MOOLOO'S continuing saga Part 4

Savvy_sewing

Well I am not sleeping very well at all. Struggling to go back to sleep once I wake up to go to the loo. And thats without having anything to drink for several hours before I go to bed!. So no change in my body clock there!.
DGD is as enthusiastic to get to school as yesterday. Thats good.
hoping to have a closer to home day today. Too much running around yesterday, and it tires me out.
Hoping to do a bit of housework, as its building up on me again. Did download some Tasks, from some american blog, to get me enthusiastic. Some 20 day challenge. However I am 10 days behind as I only just found it. See if it helps me or not. haha!
The carers visited Twin1 and are planning on starting to see her on Monday for 3 hours, and Wednesday for 3 hours, Then it would be Fridays, but for a while thats not possible, as Twin1 is going to be at my house, helping to take DGD to school etc until we get a nursery place for DGD2.
Twin2's place was not looking very brilliant again. Told DS when I took him home that he must just grit his teeth and clear up, or he will have to live with the mess!. I know its not all his mess, but if he wants to live there, then he will have to just picth in.

Savvy_sewing

Think I did too much walking and gardening over the last few days. My back is very sore/achey. Lower back, so its not my normal back troubles, its lack of use! And probably walking with flat shoes, not suitable really. Too flat. Oh well.
Off to collect a Microwave that I won on ebay for £1.20!!! Thanks to a link from Frugal Queens blog, I went through a different search engine. Have been wanting to get one for biggest of mooloo for a while.
The sun is trying to shine, so I hope it succeeds.
Have a good day. x

Savvy_sewing

Well where has the weekend gone? Time is flying past me since I got home. Spent the afternoon in the garden, weeding and tidying up the shed, putting away DGD's summer toys etc.
Looking forward to tomorrow when she goes to school. Her first day of Lunches. Still has to be collected at 1.10 though. Another week and she will be full time. She is happy at the moment, hope that she carries on that way!.
I am going to aim to attack some clutter tomorrow. Working my way around the drawers in the front room. I realised sitting here the other day that all the drawers in the sideboards etc were now all "junk" drawers, and so are the cupboards. So its wasted space I badly need to claim back.
I am a bit too tired to do it today. Got aches and pains and I really dont think that I can be bothered tonight.

supermezzo

I'm a great fan of 'advert' tidying, Mooloo. Just watch what you want, then do three mins of tidying/sorting in the adverts. I get loads more done that way - and get to watch good programmes without the adverts lol!

minimoneysaver

I did the drawers in my desk the other day. I messed about for a few weeks last time, moving items around. Instead, this time I tipped out all of the drawers into a pile, sorted lots and put tons in the bin and then assigned different drawers for different items:
stationary
bills
instructions etc
envelopes

Savvy_sewing

Well I emptied the drawers, one by one, taking things out of the drawer, and laying it on the floor. The rubbish straight into the bin. Then I did the next drawer etc etc. I had piles of things then. Buttons, ribbons, jewellry, pens, chalk, cards i wanted to keep, cards for sending etc.
Then I took the jewellry and makeup stuff up to my room, and buttons etc into the sewing box etc etc. I have now only got things in 2 drawers! So I have 4 for using better.
I only have about 20 more minutes before I have to go to collect DGD and so I am going to just have a quick catch up on here.
Two of my shopping orders have been delivered, and one more due to come this afternoon. Cupboards and fridge/freezer will be bursting at the seams. Hopefully it will stop me impulse buying when I go to collect a few bits and not come out with £30 worth of stuff when I went in for a milk and bread!.
The rest of the place looks a mess still, so the clean up will be taking me quite a while. But I thought that if I start on the drawers and cupboards then there will actually be room in them to put things away when i start on whats lurking...if that makes sense.

Jo4

Mooloo wrote: »

But I thought that if I start on the drawers and cupboards then there will actually be room in them to put things away when i start on whats lurking...if that makes sense.

Good idea! I need to do the same but if I could ever get the phone to stop ringing/texting and people to stop visiting I would have some me time to do the things needs done! That's of course when I am well enough!

Mooloo, we will get there though small steps as they say!

minimoneysaver

I managed to get my filing sorted when I was on hold with British Gas....20 odd minutes later, filing done and problem sorted with British Gas.

Savvy_sewing

DGD has managed to trash the front room since she came in from school. The biggest mess I think the room has ever been in!. Just as well I hadnt blitzed in here only the drawers or I would be commiting murder!.
I did a recipe suggested by the Mysupermarket website. Was surprised as it had a couple of ingredients that I havent tried or didnt like when I was younger. But I gave it ago, and really enjoyed it. chorizo and butterbeans. Cost turned out to be around £2.50 for the meal for us. Bit more than I would like if i want to start the savings again, but I have enough chorizo to make another meal with, and a large cabbage to use up, as I only used a few of the outside leaves.
I am still tired. I hope I sleep better tonight! Its a bit cooler so that may help.
Tea was over early with DGD hungry dispite her school lunches, but I think it will mean that I can "con" her into an early night.

Savvy_sewing

Had twin2 here last night to help me with DGD today. She came with us to the school so she knew where to go to collect DGD today. The other Mums at the school thought that she was her sister. They really are so alike.
Tomorrow its the Mum's turn to do the honours and stop over so that someone can take and collect DGD from school on Friday.
I had my hair done yesterday, and I am feeling quite "fabbed". I had my councilling today. Been a few weeks as he was on a course, and I had my holiday.
I am concerned about the future for us here in the house. I had told DGD that this would be our "forever home", it being the 40th time that I had moved in my life. However with DS moving out and living with his sister, it means that technically we are now in Under occupancy. This will mean that we will be taxed 14% off of my housing benefit that I currently receive. That will amount to around £100-110 a month that I will need to find out of the benefits that I have coming in. Its more of an incentive to get and stay fitter, and to try and get a job. Moving again is scaring me. There was an interview with the local housing on the radio today, and they are trying to downsize families, and move them into smaller properties. I really feel rather deflaited. There would be no way that we would get such a huge garden again. Also there would be no room for me to sew from. Or the space to build a workshop if I did get a business going. All of this was going around in my head. Along with all the various issues of the twins and DS going around in my head. Even Biggest of Mooloo's is having problems, and is struggling since her partner left her. So my support still gets spread around, and so does the spare cash!. I dont have spare cash! So things get tighter. I have to stop helping them some how. I thought I had for a while, but slowly it seems I have slipped back into helping them, and its mounting up again. Twin1 rang up this afternoon, while I was having a rest, asking for me to transfer £10 to her. Twin2 had answered the phone and told her that Mum doesnt have anymoney her self, that I only had £20 myself. I had mentioned that was all that was in my main account this morning. I was worried that I had got so close to the overdraft!. I did send her back with some bread/milk/cheese/ham and said that they could have something to eat at least. Tomorrow twin2 gets her benefits, so hopefully between them they will then play borrowing from each other, as they did while I was away.

At councilling the talk moved around alot. Like my brain does. The thought of why I am going around in circles and not getting myself organised to work/try to work. The fact that I am worried about loosing the house, or even the thought of moving. My relationships, the holiday. You name it. I was all over the place.
He said that I had the potential to thrive, and that I had a good business head, and that I should believe in myself better, and that perhaps this new bedroom tax, would be the way to give me the Kick that I need to get going. Perhaps the Universe was telling me its time for a change. But I am scared of the thought of having to move, or the thought of failure etc and never get my act together. he pointed out that of course I would fail. That everyone fails at some things, but that you just keep getting up, and trying again. That a footballer doesnt always get the goal, he has to keep trying. then when he does get goals he is hailed as a good footballer. But he failed on many attempts. I hadnt thought of it like that.
Maybe I am at that crossroads now. Although all I need to do is make a small change, and the future could be very different. He said that perhaps I should look at the 2 bedroomed options. Even if it is to rule them out, and know that I want to stay here. I should be open to change and see where it takes me. He said that I was very good at adapting. Well I suppose he is right there, as I have had to adapt so many times. You just have to have followed me on here for a while to know that.
I doubt I will ever change, to the effect that the family will not be important to me. I will always try to be there for them, dispite sometimes wishing that I could just walk away.
I have a lot to think about.
DGD has had 3 major tantrums today. One of them when I was driving back from dropping twin2 off. She kicked the back of my seat, with such force that I feel as if I have whip lash! my neck hasnt felt this bad in a very long time. I ended up doing an emergency stop! Thank goodness there was nobody behind me. I am afraid I shouted and swore at her! Not good, but she hurt and scared the life out of me. Her screaming blue murder at me, as I wouldnt let her go to the Pub for a drink! (Where DS works on occasions). I am not going to be dictated to by a 4year old! And I do not give in to tantrums. I usually try and talk her round after having walked away and let her get on with it. But on occasion she really does test me. Today was one of them. Really testing.
She is just having her dinner, and then she is going to be going to bed. I fear that I will probably be going as well. With as many of my pain killers as my prescription allows!
Tomorrow I am finally at home most of the day. In the afternoon I do have to collect twin1, but thats not until tea time.
Hopefully I can get a bit more organised. I am slowly reclaiming cupboards and drawers, and work surfaces!. I aim to do a bit more tomorrow.