feeling very down

LookingAhead

Hi rinkydink.

Been reading quietly away here in the back ground

I just wondered how far away your DS is from school.....if it's just a couple of miles or so and on a decent route, could you pick up a free bike from freecycle and save on bus fares?

Just a thought.

x LA x

joeblack066

Have PM'd you. Debs

joeblack066

Mine was a violent alcoholic too, with a lot of his anger directed at my kids from my first marriage. I KNOW how hard it is to let go, and remember it's normal to grieve the relationship, however bad it had got. You're doing great! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

rinkydink_2

Hi hic 36

Iknow exactly how you feel i was a single parent along time ago from day ds was born more or less till he was eight when i met not so DH!!! and now ive gone back to that although it is easier now as DS is 14 and never home but i know how you feel and weekends and bank holidays i used to dread those weekends are just the longest and the worst, And all friends spend times with their other halves while you just sit at home not talking to a soul and struggling on with the children and when you get them into bed you just sit there on your own dreading sunday as it will be exactly the same.

I remmeber when ds was little i just used to sit there and despair with lonelieness every thing seemed so bleak but things did change for me and they will again and so they will for you but that feeling is awfull i know im there with you now and im already dreading next weekend again, of course not having any money doesnt help at all does it especially when friends do ask you out and you have to decline cos of lack of funds and no sitter.

i hope i havent depressed you further i just think it helps to know there is some one else in the same boat and your not alone it has helped me to know this. x x x

ps im around all evening if you do want some company or just a good old moan and put the world to rights.

In_Search_Of_Me

Just found this & wanted to say well done for having the courage to leave. I know its hard but from personal experience as a child well worth it. The beatingsare hard enough to take but hearing them is excruciating...while things are tough at the moment they WILL get better as you & your son gather yourselves, develop some self esteem/worth and build a new life togeather. PLEASE dont go back to a violent relationship. Plan for the future a step at a time and as said previously just take it a day at a time. Use all the support you can and be honest with those close to you that you're struggling. People often find it hard to know what to do for the best so if you fess up it wil help them help you IYKWIM. Plan also for the times that you get lonely...a good book does go a long way and a thing of tesco bubble bath well worth the 38p...hope you sort your money out soon & manage to find work. Am thinking of you...big hugs,

janiegs

Good luck for tomorrow from me and the non-stop talking toddler!

hic36

Hi again, thanks for your comments rinkydink, it certainly does help to know that there are people in the same situation - some a lot worse than your own.
Have got both kids to bed now so might go and chill and watch some c**p on the box. You have made the first important step in getting out of the violent relationship, as you rightly say it is very tough especially with all your other worries on top, keep strong and i'm sure everything will work out fine for you. Fingers crossed in looking for a job, bear in mind that you could do as little as 16 hours and get wtc to top up your earnings.
Thank you for allowing me to mussel in on your thread, just felt as though I could put my twopenneth in whilst trying to lift myself as well. Big hugs :hello:

rinkydink_2

ok another day over and a much better one at that thanks to you all again i cant stop thanking you enough for helping me, I wish you all loads of love and hugs too, im actually feeling qiute up beat today, and dont worry im not having him back not ever ive just got to accept i will feel like c***! at times but it will pass and i can just come on here and have a chat like i did yesterday. goodnight all x x x

hic36

Hi rinkydink, glad you had a better day yesterday. Hope you have managed to get some things sorted out today and that it has not been too traumatic for you! Thanks for your support to me as well - that goes for everyone on here. Keep us posted on how you are doing looking for a job etc, but most of all keep your chin up, things can only get better!

rinkydink_2

hi there, well i signed on today (well started the process) got apt next Monday something i have to do im afraid jobs i applied for arnt responding yet, went and got another application form for local sommerfields its only part time but hopefully if i get it il get tax credits etc to top it up, typed a load of letters to my creditors i hope they take notice of my plight this time. What else oh yes lady from domestic violence unit rang there hopefully going to fit a panic alarm in my bedroom that will make me feel tones better as i said in my earlier posts i think night times are the worst being upstairs and the house isnt overly secure at the back being old, and DH knows how to get in if the mood so takes him! hes in court on Thursday to plea not guilty apparently, did some cleaning and ironing and that was the day done really but im doing ok thanks, got another apt with the womens aid solicitor tomorrow to get an injunction because DHs bail conditions only last till he goes to court on Thursday even though they are going to try and get an extension on those its best to double up with an injunction,

Hi hic 36 thanks for keeping an eye on me and im glad if i can offer you a bit of company to, and for the zillionth time thank you for everyone elses support it really is much needed the evenings are a bit lonely but not to bad i been so busy in the day hopefully i might go read in bed and drop of into the land of nod. x x x