The Giving Up/ Cutting Down alcohol support thread - number 11

tracy_36

Hi all, not been on since last Thu - I was soooo bad, hormonal and a really bad time at work and I turned to the wine
Bottle of wine Thu night, and no, I didn't feel any better!

Only had 3 cans of lager Fri night, so not too bad, then a big night out with mate on Sat

I haven't had a drink since thou, so I have finally got to 7AF!!!

I sometimes wish my job wasn't so stressful, but then, I would be bored.....can never win

Cuppa, I am so with you on the emotional drinking, I need to get back to my mindset when I stopped for 3 months

Hope all is well

Tracy

CuppaTea

Tracy and Maman, its hard isn't it? I feel some days like I am treading water emotionally, especially when I am propping the kids up (as they want Daddy). I could easily bawl my eyes out with them some times.

I don't know what else to say, as today hasnt been a good one and i've spent most of it either with tears in my eyes or fighting them.

Bedtimes is worst as that's when Ds wants his Daddy most. He pulls on the emotional heart strings and fakes crying, which then leads to real crying. Even now, I can hear him faintly sobbing, but if I go in, then I know it will be worse tomorrow. He is crying as he wants me to go in and cuddle him....................oh s*d it, I will. His dad will be around tomorrow night as i'm at work, he can deal with it.

Its so draining playing good cop, bad cop, Mummy, Daddy, working part time, house, garden, shopping, cooking, cleaning, organising, social calendar, school liasion, voluntary worker, friend and daughter.

And breathe..............

tracy_36

Cuppa - could their Dad call them at night times? When mine were whining, crying etc, I just called him and he would just chat to them until they had calmed down...then again, when they are being pains for pains sake I just ignore them

And, just so you know, it does get easier in time, mine are 9 and 7 now, do everything for themselves, I am just here for pack ups and washing lol

I have made it to 8AF now tonight, and am out for dinner with my new fella tomorrow night - I have volunteered to drive - I will make it to double figures this month!!!!

CuppaTea

Tracy, yes Daddy does call, not every night, but at least half of them. That does seem to make DS worse, as it reminds him of Daddy not being here. Bedtimes for DS are the worst as then he wants his daddy most. I do understand that he is trying it on at times, fake crying etc, but other times I wonder if I am being too hard nosed and not allowing him to acknowledge his feelings and feel sad for Daddy not being here. He is truely a man's boy and in the absence of his father has taken to "adopt a dad", anyone's will do at the moment, apparently.

Thing is DS and Daddy are a chip of block and have a close connection, which is sometimes why i struggle to understand why DH is doing this.

Anyway, DS is still awake, he struggles to drop off, despite this hour, I worry that he won't cope at school, but I can't make him sleep. He's a good lad tho, he doesn't get out of bed or run amock, its just I can hear him tossing and turning and listening out for me.

Obviously I am more aware of it given the circs.

Right i'm now totally off topic, so i'll slip away. Night all

CuppaTea

tracy_36 wrote: »

I have made it to 8AF now tonight, and am out for dinner with my new fella tomorrow night - I have volunteered to drive - I will make it to double figures this month!!!!

Wanted to say :j:j:j:j:j:j

CuppaTea

And finally asleep at past 9pm on a school night, not great for a 5yr old is it? Not uncommon either. Luckily he doesnt seem to need the required 11 hrs sleep other his age do, but even so, its not fantastic considering he's been in bed since 7.30.

I'm tired, my eyes are stinging from crying and i think its PJ's time.

Night all and thanks for letting me rant.

ChocolateCupcake

2 AFD's to add for me please.

mackeroo

Cuppa ~ for what its worth i think you are doing a fab job, please dont beat yourself up too much. Your DS is experiencing a huge trauma in his life at the mo, but he knows that you are there for him and it sounds to me that you are letting him express his feelings at this loss, so please be kind to yourself

5 Af please Shaggy Struggled tonight, friend gave me a good bottle of wine as a thank you present and i was conjuring up all sorts of reasons in my head why i should open it this eve, but didnt. If i make it to Fri or even *gasp* Sat night AF then i will open this bottle of wine and share with DH (will pour him a wee glass tho! ) If i dont make it, then the good wine remains unopened, thats the plan!

gien

Cuppa, I'm so sorry to hear that you've been having such a bad time - stick in there and things will get better.

Another 1 AF night here but a leate night.

shaggydoo

Morning :hello:

2 more AFDs.



Shaggyx