Oh come on! Stake through the heart. A little sunlight. It's like falling off a log"

Buffythedebtslayer

am in essay writing mode atm so money and the rest of my life don't exist!


thanks for the messages XX

WantToBeSE

Good luck with the essay writing Buffy!


Love the 100 happy days thing, I might give that a try!

Buffythedebtslayer

Just popping on to say,


essay writing may just work out.


I watched Stepmom and Letters from Juliet today and oh it is Summer and I want to be IN LOVE and go to Italy.


school work is not working out at all! LOL


So back to the summer fantasy, I would settle for romantic walks through Hyde Park. Although I did meet a guy for a date there once. Another one of those I am six foot tall and fit on paper but short and tubby in a long suspicious looking coat in reality.


So maybe romantic walks along the Thames........................


do any men actually use MSE?? *considers a new as yet untapped dating source*

Buffythedebtslayer

Had to order some clothes.


Clothes don't fit.


Had to order underwear.


Had to look at myself in said items.


Should be writing essay. Am not because I had to come here and tell you all how utterly mortifying the above experience was.


WOW. am ever fat. proper overweight like those people in the programmes who have to lock up their fridges and live on a farm with Jillian.


so yeah. it is a problem.


catch you all later when essay is written.


XX

Buffythedebtslayer

and then I ate chocolate............


hmmm..........cause and effect. Now how could that be applied here then...........let me think...........

Buffythedebtslayer

hello


am back. Am SHATTERED and in the end the essay was quite crap but it is at least finished.


so it is back to normal life checking bank accounts and aiming to declutter and lose weight.


am so tired can't type any more!

in_need_of_direction

Glad you've survived. You've been missed

please-let-me-be-lucky

Good to have you back Xx

Buffythedebtslayer

thanks guys XX the shine has been somewhat taken off by one of my friends being insensitive and in my opinion bloody selfish, as she always is to be fair so I can't for the life of me figure out why it has upset me.


Oh. wait. yes I can, I poured my heart to her and she ignored me. As everything is about her.


still at least the essay is done and I can tick it off the list.


sorry still tired. and now quite upset really.

Buffythedebtslayer

Today I am grateful for my good friends. massively annoyed by my annoying friends and glad I have pets.


The pets thing is principally because I have decided to move the piggies outside. and the dogs are brilliant. and even the hamster and gerbil are good fun. The piggy move won't happen for a while as it involves


am SO EXCITED for holidays. new job, five weeks off and generally new starts and stuff.


Although I do regularly feel like a failure in comparison to my friends (who I love but my God do they not get it!) I feel inside that I am changing.


I may not live a conventional life and I may have wasted time but I see little point in dwelling on that.


SO back to the old plan.


1. finish Masters (nearly there, have to do one more little essay and pray that the most recent one has passed - if not save as much to pay for a repeat - 2900)


2. Save lots of cash. house, holiday, 3 months off.


3. pay off the debt. currently 3790, to do this by the end of the year means paying off 631 each month.


Am being paid less in new job tho........and cutting hours in second job.


Expenses will have to be cut down. And everything will have to sold.


cheap cheap.


4. lose weight. by walking it is free right!


dogs want something gah!


XXX


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