When I asked for luck I didn't mean the bad variety!!!

debtfreewannabe321

Did you get results from the Dr's, lucky???? I missed it if you did

I'm so sorry you are feeling so so down it's no wonder really with everything going on. You are the one holding it all together. Pains in tummy, stress?? When i've had a particularly bad day I always end up with a tummy ache. I hope you get a better night sleep tonight, and I hope you are feeling a little brighter tomorrow. Lots of love, hugs and positive thoughts being sent your way (((((hugs))))) xxxx

please-let-me-be-lucky

Thank you so much for all your messages, both private and on this thread. It means so much that you are all there for me when I have a meltdown :A.

I am seriously thinking about my Beavers role. It is the easiest thing to back off from in terms of what I'm juggling, but it still isn't easy as potentially the group may fold without a leader. Will need to give it some proper thought.

DS1 and I have tonight agreed (and typed out to display) some ground rules. He has a toddler-esqe reward chart, and a 3 strikes and you are punished rule. Hopefully that will help. He is just so selfish (I do know he is only 10!) and although I do everything I can to keep him happy it's never enough. The latest thing is him wanting to go on a school trip costing £195. I said he hasn't behaved well enough recently for me to want to spend that kind of money on him when the rest of us could have lots of days out or even nights away for that. He then had his tantrum rather than discussing it with me or thinking of ways to change my mind positively :mad:.

I still haven't called the Carer's Centre to register. I really must do that as I know they offer relaxation services etc and I could benefit from that right now.

When I had my meltdown DH was tinkering with his bicycle in the dinning room and was totally oblivious. DS2 kept asking me for something despite me crying so hard I couldn't answer him and DS1 ran away and hid in his room. It wasn't pretty .

DH nearly shushed a brick when he saw the state of me 10 mins later! He did help out from then on in though.

Lots of love
From a much calmer Lucky Xx

please-let-me-be-lucky

debtfreewannabe321 wrote: »

Did you get results from the Dr's, lucky???? I missed it if you did

I'm so sorry you are feeling so so down it's no wonder really with everything going on. You are the one holding it all together. Pains in tummy, stress?? When i've had a particularly bad day I always end up with a tummy ache. I hope you get a better night sleep tonight, and I hope you are feeling a little brighter tomorrow. Lots of love, hugs and positive thoughts being sent your way (((((hugs))))) xxxx

I rang about the results yesterday but was told by the receptionist that although they were back, they were with the Dr who would ring me if there was anything to discuss. I haven't heard anything since, but will ring again tomorrow afternoon if I haven't heard by then. Don't want to assume I haven't heard because there was nothing to tell, rather than it being overlooked.

Pains could well be stress. I've also not had much appetite the last few days and actually found it hard to swallow food earlier on in the week. It's probably all linked Xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Lucky, please think seriously about giving up beavers !!!!!!.


the hassle of that on top two kids, a job and your OH plus all the shopping, cleaning, MIL, family, life. just too many pulls.


Christ woman, I can't cope with my life and I don't have kids.


Life really isn't meant to be like this. Give yourself more time. You are centrally important to so many people in your family and life X.


massive hugs XXXX

please-let-me-be-lucky

Thanks Buffles. Hugs to you too Xx

liltdiddylilt

Very happy to read the much calmer second post Lucky.

But please do not think that that is all and put it back in its box. You need to get on top of the situations that are causing you to feel so bl00dy alone and unsupported.

Beavers may well fall without you, but not for long. Some parent or other who actually has a child benefiting from all that you do will offer their time up, even if it is only in the short term. Send out a note with the kids. Ask if anyone is willing to take over for a minimum period of time that you are happy with.

Everyone is right, do chase up the doctors and if the answer is that nothing is wrong with you physically then ask what precisely is making you feel this way and what they are going to do about it. Bring on the tears, doctors hate them just as much as any other person.

DS1 - I am glad that you scared him and he ran away. He has learnt a lesson there, big time. DS2 is obviously oblivious but in time he will learn too. Maybe set up a similar chart for him. Rewards for being good only rather than being the fantastic self-sacrificing all giving earth mummy you are day to day. I know you make them work for it, but make them work harder to appreciate all that you do!

DH - wish he had seen the initial meltdown, maybe he would have learnt a stronger lesson too. But I am glad he has chipped in and helped.

Sending you lots and lots of hugs. You don't deserve the carp you get piled on your shoulders my dear. xx

JustAboutThere

please-let-me-be-lucky wrote: »

I am seriously thinking about my Beavers role. It is the easiest thing to back off from in terms of what I'm juggling, but it still isn't easy as potentially the group may fold without a leader. Will need to give it some proper thought.

Yes, the Beavers group may possibly fold without Lucky. However, I'm really worried that our Lucky may fold if you continue with it.

The crying / meltdown was most likely your body trying to tell you "STOP" - or at least, slow down!

As ever, take care of yourself xx

Knit_Witch

Lucky if you have a total breakdown it won't only be beavers that hasn't got a leader, your family will be without you, your kids won't know what is going on and your DH will need someone else to provide 24 hour care! For flips sake woman you are the glue that holds your family together, look after YOU!

millionaire_in_training

Aww Lucky sometimes a good old wail is good for the soul. Not a bad thing for all those males to see that you have a breaking point as well.

Just to cheer you up, I have twice had pains in my side (right hand) once was gallstones and once kidney stones there you go..............that'll have cheered you up now :rotfl: sorry xx

please-let-me-be-lucky

Oh yes MiT, I'm cheered right up now! :rotfl:. Tummy pains haven't been so bad today, however DH has complained of pains a couple of times so perhaps it's some kind of bug (or I've poisoned us :eek:).

Thank you all once again for your lovely supportive comments and PMs. You all really do mean a lot to me and all speak a lot of sense.

So, today has been better.

It was lovely and sunny so we went to the park this morning. That kind of thing always chills me out and DS2 had a lovely time. It was almost completely empty as most kids were at school, so he enjoyed having the run of the place.

This afternoon MiL did a super kind thing and sent me to the hairdressers, her treat :T. It's given me such a boost as I'm not only less scared to look in a mirror, but it meant I got 2 hours 'by myself' as she looked after DH and DS2 for me :j.