notanotherbl**dydebtdiary by notanothergreyhair

Gemmzie

Yeah they can, ask your GP. I've always put it off but I'm seeing psych in September under Pain Management so might slip it in then. Just wondering, when did you last have them and then come off them? If you don't mind saying.

Not even applied yet! Short listing is next week so fingers crossed for an interview!

notanothergreyhair

jinky67 wrote: »

you any good with spiders?

Am I fook? I'm like a big fairy when it comes to spiders...well, not just then, but you see what I mean.

I hate the little twunting things...they terrify me. Did you read about the dog that died...they suspected it had been bitten by a spider.

notanothergreyhair

Gemmzie wrote: »

Yeah they can, ask your GP. I've always put it off but I'm seeing psych in September under Pain Management so might slip it in then. Just wondering, when did you last have them and then come off them? If you don't mind saying.

Not even applied yet! Short listing is next week so fingers crossed for an interview!

Don't mind saying at all...it was about 11-12 months ago I had my last one - was gradually reducing dosage for some time before then.

May I ask why you put it off? Is there something I should be concerned about before I ask for it?

Burlesque_Babe

notanothergreyhair wrote: »

Did you read about the dog that died...they suspected it had been bitten by a spider.

yes - I saw that - the family won't go back in the house!! Apparently it's a camel spider from Afghanistan and they think it came back in hubby's army kit :eek: :eek: :eek:

jinky67

notanothergreyhair wrote: »

Am I fook? I'm like a big fairy when it comes to spiders...well, not just then, but you see what I mean.:rotfl: :rotfl:

I hate the little twunting things...they terrify me. Did you read about the dog that died...they suspected it had been bitten by a spider.

this was no little thing...it was HUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge:eek: :eek: :eek:
I was sat here freaking out for about an hour
OH caught it this morning:cool:

Gemmzie

notanothergreyhair wrote: »

Don't mind saying at all...it was about 11-12 months ago I had my last one - was gradually reducing dosage for some time before then.

May I ask why you put it off? Is there something I should be concerned about before I ask for it?

Ah right, I was wondering as you said you'd had it before in cycles, if it was SAD.

Just being too pigheaded to admit I needed any help really, didn't want it to affect my job on my medical records. Just silliness really

notanothergreyhair

If I could empty my heart and mind of all they contain, each fragment would be the image of you; they would be shaped like your smile and as beautiful as your eyes. They would be infinite in number.

I remember where we met, in that stuffy little room, all those months ago...I saw, we talked, we laughed, we cried. You looked amazing, you still do. I don't know the precise moment when it happened, perhaps I never will, it doesn't really matter. It is just great that it did.

Like the song 'Imagine', you are perfect. Almost.

jinky67

that is beautiful

notanothergreyhair

notanothergreyhair wrote: »

Very true words SS, as ever.

What would make me happy, well at least happier?...

In no particular order (non-exhaustive too)...

I would stop holding onto bad memories...
I would not owe another individual or institution money...
I would not need my parents for anything
I would have motivation
I would play cricket again if I wanted because I was fit enough
I would have a career and not a bunch of excuses for not yet having one
I would not be 'starting diet/work/etc tomorrow', I would be doing it now
I might have a partner
I would visit new places in the world on holiday
I would not make empty promises
I would not let the smallest thing let me get so damn furious
I would confront something rather than shy away from it

I will add more to this list as and when I think about them

Hmm, it's not very often I post on this diary, is it?

I posted the above some time ago - the green highlighted bits have been achieved (I'm not playing cricket at the moment because of it being winter, but I am definitely fit enough to do so!) The red ones I have made considerable progress with, something I am chuffed about.

erm...that's about it. notanothergreyhair has notgotalottosay tonight for some reason.

notanothergreyhair

Not a lot to say other than;

I have a new pair of shoes (bought for me)
I'm in the best shape of my life
I move in tomorrow