Depression II

slowlyfading

Good morning everyone.
Thank you for your kind words of support. Unfortunately, I couldn't hold out all night and have cut this morning. Now my wrists are sore and its my own fault I know. It helped for about 10 minutes like normal, and then it just hurts and now I have to figure out how to cover it all up. -sigh-
hope everyone has a good day.
sf x x

imported_goldie

Tiff, thank you so much for your reply, you put so much effort into it. Would you be my therapist?? You do talk a lot of sense, just need akickstart to act on it. For now i am staying with the omega 3 and if they dont work will go back on the ant-d's. They did actually work in that they stopped suicidal thoughts etc but the night sweats are a nightmare. Will see how it goes. Would be more inclined to see counsellor if i didnt have a hearing problem . When i went to the docs last year I asked to see a therapist specialising in hearing loss. She looked into it and said they didnt have one in my area but the "normal" therapist at my practice felt she could help. I made the appointment with her but when i got there she came out and called my name three times before i heard it. I knew then it was a non starter if she knew i was hoh but didnt make the effort to raise her voice. She also had a foreign accent (nightmare for hoh folks) so made my excuses and left! It ishard to make an effort to go out when i know i will encounter difficulties with hearing people.

SF - dont really know what to say but send lots of hugsto you.

geminilady

slowlyfading wrote: »

Good morning everyone.
Thank you for your kind words of support. Unfortunately, I couldn't hold out all night and have cut this morning. Now my wrists are sore and its my own fault I know. It helped for about 10 minutes like normal, and then it just hurts and now I have to figure out how to cover it all up. -sigh-
hope everyone has a good day.
sf x x

Hi sf,sorry you did not manage to hold out.I suppose people who do not sf can never really understand why you do it but this forum does not judge anyone.Is it really worth the marks/scars for ten minutes?Have you tried holding crushed ice,using a rubber band ect? As to covering it up i suppose it depends on the marks.Maybe someone will have some advice but it must be harder in the warm wether when you cannot wear jumpers/long sleeved top ect.Hope today is a better day for you and here is another hug,thing i am too old to get the hang of the smileys ect.(((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))

geminilady

imported_goldie wrote: »

Tiff, thank you so much for your reply, you put so much effort into it. Would you be my therapist?? You do talk a lot of sense, just need akickstart to act on it. For now i am staying with the omega 3 and if they dont work will go back on the ant-d's. They did actually work in that they stopped suicidal thoughts etc but the night sweats are a nightmare. Will see how it goes. Would be more inclined to see counsellor if i didnt have a hearing problem . When i went to the docs last year I asked to see a therapist specialising in hearing loss. She looked into it and said they didnt have one in my area but the "normal" therapist at my practice felt she could help. I made the appointment with her but when i got there she came out and called my name three times before i heard it. I knew then it was a non starter if she knew i was hoh but didnt make the effort to raise her voice. She also had a foreign accent (nightmare for hoh folks) so made my excuses and left! It ishard to make an effort to go out when i know i will encounter difficulties with hearing people.

SF - dont really know what to say but send lots of hugsto you.

HI Goldie just a quick thought could the night sweats be down to the menapause and not the omega 3?I know you are a similar age to me.I have not started mine yet but know night sweats is one of the things to look forward to lol.

Tulip

slowlyfading wrote: »

Good morning everyone.
Thank you for your kind words of support. Unfortunately, I couldn't hold out all night and have cut this morning. Now my wrists are sore and its my own fault I know. It helped for about 10 minutes like normal, and then it just hurts and now I have to figure out how to cover it all up. -sigh-
hope everyone has a good day.
sf x x

I am so sorry SF,I am out this evening to a friends birthday party and I am going to have a nice time

*hugs*

Katie xxx

Tulip

:hello: everyone,

hope you are all alright? I am fine off out tonight to a friends birthday party and I am going to have a nice time,Had a good day today,Had coffee out at a cafe,went and had lunch out as well and went to a church to see friends,went for a walk in the sunshine and got a lolly,then popped to another friends house to see her for a hour so I have been really busy today

chat soon,

lots of love and light,

Katie xxx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Tiff, What lovely replies you write I hope that you are OK and looking after yourself.

Think how proud you will be of yourself when the trip is over. I really do hope you enjoy it while you are there and most importantly relax Just think of yourself for the whole duration.

lol @ your son. Awww bless him. It sounds like the weeks you are away will be a very big learning curve for him I'm sure he will be fine though.

Tiff, you definately 100% deserve this break!!!

(((HUGS)))

This might sound like a silly question but what is a mental health advocate?

Unfortunately I don't have anyone that I can take with me to any meetings that I attend. They have always asked me to bring a friend/relative but I just don't have anyone that I can ask

I think I will do as you suggested, write it all down and give it to them. I think it will be easier to do it that way. Whenever it's talking I tend to say very little even if I've got it all my head and really do want to tell them.

I have attended all appointments that have been given to me. They just don't seem to know how to help me and I don't know what to do to help myself either.

She didn't give any reasons. She just agreed with what I said and then made the comment that I had been with the team a long time now e.t.c and I interpreted that as meaning it's time you left us now. She really is useless. A nice person but provides no real help. Agreeing, nodding, sitting there and staring at me doesn't help me in the slightest :mad: Basically I don't think she knows what I need and I don't either.

I had a CPN while in hospital and for about 2 weeks after I left but then he left and I got a social worker instead. He was actually alright. I think he would have been quite a good support.

They are fully aware that I have strong intentions of killing myself. You would think after 4 suicide attempts this year alone they would do something. I'm not actually scared of dying but sometimes I am scared of myself and the thoughts that I have if that makes any sense. It's like they are beyond my control.

Thank you for your post hun Look after yourself (((HUGS)))

slowlyfading, (((HUGS))) I'm sorry to hear that you felt so low. I hope the cuts aren't too bad hun. Have you cleaned them e.t.c? Are they deep enough to require treatment? It's always the way isn't it, cutting helps initially but then you're just left with having to cover them up so as no-one else notices

I've found bracelets to be my best friend at covering up cuts. If they were really bad I'd wear a tubigrip or alternatively I'd wear a long sleeved top/jumper. Last Summer I did this and just had to pretend I wasn't hot.

How are you feeling now?

imported_goldie, That is really poor treatment that you have received. You should make a complaint to the practice manager. However, I would go back to see your GP again. Make him/her aware of what happened the last time and insist that you see a specialist in hearing loss not just anyone. (((HUGS)))

Tulip, I hope you have a lovely evening. Enjoy yourself

andipandi_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

Good morning everyone.
Thank you for your kind words of support. Unfortunately, I couldn't hold out all night and have cut this morning. Now my wrists are sore and its my own fault I know. It helped for about 10 minutes like normal, and then it just hurts and now I have to figure out how to cover it all up. -sigh-
hope everyone has a good day.
sf x x

SF thinking of you



Andy

andipandi_2

for my friends here

Karrie

Just popping in to say :wave: to everyone and hope that you are all ok.