't 'take care of myself', & yes it is definately a repercussion of your dark mood. But hey--you have realised that your not taking care of yourself, so it's a good sign you're back on the up as it were.

It's when I actually have a shower as opposed to a quick lick & promise, that I realise what I've been missing & how much better a little effort can make you feel.

Someone once suggested to me, to keep a diary of the actual things I did each day:-

• you get out of bed................................................:T
• make yourself a drink............................................:T
• actually watch 10mins of a tv programme.....................:T
• do a puzzle........................................................:T
• comb your hair....................................................:T
• cuddle the kids/cat/etc.........................................:T

It is really surprising how much we do without noticing, that are very good indicators of our subconcious will to survive. The fact that you post on here is a tremendous achievment in itself, so just take a few minutes to see how well you are coping with the Big D, as opposed to how much it is trying to control you. HTH

Peaceful Minds folks.BMFx

Tulip

Hello Everyone,
Hope you are all well and happy I am fine today,I have an appointment at 12.30pm today at home with my physcologist,that always drains me right out as I always find it hard to chat about my feelings and why I have them but I try to explain if I can
love and light,
Katie xxx

dawnylou

Morning everyon - just want to first of all apologise to everyone for being such a !!!!! yesterday. I didn't mean to be offensive. I guess I'm just no good at wording things very well.
I didn't mean what I said in a bad way at all - it wasn't mean to be interpreted as a 'telling off' or anything like that - it was basically something that sort of pulled me round slightly when I was having my darkest moments and helped me to see sense in the way that although I am hurting inside I didn't want to leave those I loved behind to pick up the pieces wondering why things had ended like this, if there was anything they could have done for me, possibly even leaving them feeling the same because of guilt - why had they not noticed or been able to help before it was too late etc
Thinking about how they would cope after I was gone made me see that I really couldn't go ahead.
More so after a young friend killed himself. Seeing his family and the rest of our friends made it more real - I didn't want to be the reason everyone was suffering like this.

tooties wrote: »

hello everyone,
can i ask a somewhat sensitive question to all you folks??

I havent washed my face or hair or changed my jeans and jumper in a week i just realised that today and i havent cleaned my teeth either!! disgusting i know but is this part of my depression or what?
thanks in advance
tooties

Tooties - in all honesty my Fiance sometimes forces me out of bed!
He helps me to get up and will often encourage me to exercise, sometimes working out with me and then we will have a shower. Makes me feel a little better afterwards.

If it wasn't for him I would most likely lie in bed all day.

As a full time worker I often get up quickly brush my hair back and throw some clothes on. As awful as it sounds I will then go to work without having brushed my teeth, washed, hell sometimes I just tie my hair up without even brushing it!

andipandi_2

rose07 wrote: »

andipandi, hi, have you heard from your dd recently? I hope she is doing ok. And hows the decorating going, nearly there? take care x

lol rose,decorating,hmmm wish that was all i was doing!,dd wants to stay out there i believe,just have to wait and see,if shes happy and content well i reckon it would be ok.

Andy

geminilady

tooties wrote: »

hello everyone,

today is the day i have to go and pick up my weekly supply of my anti- depressents and face the all so knowing staff in my local chemist. Yesterday my GP phoned me as the psychiatrist at the day hospital had called her re the OD and change in my meds, although it was lovely of her to call and i appreciated her phoning me i couldnt be bothered with all the quiestions, why, how, etc. No body seems to understand that i have simply had enough of trying to live with this awful illness and that i dont want to go on living if i am going to feel this awful everyday for the rest of my life.
i suppose you have to feel like this to fully understand how i feel at the moment.

today i am going to my best friend house for a natter and lunch so im looking forward to that.
can i ask a somewhat sensitive question to all you folks??

I havent washed my face or hair or changed my jeans and jumper in a week i just realised that today and i havent cleaned my teeth either!! disgusting i know but is this part of my depression or what?
thanks in advance
tooties

Hi Tooties,To answer you question yes,loosing all interest in personal care is one of the symptons of depression and you will see by reading other posts that you are not alone.I understand how you are feeling at the moment it is like being in a deep dark hole without a glimpse of light but you WILL GET BETTER even though at the moment you can't see that.You will NOT feel this bad for the rest of your life it is just how you are feeling now.Hope you have a lovely time at your friends today.

Rain_is_Insane

I didn't actually realise there was this many people out there that suffer from depression, stress and anxiety. I tried to ignore mine for 2 years thinking I was just tired, having a bad day etc. If I broke down in tears in the loo at work someone would just tell me it would be alright and pat me on the back because when they asked me what was wrong...i couldn't tell them...i didn't know myself !! It was only when my mum noticed i'd been wearing the same clothes for a week and couldn't tell her the last time i'd eaten a meal that she dragged me off to the doctor and he diagnosed me and signed me off work. I've been signed off since the beginning of April now and am taking medication for it. I still have more down than up days though. I think the most annoying thing is not knowing how long it's going to last. At least when you get a cold or cut a finger you know it's going to be better in a few days. Untill I was diagnosed myself with this illness i had the most bigotted, obnoxious and downright cruel attitude about it and my philosophy was "If you can't see it then it doesn't exist" Someone was right when they said "Payback's a biatch" lol

I know i don't post a lot anywhere on the board but i DO read things and reading through this thread helps. It helps knowing that someone is going through this with me and taking advice from their posts the next day when they say "well i had a shower, ate some lunch and hauled my !!! outside in the sun and felt better" I immediately go and do that to see if it helps me. Sometimes it helps just typing it out and seeing it in black and white (hence the ramble) so thank you for reading.

Till next time.....take care everyone x

andipandi_2

dammit i'm old(45):mad:

Rain_is_Insane

andipandi wrote: »

dammit i'm old(45):mad:

Wow that actually makes me feel better....i'm 32 and according to my son I'm ancient !!!!!

queensway_boy

andipandi wrote: »

dammit i'm old(45):mad:

a mere sprog