Trying for a Baby Part 9

picklekin

*crosses fingers and eyes for loulou*

loulou123

.....BFN - as I pretty much expected.

I know I'm not 100% out until AF arrives (especially as I don't know when I ov) but I know realistically I'm out again this month.
You'd think seeing BFNs would get easier each month, but it doesn't

Birdie85

Just a little word of advice for Alice: don't stop TTC for the sake of someone else's wedding! I was *sure* that I was going to have a massive bump or newborn with me at my friend's wedding last August. It didn't happen and I'm so glad I never stopped trying 'just in case'. Heck, another of my best friends is getting married next year and I'm still going to be trying every month even if it means I'm due on her wedding day; I've stopped trying to time things perfectly and she will understand if it did happen!

Hope your OH is feeling better soon Squirrel, sounds nasty, poor lad!

I've been hit with the 'No 2013 baby' blues too. I was hoping for a 2012er... now I'd feel lucky to have a 2014er! I always seem to get really despondent around this time in my cycle and think 'What's the point?'.

Last night my Mum upset me a little (totally unwittingly as she was actually being lovely!); she has collected Steiff bears for as long as I remember and said she's going to give one to my brother's baby but wanted me to help her pick it out as she'd be giving my babies bears too and wanted me to have first dibs. I thought that once my nephew was here my parents would be less desperate for me to have a baby but if anything it's made them more so and I hate feeling like I'm letting them down.

Got everything crossed for Code and Becca that AF stays the heck away this month (and for a good 9 months after that...).

picklekin

Boo sorry

becca0417

Bfn booo

teaandcakeordeath

Birdie85 wrote: »

I thought that once my nephew was here my parents would be less desperate for me to have a baby but if anything it's made them more so and I hate feeling like I'm letting them down.

^^^ This could've been written by me. We beat ourselves up so much on this hideous experience. Be kind to yourself Birdie. You've done everything in your power to conceive [STRIKE](and more than most with that weight loss)[/STRIKE] and you shouldn't be so down on yourself. You've not let anyone down- your parents are probably very proud of the way you've dealt with ttc, your nephew, your weight loss and all of the other things you've coped with.

[STRIKE]ETA: Hope OH's scan goes well. xx[/STRIKE]

ETA: Am a biff who can't remember names... Doh...

codemonkey

CD1 . I was so hopeful this month, did everything right, BD'd at the perfect time, used conceive plus, fertility self massage, no caffeine, gentle exercise, took my vitamins, very little alcohol and still nothing.

This month I'm going to get drunk every night, drink loads of coffee, do strenuous exercise and not take my vitamins. Probably still won't get pregnant but at least I'll have fun.

Birdie85

Think you've got me mixed up with BigZippy TCD!

Thanks for the nice words though, it's just hard when you realise that there are more people than just you and your OH affected by the whole TTC journey.

Huge hugs Code... I was so hopeful for you! Have an AF Pity Party this weekend full of lots of bad stuff to make yourself feel a bit better.

firefly369

Amyfoo - I would totally havea chat with the registrar...perks of the job;)

Loulou - BFN only get harder for me as time ticks by. I was all enthusiastic when we first started, poas from 9days past ov. Now I only test if af is late and my temps are still high. It gets more difficult each month. Best of luck to you. Hope its your turn next.

Alice - I agree with Birdie, don't give up a chance for someone elses wedding.

Birdie - That kind of family pressure must make the journey even more difficult. I feel all the time that I am letting down my OH, luckily no one else knows we are trying.

Code - BIG Hugs and cuddles for CD1. I also had a very hopeful month...clomid, early ovulation, great temp spike, well timed bding and late af. Makes it so much harder to accept when you did everything right and still no bfp. This journey is soooo unfair.

codemonkey

I know what you mean about disappointing family Birdie. My parents used to hassle me all the time, then I got drunk with a rather indiscrete family member and it kind of came tumbling out and she offered to have a baby for me (very sweet but she didn't give up smoking with her kids) and I think she must have said something to my mum because she hasnt mentioned it since. In a way that's almost worse because it feels like she's given up.

Also I was born to older parents (my mum was almost 40 when they conceived me and the doctors told her she was too old and tried to make her have an abortion ) and I remember as a kid how conscious I was that they might die. And I've noticed a steep decline in them lately, especially my dad. Sometime without us noticing, they got old and they won't be able to spend .as much time with my kids because they get tired now.

My age keeps flashing up in my head too. I know 33 isn't old and my mum managed to have me but I also know my sister went into perimenopause in her late 30s.

I'm off work today so have some bad food and Pepsi max. Take that stupid body. If you'd co-operated I'd have given you vegetables and protein.