New Year, New Me is here!

tootallulah

The mould is probalby not mould but the "leavings" of the moths, if it is powdery grey/white stuff and loads of holes it is moths. Shake everything, wash it if you can, freeze it is you can't and be super vigilant to break the cycle of eggs etc. I had a terrible moth infestation last year and I still have to keep shaking things etc, blooming pain in the bum.

thrifty_fifty

Right, the war has begun. ordered hanging traps, smelly strips and powder for the carpet. Enough to cover every drawer and wardrobe in the two bedrooms. Ha, ha moths!

thrifty_fifty

Morning!

Did a check of the rest of the clothing and items stored in the plastic box seem to be fine, so I guess I'll keep those in there. Best to make sure these things are disturbed in the future, by getting them out and wearing them. Will lose the weight this year

So after an epic day of sorting out yesterday-even OH got the bug- there are several trips to the tip to be made today. Still a long way to go with the sorting out, but the ironing board and hoover now fit in the cupboard under the stairs, the living room is a living room. Yay.

Hiddenidenity

Good morning hope all is well

Sounds like the sorting is going well x

thrifty_fifty

Had a nice potter around this morning. Went to Wilkos and got the face pack for my 'celebration box' so will make the box up in a bit.

Went to the garden centre and eyed up some potential new garden friends. Spotted a lovely dark purple Rhodedendron. And listening to a spot of the lark ascending always gets me in the mood for the spring. I'm going to fill the garden with flowers

thrifty_fifty

Boo the holiday is finally over. Really don't want to go back, and will not be getting stressy like I did before Christmas. First and most important thing to do is book 24 feb off. 6 weeks on friday. Grrr it can't come around quickly enough. Really just want an easy-ish day today. Hmmm.

Hiddenidenity

Good Morning

Hope today goes well x

thrifty_fifty

Today was hell, and when I though perhaps I should go to the doctors today, I am definitely going tomorrow. I need to get this anxiety under control. Work was full on from the moment I started, and an hour in I broke down in tears. I spent the morning feeling like everything happening around me was going too quickly, and when I went into town at lunch everything seemed too loud and when people were speaking it seemed like I was listening to them speaking from underneath water.

The cough which I thought was left over from my cold only happens when I get tense, and if I'm not in tears and anxious, I'm tired and just generally worried, about nothing in particular. I'm literally wishing my life away, I daren't have a mortgage because I'll feel trapped into working a certain amount. I don't want to work anymore I'm literally holding on to retire and I'm 31. I can't look forward to anything, I can't treat myself because I think if I spend the money something bad will happen because I was frivolous.

I keep putting a brave face on, laughing this off because I daren't go to the doctors because admitting something is wrong feels like I'm losing control and I'm so scared.

Hiddenidenity

thrifty_fifty wrote: »

Today was hell, and when I though perhaps I should go to the doctors today, I am definitely going tomorrow. I need to get this anxiety under control. Work was full on from the moment I started, and an hour in I broke down in tears. I spent the morning feeling like everything happening around me was going too quickly, and when I went into town at lunch everything seemed too loud and when people were speaking it seemed like I was listening to them speaking from underneath water.

The cough which I thought was left over from my cold only happens when I get tense, and if I'm not in tears and anxious, I'm tired and just generally worried, about nothing in particular. I'm literally wishing my life away, I daren't have a mortgage because I'll feel trapped into working a certain amount. I don't want to work anymore I'm literally holding on to retire and I'm 31. I can't look forward to anything, I can't treat myself because I think if I spend the money something bad will happen because I was frivolous.

I keep putting a brave face on, laughing this off because I daren't go to the doctors because admitting something is wrong feels like I'm losing control and I'm so scared.

Huge Hugs (()) Definatly speak to the doctor about how you feel xx

loumac

((((( HUGS )))))

You really should see the doctor hun, they will at least put you in touch with someone who you can speak to which should help. Maybe some medication just to help you get through the day will also help.

Keep your chin up. xx