My Debt Diary, the ramblings of JCD

JCD_Capulet

Sea - I've got alot of personal worries just now which could explain why I took a funny turn last night (I'll explain more at the bottom of this entry). For all the wrong he has ever done, which actually gets alot worse than emotionally screwing me up, he's always denied it.

Anyway. Thanks alot for your words, Sea. It helps to hear this kind of thing when I get no encouragement really outside of MSE x

Hypno - you're an absolute gem. I was reading through the PM you sent me and started to cry. Although I've been emotional enough, I've not been physically able to summon a tear since the stepdad left in March. Not that I'd cry for him, hell no. I'll be working on what you told me to and hopefully it will help alot more.

And damn tootin' we'll have a launch party!
Thanks alot hon xxx

Shineyhappy - I'm sorry to hear you experienced the same with your dad, if something has come of this it is knowing that both you and I are not alone in how we were treated. We can lean on eachother if and when it's required. Thanks alot for making a comment and I wish you all the success in the world when you write your book!

***any guys reading might want to skip away elsewhere, I'm about to talk about lady things***

One of my personal problems just now is that I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. I'd gone to the doctor to ask her what was wrong with me because I lactate during 'that time of the month'. I knew I wasn't pregnant so hence the worry. I need to go back for tests of some sort to find out why I do this. Also, I've not had a 'that time of the month' now for four months running. Again, I've been tested and I'm not pregnant. Instead the doctor told me that because I've been on chemical contraceptives for so long it's likely that I'll not get the monthly thing anymore.

Basicly, becuase I've been using chemicals to keep myself from pregnancy, it has had a detrimental effect on my fertility. Pretty ironic, eh? It's not the cas that I want children right now or any time soon, but on the same hand I don't want the ability to have children taken away from me.....which it has been.

Ok, I know that was a major "Too much info!" moment, but I thougt I'd share my woes which might also help explain why I go wobbly so often.

P.S
Sold an item on fee-bay for £11.50 today x
Total in paypal now stands at £113.58

x

hypno06

So your wobbles are pretty understandable, and if you have to wobble on here, then wobble away!! I wobble aplenty, but that is more down to too much chocolate on my fat backside

We are here when you need us....hell we are here when you don't - there is no escaping us :rotfl:

Good news on fee bay - a pretty good total building up there. I have one item currently with a bid of 99p - still not likely to get rich

Seaxwyn

hi joanne

sorry to hear about your troubles.

Make sure you get good advice on the medical problem, and that means more than just one chat with a GP.

You are still young and there might be ways of flushing those chemicals and their effects out of your system. I know that acupuncture for one thing is very effective at lady stuff and it can be available on the NHS.

Also there are other reasons why the 'time of the month' can stop - stress, losing weight, make sure to think of other reasons as well as the contraception.

If it's any encouragement I was on a horrible strong pill when a teenager which was later banned as it had made lots of people infertile - but I was lucky not to be affected, or else I recovered from the damage.

It sounds like you have loads on your plate, and with your mum and sister moving in soon you wont get a lot of peace. Is there any way you can give yourself a break and do something you enjoy.

Take care of yourself

Shineyhappy

I wouldnt worry about too much info on here!

Big hugs to you, you sound like you need them!

If I were you, I would come off any contraception that includes chemicals and just try and detox yourself to give you body a chance to heal itself. Try not to worry as no doubt being stressed will just make things worse.

I think you really need to spend some quality time relaxing and just letting yourself unwind and chill out. Maybe plan a night of treats like a candle lit bubble bath and a nice dinner and some chocolate - for the seratonin ofc!! Read your favourite book or watch your fav film and just veg under a blanket and unwind.

I hope you feel better soon

JCD_Capulet

hypno06 wrote: »

So your wobbles are pretty understandable, and if you have to wobble on here, then wobble away!! I wobble aplenty, but that is more down to too much chocolate on my fat backside

We are here when you need us....hell we are here when you don't - there is no escaping us :rotfl:

Good news on fee bay - a pretty good total building up there. I have one item currently with a bid of 99p - still not likely to get rich

:rotfl: you lot are amazing, you're all helping me so much I couldn't even begin to convey just how much! The fee-bay is doing well, and considering I've been selling my own personal bits and bobs it leaves me quite optomistic about retailing there 99p is still 99p in your pocket hon, but by the looks of your MB totals you'll be rich before you know it! Good luck with the auction x

Seaxwyn wrote: »

hi joanne

sorry to hear about your troubles.

Make sure you get good advice on the medical problem, and that means more than just one chat with a GP.

You are still young and there might be ways of flushing those chemicals and their effects out of your system. I know that acupuncture for one thing is very effective at lady stuff and it can be available on the NHS.

Also there are other reasons why the 'time of the month' can stop - stress, losing weight, make sure to think of other reasons as well as the contraception.

If it's any encouragement I was on a horrible strong pill when a teenager which was later banned as it had made lots of people infertile - but I was lucky not to be affected, or else I recovered from the damage.

It sounds like you have loads on your plate, and with your mum and sister moving in soon you wont get a lot of peace. Is there any way you can give yourself a break and do something you enjoy.

Take care of yourself

Thanks Sea, I have lost alot of weight and stress alot too. In total I've lost 4.5st since splitting with my ex a few years ago. Back then I was 14.5st and now I'm hovering around 10. The doctor told me that for my height I could loose another 1st and stay healthy, any more than that and I'll become ill. I've no intention of making myself any more ill than I am already, silly doctor.
contraceptive wise, Ive only ever been on depoprovera and implanon. I had my implanon changed in June so that'll be in for the next three years. But I'll keep on at the doctor and see what she says. I'm glad your system wasn't affected/recovered from that pill!
I'll likely take off by myself for a day or two once I see a little payment from my fee-bay venture comming in. Maybe the sea air and a little sun will sort me out nicely

bloomin chemicals, for now my chemical intake shall be a wee dose of nicotine and caffine before heading out to post the fee-bay parcel.

Speek soon ladies xx

hypno06

Sun?? SUN??????? What part of the country are you in We haven't seen the sun for months down here :rotfl:

JCD_Capulet

It is absolutley BURNING up here, even my hair is sweating! I'll try to encourage the sun to go south a bit (if just to stop me getting sweaty, eeugh). So I'm going to jump out to the garden and do a few bits and bobs, that always helps me relax.

Oh, and I got payment for a necklace sold on livejournal, so I've updated my sig with another £3.

toodles the noo xx

JCD_Capulet

I've been spending a few hours looking into getting myself a website set-up. I've already decided on a domain name (partly MSE inspired btw ) and I'm busy scouting for someone who sells pre made websites with hosting, private email address and payment options i.e shopping cart & checkout. It's doing my head in but is still fun.

The reason I want to get myself a website is to link it to ebay within auctions giving folk the chance to look at other items with the option of buying them from the site. The upside of getting buyers to the site would be less ebay fees since I'll be selling highly priced items. Plus if I get enough traffic to the site by folk linking through ebay, google stats would end up picking my website up and it would be easily found by folk doing searches.

The hunt continues x

hypno06

I love it when you do all this initial stuff - all so exciting! My tips would be to find out your local "WEETU" group - it is information and training (usually free) for women wanting to set up in business. Business Link is also another good one to get freebie help. Both should be found by doing a search on google and they will provide you with a wealth of information and help.

pania

good luck joanne!!!

Sorry to hear about the health probs, you really are having it chucked at you. But i kow with your steely resolve you'll make it through. PM me if you ever ned to have a rant.

Big Hugs
P
xx