Not a LBM but awareness of heading towards debt crisis

themarsbargirl

Had a funny day with dramatic mood swings today. Hoping I don't have nightmares tonight so I start the day in a better mood tomorrow. Quite a spendy day as I am having dental surgery on friday and I know from the last time that all I'll be able to eat for a week after is tinned custard and lukewarm soup so I bought some custard today as am very panicky about friday.

Paid the minimum off the cap1 card, made some mango jam and sold 1 jar to a friend on fb. So tomorrow the plan is for me to catch a train to the next town over to deliver the jam as Dad can be on call and it will be good to test if I can cope on public transport but all will depend how I am tomorrow.

themarsbargirl

Had a bit of a difficult day. Made it to the next town over and delivered the jam (my friend wasn't in to give me the money but he has reserved the 2nd jar of mango jam and will pay for both when I deliver it) but my anxiety has been through the roof, spendy day but all within budget in appropriate budgets.

Had an exam at uni tonight, the first time I've been since the crash of mebtal health in march, it was awful anxiety wise and I doubt that I've scraped a pass but me and Dad worked it out and even if I fail it, i should still pass the module overall provided that I scrape a pass on my second essay.

Made a plum and fig chutney when I got home which has settled me somewhat.

themarsbargirl

When setting my targets for the month I decided not to count jam spends from jam fund so this is NSD3 for april.
Very anxious about surgery in the morning, made 3 batches of jam today.
Antsy anxious girl tonight!

themarsbargirl

Survived the surgery, very sore mouth now and already bored of only being able to eat tinned soup and custard and jelly. I miss real food!

In my jam profits envelope I'm up to another percent so must get round to transferring thatto the credit card then I can colour another square in.

May have spent £166 on 800-1000 jam jars tonight, if I don't pass the food standards agency inspection will just split them up into smaller lots and sell on, will easily make the money back.

Made a strawberry and passionfruit jam today.

themarsbargirl

themarsbargirl wrote: »

Thinking about some realistic goals for April;
1) Track my NSD (jam bits from jam fund doesn't count)
2) [STRIKE]Make an extra 2% paid off card
[/STRIKE] 1% paid, 1% to go

Paid off the £20 jam profits just now, so off to colour in another square on my chart. This means in total I have paid off 9% off the capital one card, waiting impatiently for the survey money to hit my bank account so that I can pay that off too and will have hit my 2% for the month, and also have coloured in a whole row of little squares. It's the small things

Woke up feeling crappy this morning, second morning in a row that I've had to take my morning dose of meds as well as the evening dose. Bleurgh! Anxiety sucks!

themarsbargirl

Been very tired today but Mum says I still got a lot done. Managed a little bit of uni reading before my brain fried. It's so frustrating to not be able to get my brain to fire on all it's cylindees and function as normal!
Been playing around with labels for my preserves and sent an email with a load of questions to trading standards and a copy of example labels for her to check that they meet legal requirements.

Made a Plum and Fig Preserve today (calling it jam just creates too much hassle!).

Spendy day, started on next weeks budgets a day early which is a lil naughty but needed to be done!.

themarsbargirl

themarsbargirl wrote: »

Thinking about some realistic goals for April;
1) Track my NSD (jam bits from jam fund doesn't count)
2) [STRIKE]Make an extra 2% paid off card[/STRIKE] Done!!!!! New goal to add to this is to make another 1% this month

Some, not all but enough, of the survey money has cleared so paid another % off the capital 1 card.....making it now 10% that I've paid off! woooo! A whole line of my chart coloured in!

themarsbargirl

Very unhappy tonight. Got the news that my step-grandmother is in a coma in hospital and unlikely to survive. Coupled with Dad going away tomorrow my BPD is in full force tonight and I just can't deal with anything else.

Stop the world, I want to get off.

Life just feels too much right now.

themarsbargirl

It's been a difficult few days, My step-grandmother sadly passed away, and I had a letter from the benefits office saying I wasn't entitled to ESA because I'm a full-time student (I'm not, I'm part-time). But today I got home from a weekend at my brothers (which adds 2NSD bringing me to 5 NSD in April so far) to a letter from them saying I was entitled to it.....right hand meet left hand!

Some more cashback and survey moneys had credited meaning that....

themarsbargirl wrote: »

Thinking about some realistic goals for April;
1) Track my NSD (jam bits from jam fund doesn't count)
[STRIKE]2) Make an extra 2% paid off card[/STRIKE] Paid 3% new goal is another 1% this month

Feeling a bit better today, mostly because the ESA is a big weight off and I finished (well, kinda) I submitted an essay at uni which means uni is done for this year I am just hoping to pass this module as so much has gone on during this one semester at uni (death of a grandparent, mental illness, being fired, nervous breakdown, surgery, daeth of step-grandparent). Next academic year simply cannot be as much of a train wreck as this one! If only because I have no more grandparents left to die!

themarsbargirl

Funny day today, had a really bad night where I didn't really sleep so tired, low and grumpy today. Did a couple of surveys, signed up for some freebies, made a branston-style pickle.
Some small spends today.
Meh